Saturday, January 06, 2007, 7:04 PM
sad.

i guess no one understands me anymore. no one cares about me and it doesn't matter to any one what i want in life. i'm just living this life for her. cause she feels that it meant well for me. but did she even thinks what i want? did it even occur to her that i might not be happy with what i'm doing? i guess not.

i and sh went to singapore poly's open house. and took a bus to school of business. tour around the school. the courses sounds fun but it doesn't really lead me to my teaching career. so i guess. maybe not.

went to marina square after that. had lunch and i went to buy socks for school. stayed there till about 4.30 and went home. just as we went down the escalator, the train arrived and we had to rush. the door was about to close. and i hesitated. but i still went in. and i got stuck between the doors for awhile. the door sort of clip my wrist and my bag. i manage to pull my hand, but my bag was stuck. and manage to pull it out. lucky. =x my wrist hurts a little. but, it's fine. sorry sh. didn't mean to scare you. =( and don't worry. no one will beat you up. cause, obviously, no one cares. hahas. =)

i'm starting to get use to MI's life. i love the principal cause he cares for his students and interact quite alot with them. =) cool. he stands by the entrance every morning to greet his students. wow. it really makes a student feel welcome. haha. proper lessons starts next week. and hopefully i'll get use to the time table. guess it'll really drag till evening. and i guess i'll reach home about 7 plus. darn. >< but never mind. i love the combi i choose. and i feel it's the best combi! ^^

hmms. sometimes, girls think all guys are like bastards, while guys think all girls are like bitches. but i guess, it's unfair to some if we don't see that minority of the girls and guys are not bitches are bastards. i guess life is just unfair.

suddenly, i just can't help wondering what exactly are you thinking. one moment, you're making me feel as if i'm at the top of the world. but when i ask you what exactly am i to you, you made me feel as if it was just a wishful thought of mine. and it's making me confuse. i'm sorry if you don't like what i've just blog. and i'm sorry for calling you piggy. i'll stop it right away. sorry for not considering how you feel.

i'm just not in the right mood today. many things are bottled inside me. and i have no way to speak my mind out. i guess i'll be fine soon. hmm. my heart hurts a whole lot. my face is pain. and i'm having a freaking headache. but i guess, it just doesn't matter. i'm better off dead.

done blogging.

-just admit. i'm nothing to you.-

i no longer see the reason living on this world if i were to just do whatever she said. please spare a thought for my feelings. and spare a thought for my passion. it's just time for me to grow up and to do things that interest me.
"LOVE" doesn't seem to exist in this life anymore. i guess i've kicked it quite far away. i've receive all the love and care that i've always dreamt of wanting. and thanks. but i guess i've also had enough of crying through the nights.
right now, i just wanna walk away silently.

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