paradise

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2007-04-03T11:58:00.000+08:00

HEY PEEPS~

change link again. sorry for the trouble. =x

<3,
mehs``

a lesson learnt.

2007-04-02T22:11:00.000+08:00

i've always say, love yourself before you love others. if you don't love yourself, you have no rights to love others.

and yap. i've finally learnt to love myself more than others. =)

woke up at 10 again. -.-" then went to watch tv. left house about 12. miss talking to puay. and yaps. talked to her on the phone during her break. =) i board the train to meet sh. and while walking towards sh, everyone look at me la. i think i talked too loud. *sigh* it's not the first time can? =(

anyway, went marina square. yz came late. lols. so i went to buy a pair of shoes and sh bought a bag. then went down to meet yz at long john. she looked like a lost kid. sitting there waiting for the return of her parents. lols. =x anyway, had lunch, then went to bowl. =) miss bowling!!! lols. first round, i nearly won sh, but she catch up. and won me hands down. >< then second round, i was leading. until 2 rounds i got -|-.. sad can?? =( then finally, last round i spare and got another round. nearly hit the pin when the bowl went into the gutter. sians. >< in the end, lost to sh by one mark!!! WAHS!!! ='(

went to suntec to drink starbucks. and talk lo. miss school suddenly. all the fun and jokes. all the crap things that yk did in class. yaps. gonna miss that guy really much. lessons weren't boring with him around. lols. anyway, yz left and sh and me went to catch a movie. stomp the yard.

it's a really nice show. somehow, the plot is quite similar to that of step up. only that it's A LOT nicer. =) at the end of the show, i saw this sentence. and i guess it's pretty true. intelligence and character, is the key to pure education.-MARTIN LUTHER KING. lols. =)

went home alone. and yaps. thought about my life quite alot. =) suddenly i felt very fortunate to be able to go to school and gain some knowledge. though i was only working at the popular fair for 1 week, i realise that money just doesn't come easy. and studying is so much easier. =) i remembered talking to one of the suppliers that i'll work harder. she was pretty pleased to hear that. and she wished i'm her child. i guess, my parents will be happy to hear that too. lols. and i guess, i'll try my very best to work hard. =) opportunities don't come by easy. it's really up to us to work hard to get them. i'll do my parents proud. seriously. i'll work hard this time. and i wanna meet puay in uni!! =) i wanna study with her again. hehes. though i'll be one year her junior. lols. PUAY!!!! i miss studying with you. =)

many things changed. hahas. even now, this isn't the MEH i know. hahas. where has the MEH gone to? probably she has vanished from this world. hahas. =) still. i'll always be the happy little girl that lh know me as. =) guess, i'll really be a small girl from now on.

can or cannot? is in the state of your mind. if you think you can, you can. i used to have little faith in myself. but now, i know i CAN and i WANT to go to a UNI. =) not for any one, but myself. lols. SMU!! lols. hmms. love used to be a very wonderful thing. but i guess, it's no longer perfect anymore. i choose to step out of that world. =) HAs! people always say, "once bitten twice shy". i guess, in my case, it's "twice bitten thrice shy". lols.

wow. this entry sound pretty weird. but that's all for now. =) gonna change link soon. lols.

done blogging.

^{thinking back, i feel silly. lols. i made myself looking like a little bitch. maybe i am. lols. but who cares now? lols. i'll start this life all over.}

-it's only the beginning.-

-dead-

2007-04-01T21:19:00.001+08:00

nope. it's hard to be a strong girl.

sad to say, i can't take it.

i rather be dead than to feel this freaking pain.

sigh

2007-03-31T22:41:00.001+08:00

woke up like 10 plus. then went to watch tv. i wanted to catch the episode of my HK drama that i missed. lols. =P

left house at about 2.20. took cab down to watch topshop fashion show at VIVO. -.-" and gosh!! the female models are like freaking thin la. they are practically skin and bone. and EEEE~~~ can see the ribcage can. so disgusting. >< the male models are like super all. one had super nice legs. while another is rather cute. hahas. he looks like one jap actor. lols. =) there was 20% off storewide. it's only for members la. thank god my sis's friend invited her. =P that's why we get to see it. lols. you know 20% makes a HUGE diff?! i saved like 30 bucks.. hahas.

went walking around. bought donuts. had to wait for freaking 40 minutes. and it's not as nice as the one at raffles city. >< not that i'm fussy or what. but it just doesn't have the taste. =( had marche for dinner. nope. this time, i'm smart. i didn't order mashed potatoes. =P

met my uncle. talked for awhile, then went home.

many things happened recently. and yaps. my life is really going to undergo a HUGE change. it's just a matter of time. in the meantime, i'll try my best to do less shopping. SAVE!!! and that means, good-bye godiva. hais. before i could really taste it, i have to say bye to it. *argh* but well. no one will ever know what will happen in future right? i just wanna have a happy family. who cares about being rich, when family's love is so much more important. and HELLO~! i haven't seen my dad since i started working. and it's like 3 weeks?! *sigh* daddy. i miss you.

done blogging.

-it's time to be sensible-

a day!

2007-03-30T22:00:00.000+08:00

yap. finally step out of this house of mine. actually, driven out of this house. lols.

woke up at 8.45. cause my maid start waking my sis. and she threw my sis's bear on me. -.-" then my sis started coming to my bed and take it. then i woke up. and my maid off the air con. >< argh!!! i could have slept for another 2 hours. >< i tried sleeping back, but my maid started moving all the things from my mum's room to my room. cause the pipe in mum's toilet spoil. and some people are coming to repair.. damn. of all days!!! *argh*

so i slack till about 11.20, then prepare. met dum and crystal. went to collect dum's winnings. then went to bugis. went to play arcade. and met eve. wow!! how long have i not seen that lady?! hahas. ok ok. then went v8. gosh! it's still exisiting. hahas. the last time we went there with the other prefects, we spent up till 99 bucks. lols. dum and cong got a shocked of their lives. hahas. =x after lunch, went arcade again. then walk around. met ren, yq and their friend. then walk around again. saw yz!!! hahas. then went mos. then dar and cong join us lo. went sim lim to buy cong's stuff. then went home.

done blogging.

-i am all alone at the crossroads-

DOTS~

2007-03-29T16:41:00.001+08:00

i had the weirdest dream. >< how long has it been since i last pack books? about a week ago. and guess what? i dreamt that i was packing books to prepare for the next popular fair!!! >< and this time, the aprons aren't red. they are white. lols. ya! crappiest dream. second part of the dream was, some of us were appointed to help mjr's principal with some stuff la. gosh. shows how much i miss school can? i'm bored at home!!!!

woke up at 10.15. and the entire day, i only watch tv. hais. how boring can life get? =(

i miss school. i miss bitching around with eve and puay. eating sweets in class. sms-ing in front of teacher. but right now, my phone is damn quiet la. =( i miss rushing through homeworks! i miss doing well for exams!!! hahas. fine. ><

done blogging.

-it's time to play with fire.[if you know what i mean.]-

horrible.

2007-03-28T16:36:00.000+08:00

wah lao. 2nd day le. second day of having this stupid stiff neck. and it's worse than the first time la! >< *argh* hate stiff neck!! "stiff neck, go away, come again another day. little meh meh want to play. stiff neck, go away." argh!!!

woke up like 9.30. yaps. another day at home. i practically finish all the free trial of the yahoo games. >< and i'm still so bored. hais. 1 plus, my maid got her friend to buy mac for me. cause she was going lucky plaza. but 2 plus, she's not back. and i was like damn hungry. >< only had lunch at 3. which isn't call lunch le. more like tea break. lols.

friday, might be going to play mahjong. cause the man is coming my house to repair some pipes. and it'll be so noisy. so i decided to go out. wheee~~ hahas. tml might go out too. to play bowling. hahas. =]

hais. suddenly, all the memories just come back. no matter how hard i wanna forget it all. i just can't. cause you were just so special to me. hmms. but... nope. things won't be the same again. cause i'm completely out of your world...

done blogging.

^{i don't know, i am the one for you in this life.}

-trying my best to stay strong.-

i want too~~

2007-03-27T20:51:00.001+08:00

gosh. staying at home whole day is damn boring. all i can do is to eat, sleep and watch tv! i wanna go out!!! ><

yaps. my entry is all about eat, sleep and watch tv. how no life i can get. ><

just finish watching this show on channel 55. gosh. i want a guy to care for me too!!!! oh well. bgr can't be perfect like what we want them to be. so much for those promises. lols. =)

done blogging.

-darling. i love you. =)-

P.S: my darling is puay. hahas. =)

tired~~

2007-03-26T19:06:00.000+08:00

had a very nice dream last night. =) can't exactly remember what is it. but i remembered waking up with a smile. wow! hahas.=)

i switched my phone on, and received crystal's msg. in the end, i got to leave house at 11 just to pei her to the clinic and to collect her passport. and for the first time, she was on time. lols. =) anyway, went to somerset to collect her medical report. then when we are at the platform, then she realise that her weight was taken wrongly. she was supposed to be 43 kg. the lady wrote it as 52 kg. lols. i laugh and laugh. cause she's like so freaking thin, and yet heavier than me. lols. so funny.

then went to collect her passport. wah lao. the queue was so damn long la. we waited like an hour for her turn la. lols. and finally, her turn. wow. we waited for an hour. just for her to collect her passport within 5 minutes. -.-" that's like so lame la. hais.

went to TM. had long john silver for lunch. then met xl. after that went to ntuc to get my supper snacks. and finally, went to century. crystal went to take number to send her phone to "see a doctor". was quite long. so we went to see shoes. sians!! my purpose was to buy my shoes la. and they don't even have to stock! worse than far east.. -.-" so. went back up. and finally her turn. lols.

after that, we had nothing to do. so xl suggested to go catch a movie. we watched teenage mutant ninja turtle. it's like a damn crappy show la. lols. but somehow, it's like back to childhood days. lols. i remember watching ninja. but i hate all the fightings. hahas. anyway, i bought this popcorn combo, and they put the popcorn in the tin box. so after the movie, i throw all the popcorn away, and brought home the box. lols. =P

ok ok. school is like starting in 3 weeks time. yap yap. can't wait. to meet new friends and to learn to adapt in a new environment. some seniors ask me to chiong all 3 years. yap. especially first year. i must get into my favourite one!!! hahas. and of course. to have a higher chance to go uni. =) let's hope things will be good in tp. =) though he's in nyp!!!! AHHH!!! lols.

gosh! i'm treating my family to dinner this sunday. cause i got my pay. hahas. =) wheee~~

done blogging.

-i'm giving just this last chance.-

sians.

2007-03-25T20:46:00.001+08:00

been sick for exactly a week!! wow. =S even my singing now sucks. GOSH! hahas.

still thinking. volleyball? choir? bowling? or drama? volleyball..... HA! *in dreamland* =x

short post. don't know what to blog. my life is just so boring all of a sudden. ><

done blogging.

-love? sorry. i think i don't have that word in my dictionary. =)-

all gone. =)

2007-03-24T18:22:00.001+08:00

like they always say, "jiu de bu qu, xin de bu lai."

i deleted all the msg in my inbox. it's not accidentally. but it's purposely. lols. i kept like only 4 msg. which was like good night msg. hahas. the rest are gone. =) hahas. time for new messages! hahas. bored.

been dying of boredom the entire day. really miss working. at least time seems to pass quite fast cause i keep looking at him. lols. but ya. the craze should be over now. after the boring talk that night. *yawn*

slept my afternoon away. then got up and watch cartoons. life now seems pretty boring. =( gosh. how to survive till april? lols.

my friend ask me to go to a concert next friday. but i rejected it. i don't know why. choir just doesn't seem to interest me any more. i see no point saying i'm from sop when i've done nothing to contribute to this choir. hahas. =)

my new adventure will begin soon. =)

as for now. let me slack my hours away. hahas.

done blogging.

-silent break. again?-

boring 23.

2007-03-23T22:08:00.001+08:00

wow. i think i'm really fated with number 23. in both good and bad ways. lols. do you have any idea that there's a horror movie on number 23?! wah lao. ok. fated with 23, in a sense that many friends are born on 23rd. also that, 23 used to be a very special day. no more now. lols. and lastly, roland wore 23 on the first day of work. and he's my boss! so?? you see. i'm so fated with it. finally, puay's birthday today. happy birthday darling!!! =)

woke up like 10.30 this morning. then did my online registration. was freaking pissed off with my old printer. cause i have to try to print many times, there i finally get the whole full set of documents. sians. of all times, my new printer ran out of ink. -.-"

about 12.40, met crystal. took cab down to suntec. we watched happily never after, but we missed the first part. lols. the show was super lame. and it's only for an hour. so the show ended like 2. then we went walking around. wondering where to go and stuff. hk went to tbc. and we told her to forget about receiving johnny's call. cause his service not efficient de. lols. anyway, we walked about. then ended up at bugis to buy crystal's cover.

pearleen told me that she's in school, with chengyen and cailng. so i went back lo. we took mrt down. then bought bubble tea. reach school, talked to wu lao shi. can see that she miss us. wheee~~ hahas. then went to talk with dum and leonad. then went to canteen to sit. talked and complained to crystal about number of things. and eventually, i sorted out my thoughts. =)

then cailng came down, and i talked to her. talked about tp and him. hahas. cailng can't stand me. oops. =x ok ok. maybe i'm abit crazy. but i know this craze will be over. yap yap. lols. cause he's a boring guy!!! lols. =x anyway, i really miss her. =) saw christine too!!! wheee~~

left school about 6.30. went home with sh and crystal. =) saw this super cute boy. seriously. children are just so innocent. they have no idea that this world is actually so evil and so dark. this world is full of lies. and it's not as perfect as what they think it is. oh well. i wish i'm still innocent. hais. =(

wow. i'm starting to like this feeling of freedom. =) though i miss being in love. but.. hahas. no one to love now, i guess. =)

done blogging.

-just let me hold on to those memories we had. =)-

wow~

2007-03-23T00:24:00.000+08:00

talked to him.. wheee~~ wasn't very enthu with the conversation at first. it was like HELL boring. guess. another person who has different mentality as me. gosh! things got funnier as the conversation went on. =) hahas. not bad. =) but i guess it's the last time. i don't want to be bored to death again!!! SAVE ME!!! hahas.

done blogging.

-love my life now. alone. yet colourful. =)-

fate. =)

2007-03-22T21:53:00.001+08:00

wow. i really can't say i don't believe in fate. =P for a quite obvious reason. =)

met yz like 11+. we were suppose to meet at the head of the train. so i went in the first cabin. and she's actually at the second cabin. -.-" hahas. in the end we met. hahas. went to ocean building again. this time, it's her who needs to do the medical report. somehow, we didn't. cause the queue was too long. and we had to go to jurong.

so went back to raffles to meet sh. then another miscommunication. i'm quite blur today. =x anyway, we took train to jurong east. then went popular to ka jiao xiao ling. =x 3 of us can't help it but to start backing. and to put things to the proper place. lols. we bought our stuff. and used xiao ling's staff card to get some discount. lols. then xiao ling ask us to go have lunch first.

so we went to jurong centre to eat mac. eat half way, yz had to go to the loo. so she went out of mac to find one. suddenly, i receive her call. and guess what?! I SAW HIM~! HA! yap yap. then yz call me just to say, "DID YOU SEE THAT? DID YOU SEE THAT?!" lol. yaps! i saw!!! hahas. gosh!!! so freaking cute la. sh had to keep asking me to relax. lol. so cute. =x

after quite sometime, they left. =( but we still sat there. then we decided to leave. was about to cross the road to go back to popular. and he was opposite~!! ahhh~!! hahas. in the end, we didn't go to popular. we went back in, and look for xiao ling at food court. they were like joking and joking. somehow, i was in another world. hahas!! =x cut the crap. =x

went to orchard. did some window shopping. we took neoprints. which was like freaking long since i last took it la. lols. after that, went home.

everyone is in love. and gosh. lonely again. =(

done blogging.

-vanished into thin air-

long day.

2007-03-21T18:27:00.000+08:00

woke up at 9.30. then slacked and used the comp till about 10.45. quickly prepare to leave my house. and i took the entire booklet along with me.

went to raffles place for my check up. it was rather fast. didn't really have to wait very long like what sh said. lols. i'm perfectly fine! wheee~ i was quite afraid that i might have diabetes. cause i'm always munching on sweets or chocolates. but, THANK GOD!, nope. i've got none. lols.

went to the nearby building to take a passport size photo. hahas. i see a huge difference. though the previous one i took was a lot nicer. but too bad. i lost them all. =( hais. went to meet my mum. then had lunch at cafe cartel. after that, went to DBS for my tuition grant. as the same time, got my card. ha! been waiting for this day for ages! hahas.

went to apply for job at cathay. really wonder what's up with my sis hearing. or probably she's crazy over money. the pay was 4.50, and she heard 5.50. -.-" and i might have to work from 4 a.m to 6 a.m! 0.o i want my sleep~! hahas. and i was almost knock down by a car today. thank god, mum held me back. *phew*

guess who msg me today? yaps. roland. seriously. i didn't expect him to really msg me. but yaps, he did. 8 years my senior, also tp. and he has same hobby has jason! gosh! both volleyballers. hahas. should i join volleyball too? and i'm wondering if i'm in same school as jason. ^^ anyway, so much for the OH~-HE-IS-SO-CUTE craze. it has pretty much died down. hahas. probably because i don't know him, and we shouldn't judge a book by its cover. and probably because people are starting to see me as a bitch. lols. oh well.

was reading through certain people's blog yesterday. and only to realise that i've been neglecting certain friends. especially puay. =( feel kinda guilty though. hais. and i realised that some people are totally in love. hahas. love is in the air~~ hahas. good luck to you guys ad cherish the other party yeah. =) hahas.

going out tml. to meet xiao ling for lunch. =) as the same time meet up with yz and rowena. =) wheee. hope it'll be a great day.

done blogging.

-once again, i'm all alone. =)-

tired.

2007-03-20T18:11:00.001+08:00

i wonder how to readjust my human time clock. i woke up at 8. and i tried to sleep back. somehow, i woke up at 9.30. so came to use the comp.

talked to jia lat, yz and dylan. i waited for him to come online. and he did!! he did!! hahas. =) but ya. crystal taught me something. "haha" usually end a conversation. and yaps. i ended the conversation with "haha". DOTS! then i don't dare to talk to him anymore. AHHH!!! =( after that, i wanted to go out to catch a movie. somehow, it didn't happen. cause i wasn't feeling that well, and i'm lazy to go out. ><

i was feeling super tired. slept about 1.30. and i just woke up. like 5.45? gosh. i feel alot better. lols. =) tml got medical checkup. somehow i think the report will turns out quite bad. >< hais.

hopefully, i'll get a job at cathay there. pray hard. =) urgently in need of a job. hahas. and wheeee~~~ hopefully we can talk more. =) hahas.

done blogging.

-taking one step at a time.-

fun time!

2007-03-20T10:40:00.000+08:00

to entertain you, i specially gone through all the trouble just to get my pictures uploaded. and ta da! i'm going to present you the fun and special moments i had during this book fair. =) though it's only like a short period of time, yet the friends i made is really funny and cool people. =)

people i'll remember:
yun zhen
xiang lin
amanda
yeang cherng
philbert
marty
marcus
xiao ling~
pei pei[event supervisor]
roland[no.23]
HIM HIM HIM~! HA!

the moment you've been waiting for, PICTURES!

my masterpiece! i carry the boxes and display the drawing blocks! ha!

philbert at the back, yeang cherng and me in the front. =P

his backview~~~ gosh~! so high! hahas.

alex, me and jc. they were working at metro.

me and xiao ling(set up supervisor)

my grass, amanda, and me!

rowena and me!

yun zhen and me!

me, yeang cherng and amanda. =)

rowena, me, yun zhen and xiao ling. wheee~~ stationery department rocks!

a funny picture of philbert. lols.

done posting. =)

work.

2007-03-19T22:19:00.001+08:00

day 1
somehow, i'm in test and assessments department. and i seriously hate it to the core. cause i have to carry many books. >< and i think it's such a WRONG decision to put me there. lols. cause i've never like packing books and arranging them properly. anyway, i wasn't really used to it in the beginning of the day, but was more familiar with stuff towards the end. i was the only part timer there. and that sucks! i have like 8 publishers to handle. >< i was so tired at the end of the day. but during work, i was quite enthu. HA! cause someone gave me energy! wheee~~

day 2
got a hang of things by this day. did slack though. cause my leg was hell pain. >< and my hands had like 2 blue blacks and 6 on my legs. >< gosh! lols. but i was super high today. YAPS! he talked to me!! whee~~ lols. i didn't dare to look into his eyes though. =x hahas! he was only asking if i needed the trolley. and wow! he's so tall!! ^^ wheee~~ hahas. i'm like so high. and my ex supervisor, xiao ling, thinks i'm crazy. lols. dum made me jealous. cause he talked to him more than me!!! =( hmph. anyway, roland tried to take my number. but nope. he couldn't remember it. TOO BAD! hahas. he's quite crappy la. anyway, got this small boy pee on the floor[don't ask me how!], so they used a box to cover the part. and my supervisor ask me to make sure no one step on it. so i stood near it la. and it looks as if i'm the culprit. =(

day 3
my legs are so freaking pain. and i have 2 blisters. =( but still manage to survive till the end. yeah me! hahas. saw him many times. but didn't talk to him. =( roland didn't come today. cause he hurt his hand. LOL. =x went home quite early today. lols. anyway, he was at the door. and he checked dum's bag. =( a DAO girl checked mine! hmph!

day 4
was quite high in the morning. but felt quite giddy after that. i felt like vomitting. and i was having sore throat. so i ask for permission to rest at the eating area. i sat down at the back. i was sort of blocking people's way la. =x anyway, sh accompany me there. then she ask for panadol from xiao ling. xiao ling came to check if i was fine. so i took 2 panadols. then i close my eyes awhile. my headache was subsiding. when some one drag his shoes to the area la. then i open my eyes. i didn't see who. but i saw the shoes. and it was HIM!!! ahhh!! don't know if i should feel happy or not. but i was quite irritated at that time. cause my headache came back again. ARGH! after that, i felt alot better. and went back to work. i work till 9.30. and i know that i won't have a chance to see him. cause he won't come to my department anyway. so i said, if we are fated, he'll walked pass me before 10. and WOW! he did! he did! hahas. 9.58, he walked pass me. =) wheee~~ hahas. =) then going home, he is the one checking the bag. so i thought he can't check girls bag, since the day before, a DAO girl checked the bag. so i joked, i said that we girls don't have to get our bags checked right? then he said NEED.. WHEEE~~ so high!! hahas. ^^

last day.
crystal, sh, dum, and dar didn't go. so i met up with yz and gang. was cool. felt quite bonded with them. anyway, i went back to the stationery department. then quite alot of dirty jokes la. anyway, we were asked the fold the cloth thingy. it was pretty long. so me and yz fold one. it was pretty fast. but the DAO girl said, "some people no strength ma. need 2 people to fold one cloth.". freaking pissed off la. they get paid for sitting down and do nothing. and we get paid for carrying heavy cartons and standing for long hours. f*ck! they are so young and yet HOOK a guy who is a generation older. where the hell is your face? oh. i forgot. you are shameless. ha!=x ok. being mean. hais. i'm just not happy with how we are treated. and some guys have no balls! can't even carry heavy cartons. cartons that we girls can carry. BALL-LESS GUYS! hmph. ok. not all guys are like that. some guys are man enough to help out. =) whee~ hahas. anyway, something quite funny happen. lols. i was trying to push a wagon in between many. and amanda tried to make space for it. somehow, the wagons fell like dominos. so funny. lols. =x oh well. left early. hahas. went to hand in my timesheet. and i got quite a few job offers. hahas. ahhh!! i got his e-mail add. hopefully we could be friends? =x hahas! SO HIGH!!!! oh well oh well. last day to see him. guess no more bahs. =(

anyway, working in this fair really taught me alot.i saw how some kids reacted when their parents are buying assessments. some are enthu, some aren't. those who aren't, reminds me of myself. i hated doing assessments. and really, i'm quite happy that my parents are concern about my studies. and i ought to feel ashamed that i couldn't be bothered about my studies last time. =( anyway, my suppliers are friendly people. i was talking to the yellowreef supplier. and he called me a scholar. =) felt so happy to hear that. and i really felt like one suddenly. =x anyway, there was a joke between us. and yap. they don't want to see me the next fair. cause they wanted me to study. =) yaps. i feel happy. even strangers cared about my future. why shouldn't i care about my own future? lols. guess some things will change soon. =)

done blogging.

-you gave me all the energy i needed to complete this job. =)-

HIGH~

2007-03-17T23:53:00.001+08:00

WAHS!~~ i'm super high! lols. tml will probably be the last day i'm working. depends. hopefully not! i wanna go tear down! at least i've an extra day to admire... hahas.

freakingly having cold sore. and i'm disgusted with my leg. filled with BLUE BLACKS! yucks! finally, my finger nails all broken and my skin was kinda pealing. but i enjoyed myself. =) seriously. i love the friends i mixed with. yun zhen, xiang lin, yang cern, philbert, marcus, martini, amanda, xiao ling(set up supervisor), pei pei(event supervisor), johnny(xiao ling's friend), roland(no. 23). and finally, HIM! though i don't know him, but he's cute! ha! and he talked to me yesterday. only one sentence though. =( but anyway, still good! hahas. =x

anyway, learnt many things from this fair. my suppliers were friendly, love to joke with me. and really nice people. SAP supplier was always willing to help me. joke and crap with me. cosmic supplier is another one. super style, classy and humourous. he's super cool! hahas. =) not forgetting the pretty EPH lady who keep helping me. too bad, she hired 2 slackers as promoter. sad for her. =x

will update soon. time to rest my pathetic legs. another long day tml. and MORE BLUE BLACKS, BLISTERS, CUTS! GOSH!!! =( oh well.

i'm so high. =P

oh! call me a BITCH if you want to. =)

done blogging.

-cherish me. it's never too late. ^{but i guess you won't!}-

embarrassed. ><

2007-03-14T23:00:00.000+08:00

met sh 8.15. went to food court to drink milo. then went to start work. i carried like a whole lot of drawing blocks la. and it's freaking heavy. i was about to finish my display when the manager ask said, "it's nice. but..." and guess what? i had to take down all the display and put another layer before i put back the display. *ARGH*

went for lunch. ate with my department people. after that, we put display of the files. it was super heavy la. so my supervisor, ask me to carry. somehow i couldn't. so i ask that no. 23 guy to help me. but he was busy. and he ask that cute guy to help me. >< then i went away. =x somehow, the manager ask me to put more display on the wagon, so i went. and guess what? that no. 23 guy came and tell me the cute guy's name. -.-" DOTS!!! lols. did super many things. until i have about 9 cuts, and 4 blue blacks. YEAH ME!! lols. one of the cut was by the pen knife. lols.

went for dinner with my department people again. my supervisor can't stand the way i eat. lols. after that, went back to do other jobs. me and sh carried alot of heavy boxes. and when yz ask the guys to help, they complained. wtf. HELLO! ARE YOU A GUY OR ARE YOU NOT? if you are, i think i've more strength than you! you totally disgust me. and i think, you can forget about going NS. you sure can't make it. LOSERS!

xiao ling, my supervisor, ask me to ask someone to carry a plate. so i ask that no. 23 guy to help me. and he ask that cute guy to come. -.-" and the girls bully me!!! >< evil people. lols. anyway, he's cool. =) hahas. kinda slack from 8.30 to 9.30. i was packing the notebooks and the POP thingy. then he passed me the books to arrange!!! AHHH!! ok ok. i'm mad. lols.

was about to let the overall in charge to sign my timesheet. and that no.23 guy(don't know his name, but he wore a no.23 shirt yesterday. =x), told me, "i helped you alot today. i keep asking him to help you. so don't say i bad.". DOTS!!! -.-" anyway, tml i'm in another department. and that stupid no. 23 guy sure to ka jiao me. cause he is one of the IC! and he has to make sure i do my job. -.-" ^{just let me see him.} =) i'll miss xiao ling. hahas. =P

done blogging.

-i'm head over heels!!!! =P-

P.S:i'm not crushing on that guy. i just find him cute. HAHA!

first day at work.

2007-03-13T22:52:00.001+08:00

first day at work, was quite bad. did many sai kang. >< and ya~ i'm seriously not used to it. lols.

anyway, we started at 9. arrange all the tables. set the tables up. then put all the wagons. after that, we were divided into many departments. at first, i'm different with sh. but i volunteered to go to her department. lols. =) crystal was in chinese department, but me and sh in stationery de. lols.

our job was actually to arrange all the different types of notebook. we did half way, and was asked to help another lady. our immediate supervisor was nice. she treated us like her friends. joke and laugh with us. =) whereas the other lady tortured us. WHERE THE HELL ARE THE GUYS!? DEAD?! argh. we arranged and carried quite alot of things. as soon as we finished, she ask us to do another thing. -.-" can't stand her.

after dinner, our job was alot easier. we went back to arrange MORE notebooks. lols. and 5 notebooks is an hour of my pay! lols. that cheap. and it's nice. lols. =) got to know quite alot of people. they are really friendly. and one guy know me as the "CHOIR DE". then my supervisor call me the popeye. i wonder why.. hmms.

OH OH~! i saw this super cute guy!!! he's like SUPER tall. and SUPER cute. =) woots~ hahas. yap yap!! i wanna take his number!!! hahas. =) ok ok. soon. another 6 days later, i should get it. HAHAS~. =P and while carrying a plank, i knock this guy's head. >< oops~~

ok. blog soon.

-in love land? NAHS! don't think so. hahas.-

last post.

2007-03-12T19:28:00.000+08:00

i wanna seat CABLE CAR!!

boring monday!

2007-03-12T14:08:00.000+08:00

another boring day of the week. lols. i didn't even realise it's already the march holidays. lols. it used to be the time when i catch up with my schoolwork and finish all the LATE! work. lols. of course i would go out for 3 days or so. and use the sunday to do last minute work. hahas! miss those days when mum always nag at me for always doing last minute wor. haha. anyway, i'm starting to lose track of time. ><

woke up at 10 today. made a slight improvement. =) hahas. immediately, i switched on the comp. YES! freakingly addicted to this game. it's kinda like detective kind of games. whereby you look for all the items on the list. and you get to crack the mystery. lol. it's fun. =)

i wonder what's wrong with me. lols. been having lots of craving these days. and yap! had chicken chop for lunch today, after making quite a huge fuss. =x lols. went to buy chicken chop at the hawker centre and of course, made my way to econs minimart to buy jelly powder!! i'm making jelly today. =) whee~ it's for myself this time. i can't help it. i just can't stop eating this week. hahas. i predict i'll be sick soon. lols. =)

tml, officially, is the start of my work week. woohoo~~ i'll get money le. =) hahas. but somehow, i won't be able to meet potato, boon, puay and mummy. =( from the tone that puay gave last night, she wasn't happy. =S sorry puay!!! ><

damn. feel like bowling. >< lols. SH!! owe me a bowling date after this work! hahas. =)

i'm so bored. >< shall go back to my game. if not, my dvd!! hahas.

done blogging.

-i'll be heartless. not to anyone, but to myself.-

jogging sunday. -.-"

2007-03-11T18:17:00.000+08:00

woke up 11 again. slept until so nice. =) sleeping shall be my future hobby. lols. had a lot of breakfast. ><

lunch was quite late. and i spent half my day watching my show. lols. watch till 4.45, my mum drag me to the gym. did some workout. then came home and use the comp. >< gosh. i feel so lazy. worse! i've got work next week. -.-"

to puay: MISS YOU ALOT!!

lols.

short post. don't know what to post. lols.

done blogging.

-shopping mood!-

it's about time.

2007-03-10T22:20:00.000+08:00

woke up like 11. finally i slept until so nice. =) then used sis comp. my cousin came. ^^ then had lunch. watch my dvd. suddenly, i scream. my snowy's tail coming off. ='( my mum asked me to throw. but i didn't want to. HELLO. snowy was the only thing that kept me company through lonely nights. kept me company when i was feeling down. i want a new toy!! =(

watch till like 6.45, then left house. went tm with mum. was freaking squeezy la. had dinner at central. then went shopping. then came home.

hmms. was talking to a senior last night. he told me that no matter what, i was a small girl in his eyes. oh well. suddenly, i wish everyone who know me, will see me as a grown up girl. and not a small little kid who only know how to throw her tantrum. but i guess, it's not that they want to see me as a small kid. but it's just the way i present myself. =)

then, i was talking to mum during dinner. i told her that my purpose of getting into triple science was partly because i wanted to show everyone that i could do what my sis can. and i wanted my parents to be proud of me. my mum then told me that i did't had to do that. cause everyone has their own strong points. and mine, is definitely not studying. i have to agree with her. she told me that she has always been worried about me. she was afraid i couldn't move on to the next part. and i felt a sense of satisfaction when i finally put her mind at ease when i manage to do well for Os and move on.

at that instance, i wish that i could really do well in poly to show my parents that i didn't make the wrong decision in choosing that course. and that i'll do my very best in whatever i choose to be. =)

the most beautiful lady is not the girl with looks. but the girl with confidence in herself.

so, i've decided to be a beauty of my own life. a girl, not with looks, but a girl with confidence. i know i can. =)

it's just time to isolate myself. to isolate myself from this world of lies. to prevent myself from getting hurt again and again. and yes. ~~i find it hard to love you now.~~ probably because i don't know what's in your mind. and probably i don't even exist in your world now. it just so difficult to pretend that i'm absolutely fine in front of you. but deep down, it hurts so much. that i feel like crying out. but, i guess it doesn't matter anymore. sorry. this heart has long stop beating. that very day when you no longer care.

work starts next week. and only for a week. 13-19. i'll find another job after that. gotta expose myself. and gain more experience. and no more rotting at home. i hate staying at home! >< damn. feel like bowling.

done blogging.

-i got to change myself totally.-

friday.

2007-03-09T22:57:00.000+08:00

woke up like 9 plus today. then came online to check something. then got prepared at 11.30. wait for crystal to leave house from 11.45 to 12.30 la. -.-" then went to see doctor. she took mc. lols.

we took cab to IT fair. it's friday, and it's like super crowded. seriously, did those people even went to work? lols. went to 4th floor. took many brochure. then went lenovo to take brochure and look for xl and dylan. went to ka jiao shu ting, cause she was working there too. i saw my ex boss. but he didn't see me. saw many familiar faces. didn't see yousri though. lols. then was talking to xl when suddenly someone tap my head la. then it was dylan. -.-" talking to customer still ka jiao me. -.-" anyway, we left after a short while. and stupid dylan complaint why i didn't get him something. *arbish*

took cab to mjr. saw ms quek. didn't chat much. then went to canteen to slack. after that went to choir. gosh. i just love the sound of sop. and seriously, i miss being in choir alot. =( sang NAME THE TUNE along with them. and wow! i still know the tune k? not bad. lols. met many of my juniors. miss them loads. =) was about to leave when i realise CHRISTINE was in school. took picture with her. sis! i miss you hell loads! wanna go out with you soon! and with cai cai!! hehes. =)

then left. took taxi to marina square. wanted to bowl. but so many people. we waited for like an hour before we got a lane. then we bowl lo. first round was bad. then second round was super funny. guess what? i saw this super cute boy. think he is only 5 years old. he carry the ball, put it at the line there, then he push and let it roll. when it was gutter ball, he still clap and run to his mummy and smile. so cute lo. =) and got this round, he bowl first. and he hit 6 pins down. and i hit none la. >< but he is cute. =) his overall points was 19. hahas. *claps* hahas. guess what? i finally win dum in the second round. mins 96, i'm 78 and dum 73!! hahas. =x

here i am back home. gosh. lenovo's laptop caught my eye! lols. anyway, currently talking to a few friends. my senior, who somehow become my er zi. glenn and jian yao. gosh. suddenly miss mjr. =( puay! when are you jio-ing me out?? ><

done blogging.

-HA! call me bitch for all i care.-

steamboat day!

2007-03-09T10:45:00.000+08:00

woke up like 9.30. had breakfast and stuff, and started making my chocolate truffle. looks kinda nice. =) left it in the refrigerator for like an hour or so. the took it out, roll it into a ball and add some toppings.

i slacked all the way till 3, then left house and met mins, eve and yu ren at parkway. i took cab down. -.-" i gave them my pudding and chocolate. they said the chocolate too sweet. but i didn't even put any sugar. >< sians. then walk around. was feeling crappy. so i crapped alot. ><

took bus to eunos and mrt to marina bay. met dum, dar and crystal. took bus 400 to chong pang. i love chong pang! lols. started our steamboat. i was so lazy to cook, so i just ate whatever they cook. we chatted quite alot. finally caught up with each other's life. of course there was alot of joke. the entire time, we were gossipping, crapping and laughing.

as soon as we finished, we went to bowl. yu ren, me and min one team, dum, dar and crystal another team. quite crappy la. i only strike once, and spare twice. >< sians. after that, went to play acrade. suddenly i saw an extra head. then realise it was angel de. -.-" after that, went home.

saw the night scenery of CBD again. my future working area. =) yaps. then crap alot on the way home. was super sleepy. >< AND THERE IS NO WAY AM I EVER WATCHING HAUNTED SCHOOL! NO!!!

today, going IT fair. go pay "uncle" dylan a visit. lols. and xl of course. and stake many many brochure for my laptop. lols. should be going back mjr bahs. i miss school. =)

who says nothing last forever? memories do. =) and they'll always remain in my mind.

done blogging.

-i'm a fu*kin bitch. LOL.-

pictures day!

2007-03-07T12:23:00.000+08:00

slept super late. didn't know why. i just couldn't sleep. ^{guess i was worried about you.} anyway, somehow, manage to fall asleep.woke up like 10 a.m. then came online and chat with a few friends. angel finally decided to appeal. =) follow your heart man! hahas. then made my mango pudding. who wants?? lols.

as you can see, i also changed my blogskin. though it's super pink and blah blah blah, but ya. kinda nice. and the navigation pictures make me feel hungry. >< not sure what to do later on. maybe watch my dvds. lols. and ya!! mummy asking me to look for new lappy. wheee~~~ finally!! hahas. kk. i'm not some kind of rich girl who will have whatever i want. so having a laptop is something exciting! hahas.

ok ok. some friends went to jc for orientation. hopefully things turn out well. =) for those who are waiting for their appeal letter, don't give up. keep that positive thinking, you will never know what the outcome is. =) smiles. of course, for us, poly students, we are already in the next part of life. whereby we won't really be dependent on teachers and it's really up to us to choose what we wanna be in future. =) i guess i didn't make any wrong choices. hahas. =)

ok ok. enough crap. crapped too much recently and all my entries turn out to be junk. lols. anyway, pictures time!!

my self-made manicure. =P

"gorgeous" necklace i saw at diva.

my beloved black titanium ring

my niece!!

woke up and saw my brownie patting the head of my wee wee. =x

mins, eve and me!

this pooh bear phone thingy. so nice. =)

took a photo of the sweet innocent girl i saw yesterday. =) cute right?! i want a baby too!! lols.

my for-no-reason cut. -.-"

done blogging.

-always wanted to feel your love again.-

posting.

2007-03-06T22:28:00.001+08:00

slept like going 2 this morning cause i was chiong-ing my HK drama. lols. i love the ending. =) who dare to doubt the power of love? hahas.

my maid woke me up this morning, telling me it's 8. so i quickly went to check my posting. HA! TP! my first choice. so happy. after helping glenn and sh checked, i realised it's only 7.30 la! so i went back to bed. but i left my msn on. i heard a lot of sound. cause of the msn. and i couldn't stand it. so i woke up at 9.45. then chatted with my friends. left house about 11.45.

went to PS so repair my heels. saw sihui. hahas. then after that, i took mrt to orchard. walked to lucky plaza. suddenly sh told me her building shaking. then my mum's msg came, saying that there was earthquake. >< after going lucky plaza i went MOUNT E. wanted to take my medicine. but somehow, i can't rmb which level. so i called home. sis said 14, but i had a feeling it was 6. so i trusted my sis. i went to the lift and wanted to go level 14. but that lift only up to level 11. so i went to another lift and up to level 14, but not that clinic. then went to 13, down to 12, to 11, to 10. still don't have. so i went to level 2. then went to level 8. finally i ended up at level 6. DAMN! why didn't i trust myself? ><

after collecting, i called my maid. then i told her what happened. and she laughed. so i told her i'm so guilty for not trusting myself. i hurt myself so terribly. but at least, i'm starting to love myself so much! hahas. and she laughed. i was walking along the underground. and it's blackout la! shows how serious is the earthquake. so i told my maid i'm scare. and somemore this guy keep blocking me. i wasn't sure what he was doing, until i realise he was trying to give me some leaflet. lols.

took mrt to city hall to meet eve, dum and dar first. i thought i was late. in the end i was the earlies. -.-" then went to ka jiao min. hahas! she same course as me. guess TP is now flooded with all MJR-ians. lols. anyway, when the rest came, we went asian kitchen to eat. and i ordered prawn wantan. then the waiter was trying to inform me that what i ordered has no noodle. being blur, i asked, "so is there wantan?". then eve, dum and dar laugh at me. >< lols.

went to arcarde. watch dar play. then went to meet crystal. after that went to the fountain there to pei dar withdraw money. GUESS WHO I SAW?! HAHA!!! yes! him! wow. lols. didn't expect to see him there, but ya! i saw. cool right? lols. =) anyway, i have never talked to him before. and ya. i'll keep strictly to my law. =P
MEH's LAW 2: cute guys to look at. handsome guys to admire. perfect guys to want and have them as boyfriends/husbands. ok. lame law. lols.

after withdrawing money, went gelare. had small waffle. half price. lols. the rest had ice creams. i ate 5 cherries today. =P then we sat there and talked. saw this super cute baby with HUGE eyes! she look so innocent. =) simply love her. lol. then we talked about guys. jordan say something about acs. and i said, "ACS, MAMA BOY.". then eve said, "mjr also have one. but it's mummy's boy.". so i said, "MJR, MUMMY's BOY". lols. went to carrefour. i bought heavy cream for my chocolate TRUFFLE! lols. making it on thursday. pudding tml! hahas.

went home about 6.30. on our way, we keep teasing dum. then we said,
eve: xxxxxx is
me: mjr's
dar: mummy's boy.
then he so paiseh. lols.

walked by citylink. and i saw dylan. lols. then eve ask me why i blush. I DIDN'T!!! hahas. she said he isn't bad looking. weird. guys who are handsome always think they are ugly and are no wanted by girls. but it always seems the other way round. HAHA! that applies to both dan and dylan! =P

went back to min's shop and ka jiao her. but i was super hungry, so i went to buy kinder brueno. hahas. finish both by myself. =P then went home.

hmms. always wanted to be by your side no matter what happens. but i guess you don't need me to. anyway, take care and smile always. you'll never know who will fall for your smile. =)

done blogging.

-freaking cut. for no reason.-

baby monday!

2007-03-05T16:23:00.000+08:00

some students still went back school to attend the last day of first 3 months. while some are enjoying their holidays. some may still be working. as for me, i'm home slacking. lols.

mum is home today, so it's kinda obvous that i won't be home. expected. lols. was kinda in a baking mood today. wanted to do chocolate truffle, but i have none of the ingredients. -.-" so i was about to do the pudding. before i can start, my mum pulled me to granny's house.

bought my lunch and some dumplings for granny. then walked to granny's house. guess who was there? my beloved niece!! lols. i had lunch in the kitchen. then i was talking to the maids. suddenly they told me something very funny. lols. they said i have a boyfriend. lols. ERMS!!!! like since when? i told them i don't. and they laughed and said that my mum allow me to have one only after 18. and they claimed that i can tell my mum about it, if i have one. -.-" erms.. HOW COME THEY KNOW SOMETHING THAT I DON'T?! lol. hmms. weird. anyway, good. i got about 2 years to find one. hahas. anyway, we chatted. it's really cool talking to them. HAHA! =P

after lunch, i went to play with my niece. she's kinda active. lols. she crawls around the house. and not to mention violent! she threw her toys every where la. dots. she loved exploring the house, rather than being in bed. lols. played with her a little longer. then went to view a condo nearby with mum. i love the design. except that the house is super small. like WAY smaller than my house. lols.

took taxi to parkway. bought 1 more top. then went to buy MORE HK dramas. lols. and bought a blender. gosh. that guy who serve us know his products damn well. HAHA. and and.. erms. hahas. nothing. took cab home again. and i told my mum i wanna learn driving during year 3 and of course after poly, can find job with driving license. and the driver said, "be taxi driver lo. also need driving license.". -.-" dots.

so here i am. home. so freaking tired. tml going out. and damn! posting is out tml. pray hard i get my first choice!!! lol.

done blogging.

-I HAVE A DREAM. --Martin Luther King-

slack my sunday this way.

2007-03-04T20:37:00.001+08:00

woke up like 10.30. then sat in front of the tv whole day. didn't do much. just busy chasing my HK drama! lols.

everyone is like getting a job. and i only got a job for a week. >< gosh. i feel so pig. >< lols. dylan went back to the lenovo job, xing lun too. and they asked if i was going back. i guess nahs. so lazy. and i complained to dylan why charlie didn't call me. and he said that even if he were to call me, i won't go back. say until he know me so well. lols. anyway, have 2 missed calls this week. weirdo numbers. hmms.

tuesday posting!! hahas. then i'll go back to the agency to ask for more jobs. hopefully i get one. i need more clothes! hahas. and finally! FINALLY can buy new shoes. lols. thursday going steamboat. wheee~~ i finally get to see eve and mins! =)

ok. done blogging.

-black titanium. love.-

broke.

2007-03-03T17:56:00.000+08:00

woke up at 9 plus today. cause i slept at 1 this morning. then remembered it's dylan's birthday today. so wished him. lols. and he replied super late. cause he was drunk and only woke up in the evening -.-"

anyway, let house at 11.15 and went IMM with mum. freaking pissed off with those who push their ways up the shuttle bus. HELLO! you're hurting the person you pushed! heartless people! hmph. went S&K and bought 2 tops. 60% off!!! lols. then went to ebase. mum bought 2 shirts for herself. then she went to bysi or something like that to buy another 2 tops. and she gave me 150 bucks to spend for poly clothes. LOL! i only spent 50 today. =P cause i bought an esprit pants for 30. lols. =P

absolutely nothing much to shop at IMM. so left there about 4.30. took cab home. =P

wheee~ i'm going to make chocolates soon. =P

done blogging.

-do you still love me?-

^^

2007-03-02T21:00:00.000+08:00

i got a black titanium ring!!! ^^ super nice. =)

done blogging.

-this part of my life is "stupid".-

furious thursday!

2007-03-01T20:30:00.001+08:00

woke up like 8. gave dar miss call. wanted to call dum, but decided not to, so ask dar to call. then got prepared and left my house.

met all of them and went to clementi. a few jokes on the way, so the entire journey didn't seem like a long ride. then went to take bus 183. and guess what i saw? i saw POP something. erms. that lolly pop la. so i bought. =x

we kinda lost our way to the building, but thanks to a girl i met on the bus, we found our way. then we were late for the interview! actually, it turns out to be a briefing. -.-" but never mind. went back to suntec to get our time sheet and schedule.

went to pizza hut at suntec. the service was supper slow and horrible la! we waited for half an hour just to get our drinks. and those who came after us, got theirs first. HELLO! freaking pissed! and our meal came before soup!!! -.-" couldn't enjoy this meal at all. argh.

sh and glenn left first. so dum, dar, crystal and me went bowling. and my first try was super good! i got spare! lols. tyco. =x lols. in the end lost. lols. went to buy pop corn. had cravings. =x lols. after sometime, sh came to find us. then left again. lols. then dar left. so 3 of us walk around lo. 6 plus got home.

i saw a couple today. ex mjr-ian. somehow, deep down inside, i felt lonely. i'm pretty much used to this life now. yet, sometimes, i wish there was someone there to hold my hands and to assure me that things will be fine when i was down. friends filled that space sometimes. a hug from them to let me know they are there. but.. all i want was just to be loved.... hmms. never mind.

done blogging.

-it's back to this life.-

boring wednesday.

2007-02-28T18:03:00.000+08:00

woke up 8.40. laze in bed again, till 9 plus. then got up. was suppose to go to the west to meet my MI friends when mum didn't allow. so i stuck at home. ><

hmms. i spent my afternoon watching my HK drama. and i'm like finishing soon. =D hahas. i love the part when the guy propose to the girl. he ordered an "eden wedding" drink for her. and said,
"Eden dreams, is the begining of my dream. Eden's wedding, is the continuous of this dream.". lols. ok. cut the crap. i watch from 2 till 5 plus. and guess what, i learnt many meanings of flowers. =) and right now, i'm in love with african lily!! cause it has a special meaning. =) happy finding it out. lols.

gosh! there's an interview tml. and i've waited for so long! pray hard i get it!!! i need that freaking job urgently!!! =x.

oh oh!! guess what i did today? i actually painted my nails french pink. =x i was thinking whether to do french manicure or to paste the nail art. in the end i paste nail art. and i have many many purple butterflies. ^^ looks quite childish. =x

done blogging.

-get me a forget-me-not, and it'll be true love.-

pathetic tuesday.

2007-02-27T22:06:00.001+08:00

woke up like 8 plus and laze in bed till 9. then i went to buy some things and then went to make jelly. =P then watch a few episodes of my HK drama. =x had lunch about 11.30, then went to meet dum to go crystal's house.

we played like so many rounds of mahjong la. and i felt so damn pathetic. it's like about to HU already, then they HUJ before me!!! -.-" like so many times can? and i still ZHA HU!!! i was so paiseh! and thank god, none remembered my cards. lols. as we went on, i got even more bored. lady luck just wasn't watching over me. =(

there was this joke. dum informed us that this guy got beaten. so crystal said that if those act cute girls were to blog, they'll blog "XXXXXX got beaten NEHS.". so i said, if those ah lian were to blog, they'll blog "XXXXXX GOT BEATEN LEHS! SO JIA LAT!". lols. we're so crap. i know. =x

played until like 6.50, then went left crystal's house. i lost like 5 plus. >< hais. next time play mahjong must not gamble. lols. =x

well well. thusday, there's an interview. next tuesday, POSTING!!! so fast. lols.

damn. i was having super bad gastric pain. it's freaking pain!!!! >< nearly cried. =( mum gave me 2 tablets. and i felt better. =) thanks mummy!! <3

done blogging.

-pAthEt|c. bRoKe. uSeLeSs-

funny monday.

2007-02-26T19:36:00.001+08:00

got up at like 7 plus. >< then got up to follow up with my HK drama. =x yes! sh is calling me HK drama queen. lols. =x anyway, finish at 11, then prepare to go out and left house at 11.32.

waited for crystal for like half an hour!! lols. 12.02 then she came. then met dum and dar. went to lido, just in time for the movie. and they bought two super large popcorn. then met sh and glenn. we were practically having popcorn war in the cinema la. lols. dar laugh so loud. hahas. when the show end, my seat was filled with popcorn. lols.

went to cine for pasta. then had italian soda!! yummy. hehes. walked around, then went far east. crystal bought so many clothes. then finally 5 plus went home. lols.

wheee~ tml suppose to make jelly, guess i have to rush. going crystal's house to bai nian after that. =x and play mahjong!! lols.

done blogging.

-have faith in whatever you do.CONFIDENCE!!!-

sleepy sunday.

2007-02-25T20:31:00.001+08:00

did you hear that?!?! there's fireworks!!! OMG! and where the heck am i? home!!! =( i wanna see fireworks. with anyone, just get me out there to see fireworks!!! =x

anyway, slept 1 am this morning. cause i was watching the HK drama while sis was watching saw. lols. erms. then woke up 8 this morning!!! i only have like 7 hours of sleep. ><

went to temple again to pray grandfather. and the smoke can really suffocate someone la. my eye hurts the moment i left the temple. >< sis drove dad to work, and we went to visit uncle. gosh! he is so thin!!! and yaps. he gave each of us a hug and said, "it's better to say this now before it's too late, i love you.". awww. guess it's really important to live our life to the fullest. =)

then we went to haig road there to get sis bakery stuff. and i bought my agar agar and pudding powder. =) yaps!! i'm making it on tuesday. and i'll give it to a speacial person on wed, if i see that person. =) wheee~~ i'm freaking excited. and please! don't scream if you see me. =P

came home. and slept from 1 plus till nearly 6!!! gosh! i'm wondering if i can still sleep later. i feel so pig. >< and i'm hook onto the HK drama. =x hahas. can keep myself occupy on tuesday too.

thursday is drawing near. and i'm so excited. i need this job so much. urgently~! lols. i still got a slipper to buy, a shirt to buy, a top to buy and 3 quarters!!! lols. ok. i'm poor and i'm acting rich. -.-" gosh. i hate myself. lols.

FINALLY!! FINALLY~! i finally cleared my inbox. =) 50% of them are like sh's msg. 40% are like crystal's msg. and 10% are others' msg. can you imagine? lols. had a hard time clearing them. =x many things came back to my mind. like during the expo, i saw ms ong, and she wish me luck before she left. then it was orientation, whereby i msg sh and tell her orientation was hell boring and i wanted to pon. lols. of course, i keep complaining to her how stupid PE was and that i always have the thought of pon-ing school every tuesday. lols. then finally, when collection of O level results, so many people's msg came in to wish me luck and ask me how i did. dylan was kinda persuading me to go CJC with my results cause i did better than him by 1 mark. but now, CJC is like 10 pointer!! HELLO! lols. and there was jialat trying to ask me to go SP. lols. then mum, aunt and uncle congratulate me for doing well. lols. and then some seniors and other friends were happy for me. lols. =) wheee.

the new chapter has began, as i have said. the future that lies ahead is something none of us know. but i'll try my best to overcome each obstacles. i know i will. cause i have friends and my family. =) the love they give is more than enough. i guess i don't wanna get hurt another time, do i? lols. =)

done blogging.

-me, ME, mE, Me~-

cool saturday.

2007-02-24T22:14:00.000+08:00

woke up from my dream this morning, and immediately told my mum i want kfc for lunch. just had the urge to eat it. =x

met crystal at 1.20, when i'm suppose to meet her at 1.15. wow. my first time to be late when meeting her. lols. and ya! i manage to save my money to go slimming centre thanks to crystal.( i'm trying to tell you that she made me walk alot today.) and ya. we went to TM's 4th floor. then went down and went to centry square. walk all the way to 3rd floor and down. went to the shops opposite centry. then went back to TM's second floor. went back down and to centry's 2nd floor to buy her shoes. not only did we walk alot, we spent alot too. lols.

came home at 4. then rest till like 6 plus, then i went out with my mum to parkway. wasn't really in the mood to shop. but mum went ebase, and i bought a black button shirt and a long pants. that's all for clothes. went banquet for dinner. i had chicken chop. =P and then went to poh kim to buy dvds. =x i bought 2 shows, a total of 6 sets. =x gosh. then mum went shopping. lols.

just reach home. =x and i heard this super nice classic song in the taxi. gosh~! i tell you, classic songs are the best songs! the only songs that truly express your feelings. lols. i'm mad. ><

hmms. i finally know the reason why sometimes people lie. and ya. if my family was to know the truth, probably all our lives will change. and mine will change the most. come on! why when things are perfectly fine, and such lies have to appear? i really love all of them. and i don't wanna lose any. =( and if truth were to find it's way, seriously, i wish some one will constantly be there for me. cause i know i'll never take that. ='(

done blogging.

-you're the meaning in my life, you're my inspiration.-

wow.

2007-02-24T12:43:00.000+08:00

not sure what's exactly going on in my mind. i think it's probably i'm stuck at home for too long and my mind is getting rusty.

i miss going MI, playing and crapping with my friends, pon-ing lessons and slacking in library, eating in the canteen together, sleeping during lessons and playing our handphone games. and yes. thought i know them for a short period of time, only for 1.5 months, but i feel as if i know them for like 2 years. =)

that day my ex choir chairman ask me to give him ideas for his compo. and at that moment, i suddenly realise how long was it since i last written a compo. and how long was it since i was that proud of writing my compo. lols. though my vocab isn't that fantastic, i'm still proud of my own work. lols.

last night, i dreamt i was back in school. having fun with both my MI friends and secondary school friends. suddenly, i wish i can go back to school. poly will no longer be the same as secondary. and thus it's about time i should learn to be a grown up and be independent. no more throwing tantrum. lols.

oh well. =) just love my friends.

nice friday.

2007-02-23T20:42:00.001+08:00

yesterday, crystal, glenn, sh, dum and dar came my house for mahjong session. dar helped me pay my loss. >< feel so bad. lols. but at least he won in total k? hahas. =x anyway, hope they had fun.

mum and me are fine now. =) but i still haven't apologise. >< hmms. anyway, i shouldn't have quarrelled with her. look at what she threw? she threw almost all my things away. =(

today, slept till nearly 10. then woke up and prepared to go out. before that, i watch disney playhouse. =x

met sh at eunos, then went orchard, lido. we watch dreamgirls. it rocks man! the actress and one actor has nice voices! strong and powerful voices. gosh. i wish my voice can be like them. =( anyway, jennifer hudson has nicer voice than beyonce. =x anyway, it's a show you all ought to watch. and i wanna watch again. anyone wannt ask me? lols.

went to cine to walk around and search for my maid's cake. couldn't find, so wanted to go heeren. in the end it was raining. so we sit at the foodcourt for a while. then decided to leave. so we had to run under the rain. but it seems like we walked instead. lols. then bought my maid's cake in n.y.d.c. met crystal and alex to go home together. =)

here i am back home.

shit. i need new heels and slippers!! but i'm kinda broke. hopefully i get the job. pray for me. =) hmms. feel like watching chingay tml. but it'll be damn crowded. and i feel like watching fireworks. who wanna go? =x

P.S. i miss my MI friends. =)

done blogging.

-missing you, yet don't know how to tell you. does it even matters to you?-

=(

2007-02-22T18:34:00.000+08:00

not in the mood to blog. hmms.

hope my friends had fun today.

oh well.

done blogging.

-you never treated me the way you did before. which makes me sad.-

pissed.

2007-02-22T00:02:00.000+08:00

^{fook!

i'm freaking pissed. get off my nerves!}

day 4 of new year.

2007-02-21T20:44:00.000+08:00

woke up like 8 plus to reply bud's msg. then slept till like 9 plus. then i play the games in my phone till like 10. then woke up and got prepared to leave my house. in the end, i met crystal at 11.30. lols.

went to TM to meet dum, dar, sh and glenn. cause they went to suntec for some interview. lols. then i went to help my sis get her stuff. then took mrt to sh's house. walk like freaking long. and the sun was blazing. ><

finally reach her house. =x wish her mummy and daddy happy new year and gave oranges. then went to the leaving room to watch BRING IT ON. watch half way, then went up to continue watching. some played pool. then me and dar went down to collect pizza when it came. then went back up and watch. the show rocks totally. and there are some bitches and bastards. lols. "B.I.T.C.H". lols. anyway, we played pool, played dai dee, played blackjack and in between. at first i won quite a large sum. then started losing and lost dum's money. =x oopsy. =x of course we watch many shows and i ate many food. lastly, i drank alot of pepsi. >< feel so sinful. =x

went home like 6.30. then crystal met her bro, and i went back with dum and dar. they might get their job tml la. >< and we still have to wait till like 1st march. -.-" anyway, they coming my house tml to play mahjong. HAHAS! =x

hmms. mummy went to pay granny a visit. and went to visit uncle. uncle is still weak, but better than that night. guess aunt is very haggard now. =(

life now is great to a certain extent. =) i'm like more carefree and no longer heavy hearted. lols. probably because mum is starting to let go the grip. and i'm always out with my friends. and they drive my boredom away! woohoo! lols. what's life without friends? especially friends who stand by you. lols. just love them!! wheee~ ok ok. i'm crazy. =x

done blogging.

-i want my dreams to come true.-

this is life.

2007-02-20T21:10:00.000+08:00

it's like just within a few hours, many things happen. which left my family a little. hmms. i don't know. not themselves. hais.

as soon as i finished blogging last night, mummy and daddy had a serious talk in the room. i didn't know what happen till sis told me. and granny was sick. so they sent sis and me to keep granny company while they head for uncle's house. granny doze off on the chair and my cousin had to ask her to go back to the room. but she refused. so she slept there will about 10 plus. after she went to the room, i used my cousin's laptop while she watched forbidden city. about 11 plus mum and dad picked us up. hmms. uncle was admitted to the hospital. till not, i'm not sure why. i msg aunty not to worry. and she only replied me like 4.45 a.m? hmms. anyway, thanks crystal and dan.

hmms. woke up like 9 plus. and got ready. left the house at 11 for the next round of visiting. saw many cousins of mine whom i've never met before. and many cute babies. ewww. hehes. baby boys are cuter than baby girls. =x hmms. no topics on poly. *thank god* and yeah. they normally put their focus on sis. so i'm always "the invisible one". i'm used to it.

after visiting, went parkway for dinner. went to jack's place. sis ordered snowball. she loved it so much. but i think it taste like medicine. weird taste. =x anyway, shared steak with sis. small one, but still full. then head home.

granny just called. she's feeling better. =) but uncle still isn't fine yet. the doctor say that he lacks of sodium. hmms. guess no one is prepared for death at this age yet. hmms. so cherish your life.

done blogging.

-hopefully things will be the way they used to be. just love them all.-

erm.. sunday.

2007-02-19T20:12:00.001+08:00

i'm like so bored today. >< i thought i'll be stuck home. thank god, i didn't. *phew*

last night was like so lame. >< went to granny's house for dinner. we had steamboat and hot plate. that's for the "gi nahs". then the adults have dishes. erms. everyone was speaking in dialect. even my sis. yet i know nothing. >< hahas. my niece is horrible la. she scratch me like i'm not a living thing. it's pain can! her nails are so sharp! thank god she didn't poke my eyes when my aunt ask her where is the eyes. >< lols. no red wine. and we went home early. lols.

got out of bed at 8 plus today. got prepared and left house. went all the way to buangkok to the temple. went to pay ah gong a visit. my uncle got super furious cause the temple was under renovations and they didn't even inform him. so ya. erms. they are planning of getting him out of there. hmms. no more fishes this year. >< but there are still sweets! lols. =P took a "qian". ask me to do more good deeds. -.-" just because i refuse to donate last year. i got such a "qian" this year. -.-"

on the way to marine parade, i msg angel. hahas. he was on his way back to singapore. wheee~ haven't seen him for a long time. hahas. and i still owe him a treat. >< hais. went marine parade hoping that NTUC will be opened. but it isn't. so went to the hawker centre to buy food. one of the stall under charge me. lols. think his maths fail. =x but it's 30 cents. lols.

came home for lunch. then left for shaw house. lols. my entire family watch norbit!! lols. so exciting. even my dad went along. it's been 2 years! hahas. actually he didn't want to. but when my mum gave him 2 choices, either movies or go granny's house to play mahjong, he chose movies. lols. anyway, norbit was funny. damn crappy and gross. lols. but it rocks! the actor, eddie, is damn talented! lols. he rocks! lols. =)

came home and slack all the way to now. >< tml another bai nian day. wheee! can wear my new jeans!!! lols. though it's fake, but it's victoria beckam's brand. lol. crap. =P flowery shirt which i'll wear once and never be caught wearing it ever. and same heels. =P

wheee~ can't wait to get my next job, to meet new friends like those i met during comp fair. get pay! and treat dum and angel. =x erms.. erms.. can't wait for poly. meet more friends. buy new clothes. and of course, be honest to my mummy. that includes, if i were to have a bgr. =x yes. i'm not mad. but seriously, i want her to know me. NO MORE LIES!! lols. craps! who would want me? hahas. fated to be single. lols.

done blogging.

-NEW PHONE PLEASE!-

cny day 1

2007-02-18T16:32:00.000+08:00

slept at 1 plus this morning. and woke up about 7 plus today. lols. i was the first to wake up. so i played my phone game under my blanket. =P then when my mum and my maid woke up, i pretend to be asleep. =P

was super excited to change into my new year clothes. =P i've been waiting to wear that skirt and my pink spegs and of course my new short heels. =P hahas. went to granny house first. then went visiting with my sis, cousin, aunty and uncle. hahas. ate loads of goodies and of course collect many ang bao. =P ate curry and popiah at 7th granduncle's house. *yummy* my distant relative thought i'm the elder daughty. do i look so old? =(

went back to granny's house for lunch. then left for aunt's house. then went home. wheee~ i'm so tired. still got to go granny's house again later. >< i wanna play mahjong!!! hahas. i bet cousin is gonna bring his red wine again. wheee~ hahas. i'll be drunk by 10 p.m. =x

i'm so sad la. my pink earring's colour came off. =( shit. cheat my money! hmph.

feel so happy. =) finally can buy my new slipper, jeans and shirt. =P wheee~ then i'll eat good chocolates. =P GODIVA!!! gosh! i haven't try new york new york yet can? =( and PUAY!!! owe me a treat! =P

done blogging.

-loving someone is a difficult thing to do.-

sleepy saturday.

2007-02-17T23:43:00.000+08:00

so freaking tired. ><

woke up like 7.23. then got prepared and left house at 8.10. waited for crystal till about 8.30. went to eunos to meet sh and glenn. took bus to merpati road. then call that company again. ask sh to talk to the boss. damn funny. i think that guy also don't know how to give directions. lol. took taxi to tannery road. then we call the guy again. in the end walk to some building and the guy call us in. i think my english really sucks la. can't even communicate with an ang moh. >< hais. damn. chinese not good, english not good either. how to survive?? -.-" went to apply. but i think i won't accept. i'm not up to it. =( think i'll be the first to be sacked. hahas. so ya..

we took cab down to katong. had breakfast then went to play pool. when playing with sh, i feel stress. play with glenn, even more stress! hahas. play with crystal is fun. cause i win easily. =P she hit the black ball in today. hahas. =P after that, me and crystal took cab back to kembangan mrt. she went out, i went home.

came online. slack awhile. then watch tv. somehow, i fell asleep. >< slept from 2 plus till 5 plus. then got ready and left for ecp. ate tun lok. wasn't that bad. my mummy keep asking the waiter about his studies and stuff. then i kid with my sis, "next time mummy will open a booth to interview a husband for you.". hahas. =P feel so naughty. =x

went to collect cakes. every year thing. so ya. went to pass the cake to granny and aunty. everyone congratulate me. =) my cousin's wife even took out an expensive japanese jelly to eat. =P hehes. oh well. but still, once a kid always a kid. hahas. still feel young when i'm with my cousins. but feel closer with my sister now. =)

tml going bai nian. wow. i'll feel rich again. =P time to get new stuff toy, slipper, jeans and shirts. you know, that night, i saw this girl carrying a pink moo moo. i'm like so jealous! it's hallmarks!!! and all i ask it's only a precious thoughts hippo. =( never mind. i'll get it for my own. ><

angel in malaysia. and wow! he is going to learn motorcycle. i told him to send me to school next time. hahas. then i won't be afraid of being late if i leave house late. but of course, i'll be afraid if i were to meet into any accidents. =P oops.

blog again soon. <3 <3

-it's all fated-

funny friday.

2007-02-16T20:21:00.001+08:00

it's so nice to wake up late. =P whee. first time can sleep till 9 plus without the air con being off. =P then i climbed out of bed. first thing i did was to check the classified. then i copied all the numbers down. =)

got myself prepared by 10.20. then left house about close to 11. went to cheers. then waited for crystal and dum with sh. went to eunos and waited for jordan. of course to meet sy too. hahas. took to aljunied. then sy, jordan, qy and wb and jocey lee walk to school. me, sh, dum and crystal waited for taxi la. the stupid thing is, no taxi come and we ended up walking. when we are about to reach, we manage to hire a taxi and went to school. and guess how much we paid? 2.50. it's like, the meter didn't even jump la. hahas.

went to watch the cny celebration. it's so lame. >< unlike last year. hais. went to the canteen to buy drinks. then me and sh saw mdm wee and we talked to her. hehes. it's because of her that we did well in EL. ok. though it's not distinctions, but at least we pass. hahas. =x then i bully boyfriend. and dar bully him. hahas. =x so funny. i saw yuren, hui kia, sanee, john, wee kiat, claron, ck, jj, mw, tw bro, alex, yl, xh and others. i talked to mdm wee, mr gui, ms tay, mr fahmy, mrs wong and mrs yong. then we asked mr fahmy to book his house pit and we'll visit him for new year. hahas. he was so reluctant, but ended up agreeing to it. =P wheee.

during the performance, me, sh and yuren sat down. and we started talking. then suddenly, i knock my head against dum's head. damn pain la. hahas. and a few strands of his hair stand up. so funny. after the performance, dar went out with his friends. me, crystal, sh and dum went suntec. we took cab there. and we took that huge nice cab. hahas. sh and me bought the nice nice bubble tea. then we went to pizza hut for lunch. we sat at the corner. the sofa was only for 2 people la. in the end, all 4 of us squeeze. so funny. dum ask crystal and sh to sit on the chair cause they were at the end. but none moved. so ya. lol. lunch was so filling. and when we saw the bill, we had a shocked of our lives. 48.12 bucks! siao. so we clarify things, and turned out that they calculate wrongly. so each one 7 lo. lols.

4 of us went to the agency to apply for the book fair job. then we enter a lift, no forth floor. went to another lift, STILL no forth floor. then finally we went to a lift with forth floor. so funny. after we went in, dum say he go look for his friend. so he left first. 3 of us had a short briefing about our job. got another interview on 1st march. >< hope we get it. the pay is good. =P

went to play pool. met the guys again. lols. i played 3 rounds, none win. the last round, then i won! woots. bet crystal gave in to me. hehes. then we left lo. i saw jia lat. hahas. he couldn't recognise me. hahas. then went home.

gosh. i'm so addicted to this song la. >< the tune is stuck in my head. hahas. but it's nice!!! wheee~~

going for another interview tml to keep my feb occupied. wish me luck. =P

suddenly, i want to be loved. hmms. i just want a nice hug. hmms.

done blogging.

-life will be better.-

vain thursday.

2007-02-15T16:28:00.000+08:00

it's kinda boring. so i kinda regret withdrawing. hais. and it actually means i need to start paying adult fare to travel. >< and it also means it's going to the the last day of me wearing school uniform. ><

drag myself out of bed today. and i woke up late. >< and by the time i left house, i missed the usual train that i took to meet xl. hais. >< xl look shocked when he saw my hair style. he doesn't need to tell me, i can see from his expression. hahas. went to the canteen to slack awhile before going for morning assembly. i told ms ang not to report me if i were to come back. hahas. =P

i hand in my withdrawal form. could leave immediately, but i chose to stay awhile more. i went for chinese lesson. and then for a total defend assembly. it's so unlike mjr. it's more fun and interesting. hahas. yaps. there was a part when 4 volunteers are to go up on stage and compete with each other, who can wear the army uniform the most fastest and neatest. lols. then slide show on the male teachers in army. Mr imran is actually guards of honour! wow. hehes. then a few male teachers went on stage to share their experience in army. gosh! got one P.E teacher look damn shuai and smart in army uniform! woots! hahas. he is in commando. =P

manage to drag a few people to pon bio to keep me company. mei xuan, issac and weelin when to play bball while me and xiao wei went to library. and we were spying on people. hahas. the librarian shouted at a bunch of barbarics. and xiao wei commented that she should go up to them to scold them rather than to shout across the library. lols. i think the librarian break the rules. they said that you have to be quiet at all times when you are in a library. yet, she shout in the library. aiyo. =x

hmm. left school about 12.30. then went home alone. thought alot. hmms. i seriously wonder why flirts exist. don't they ever realise that they are playing with people's feelings? >< some don't care when their feelings are played with. but some do. hmms. i don't know. just don't like flirts. ><

ok ok. pictures time~!

today is a vain thursday. =P

me, sh, crystal during our class outing. ^^

me, sh and jocey chua during class outing. ^^

my new hair cut!

my cake during v day. ^^ yummy!

flower from =) & balloon from crystal. ^^ <3 <3

balloon.

flower.

them again!

left to right:issac, mei xuan, weelin, me!

xiao wei and me!

me and amanda.

me and jasmine chua.

me and jasmine lim

issac and me

mei xuan and me.

me and weelin

me and charlotte at the foreground and issac at the back.

weelin, jasmine lim, amanda, me!

dimples girls. jas at the bottom and xiao wei at the top.

cutie jasmines.

wee lin, charlotte, mei xuan.

me and charlotte.

a comic from a book. the joke is:
the police(flamingo),ask the what-you-call-that-bird bird to identify which penguin stole its fish. but the problem is that all penguins look alike. hahas.

comic from the same book. the crocodile say, "if i know, i shouldn't have sleep under the pillow. the tooth fairy took all my teeth away."
crap right? hahas.

done blogging.

-miss you loads-

v day.

2007-02-14T22:20:00.000+08:00

woke up late this morning. like finally. hahas. =x then used the comp for awhile. tried looking for some jobs. but unable to do so. partly because i'm only an O level graduate. and also partly because i have no experience for office work. hais.

then went to watch tv. watch till like 1. had bread for lunch. then went bedok with my maid to run errands. so many shoe shops on sale. hahas. saw this really nice sandals. but didn't buy. =( then came home. waited for crystal to get ready. while doing so, i watch disney. =P then left house about 4.30.

went with her to city hall. went to ka jiao mins. and she bought us chocolate. =D so love her!! i love you!! hehes. then accompany crystal to buy things for her stead and her friend. and she bought me ballon. so sweet of her. =D hehes. love her too!! then went to marina with her to withdraw money. on our way back, we share cost to buy mins a balloon. hehes. then gave it to her. then she hug us. hehes.

after sending crystal to mrt, i went esplanade. sat there. of course, there was crystal to keep me company. cause she called me. and sh to msg me. hahas. =P then went off to celebrate v day. receive a hand made bouquet of flowers. =) thanks alot. it's nice. just love roses. hahas.

oh ya. next time, i want to work in CBD! hahas. so nice. the scenery is just so nice. hahas.

came home. so tired. >< my eyes are closing anytime. *yawn* going to give orchard park hotel a call tml. hopefully i can go for interview. hahas.

oh oh!! i'm having a treat from tarepanda bro! hahas. so cool right? cause i got 15 and below for L1B4. hahas. =P nice. oh oh. and i'm buying a slipper from U.R.S soon. hehes. receive a letter. asking me to go navy. -.-" not bad la. 1000 allowance monthly. hahas.

done blogging. will update more tml.

-love.-

stupid tuesday.

2007-02-13T21:37:00.001+08:00

woke up like 7.55. so sleepy. tired to sleep back. but i ended up playing my phone games. =P then mumy and my maid came home. pulled me up from my bed. sians.

went online awhile. i went to apply. then went to grandma's house. went to visit her. hehes. everytime when she sees me, she'll smile. wow. hehes. =P then had a talk with my cousin and aunt. hais. then went to meet crystal.

me and crystal took taxi down to TP la. and i told her i apply le cause i thought the thingy close at 4.30. then she say is only for the TP registration. then i sian diao. >< went tp. met sh and glenn. then went to check up the courses. i quite like diploma in business. then i guess i have to change ba. =( the lecturer so funny. =x oh oh!! i saw paul twohill. hahas. not bad looking in person. =P

after tp, took cab to marina square. stupid taxi driver so fierce. ><><><><

walked back to marina square to buy sh's drink. then walk to city hall. can you believe it. GODIVA was filled with guys la. so funny. =x well well. reached home like 7.30. lols.

wow. so fast tml is v day. wonder how i'm going to spend it. hmms. thursday still got to go back school to withdraw. and i still haven't found a job. >< SIANS AR!!!

hais.

done blogging.

-i don't feel right.-

new beginning.

2007-02-12T22:13:00.001+08:00

woke up early. cause i couldn't find my stuff toy. then i went out to find it. my maid took it away from me while i was sleeping. she put it to wash. ='(

anyway, was online this morning awhile to look for a hairstyle. then went to watch PLAYHOUSE DISNEY. lol. feel so kiddo. >< i was so bored. i watch from 10.30 to 11. then watch channel 55 from 11 to 2. so shuang can? lols. then i slept 2 to 2.30. left house about 2.45.

took taxi to orchard emerald. had the boss to cut my mum's and my hair. while cutting my hair, he talked to me. he's not bad looking. he's very skillful.. hahas. he's happy that i picked that hairstyle. cause he used that style to take part in a competition 5 years ago. and he is a hairstylist for 15 years! since i was 2!!! MY GOD!! hahas.

i waited for mummy for so long. she took like 2 hours longer than me la. i went to the basement food court to wait. at first, i was waiting for someone's msg. in the end, puay call me. hahas. then i keep talking and laughing. then went to meet my mummy. i love her hair colour. so nice!! hahas. but i'm not going to dye my hair!! nono!! hahas.

here i am. home!

tml going TP again. then go manicure, then go interviewS. lols.

pic time. show you my hairstyle.

aiya. cannot post. sorry. show you guys another time. =P

done blogging.

-am i dreaming?-

boring sunday.

2007-02-11T20:12:00.000+08:00

slept like 12 this morning. and daddy woke us up at 8.15. so we had to drag ourselves up to prepare. left the house at 8.45. went to pray to our granny. my dad's side's relative all speak in dialect. which, i don't understand. so i talked to sis. they talked to sis too. cause she was under their care for a period of time. somehow, i'm not close to them. anyway, they were talking about poly. -.-" i think i'm hearing that topic for almost 24 hours. ><

went to eat dou jiang you tiao. it's like so freaking oily. >< hmms. after breakfast went to bugis there to buy flowers. mummy bought like, 5 pots. gosh. my house like jungle now. hahas. ok. then went grandma's house to pass her something. then went to buy lunch.

got home, had lunch. then mummy started baking cookies. i helped!!! =P i'm so sweet right? hahas.

spent quite sometime to think about my future. =) if only life could be the way i want it to be. if only life could be as perfect as i thought it would be. hahas. but i guess, the more you want it, the lesser the chance you'll get it. but yet, when you lost all the hopes, the higher the chance you might get it. hmms. a new chapter of my life has just began.

i realise being stuck at home is so boring. >< really got to find a job. and as soon as i get my pay, i'll have enjoyment! wheee. i've got new wishlist. ok. this time, it's realistic. i swear!!! =x ok. some will be unrealistic. but most will be. hahas. =P i wanna go out!! i wanna go shopping!! =x

done blogging.

-i miss you alot-

baby saturday.

2007-02-10T20:47:00.001+08:00

last night went out with my EX-classmates. hahas. suddenly not use calling them ex classmates. lols. anyway, we met at citylink. me, potato, sh, crystal, jocey chua, fish, qy, sotong, claron, ck, jj, fy, leonad and mw. then walked to swensens. we had dinner. and i talk about our life. i was playing potato's hp. so addicted to it. =x

went home, sis, mummy and daddy talk to me. daddy actually joke with me!! wheee~ hahas. first time see daddy laugh after so long. =) hehes. love this feeling. =) love it so much. anyway, still deciding on which courses. hopefully i make the right choice. but, TP or SP?! i feel like applying for SP's scholarship. but guess what. i didn't meet one criteria. that is aggregate
went out today to look for work. all the HR all close la. -.-" stupid. waste my time to go orchard. and my feet pain like shit. i swear i'm never gonna wear heels. NO!!! hmph. me and sh spent sometime to sit down. then we sat outside a CD shop. so they were playing the movie OPEN SEASON. then this baby girl dance. so cute. =) then another baby girl came to dance to. hahas. baby GIRLS are cute. =P went home early.

after that, went out again. had to buy dinner home. anyway, there was this ang moh and his gf board the train. so he sat at the 3rd seat from the edge and his gf sat at the edge. so the girl asked him to sit at the 2nd seat. but he asked her to sit at the 2nd seat. you know why? he pointed to the sign about the 1st seat, "please offer this sit to those needy people.". so the girl had to move. then i was like DOTS!. so funny. anyway, saw many green men. one of them actually same height as me. lols. =x anyway, on my way home, saw many many babies. got this girl so cute. a stranger smile at her, she smile back. so cute can?? =x i want a baby daughter next time. hahas. gosh. i must be dreaming. ><

i'm home. so tired and leg is aching like mad. ><>< so tired. next week, monday, tuesday and wednesday no school. =P thursday last day in MI, friday stuck at home. lols. monday should be going out with mummy to get my hair trim. tueday should be out with sh to look for jobs AGAIN. and wednesday..... hmms.

done blogging.

-just miss the way you call me baby. =)-

wheee~

2007-02-09T18:19:00.000+08:00

gosh! it's finally over! and i'm so happy!! hahas.

i met crystal, hui kia and sheldon at kembangan. then went to aljunied to meet xl. then we walk to school. reach school, see people with different hair colour. wow. so ya. went to the school hall to take results lo.

we sat there for quite some time. they gave the results to 5 credits, 6 credits and finally top scorer. then the teacher started talking about how to apply and stuff. and we are all so impatient. i was cursing the teacher la. hahas. anyway, my e maths teacher today pat my shoulder and my head. so funny. -.-"

so ya. time to give out the results. when it was my turn, i took my result slip and flip it over. i cover my results. then i ask sh help me see. after that, i saw and i got a shock. all Bs except one A. -.-" i cried. hahas. don't know why. don't know happy or sad. but still, i cried. hahas. then i left the hall and made phone calls. hahas. my mummy wasn't the first one i called. hahas. =x so anyway, i msg everyone. and wheee~ feel so happy. hahas.

stayed in school till like 5. then left for home. =)

done blogging.

-a new chapter has just began.-

scare.

2007-02-08T19:45:00.000+08:00

won't be blogging a long entry today. cause my heart is beating very fast, and i don't think i really have the mood to blog. i'll probably be MIA for a few days. lols. anyway, i doubt anyone would care. hahas.

went out today, played pool. which i suck at it. then went to esplanade, then fullerton and finally to tcc. i finally found a place to be at tml. =) hahas. anyway, i applied for a job at precious thoughts. got pay jiu hao. =P

gosh. tml will have to be in school at 2. hais.

done blogging.

-lonely 14 feb. ='(-

funny wednesday.

2007-02-07T16:04:00.000+08:00

i was lying in bed last night. and i was thinking about the outcome this friday. i wonder if i'll break the tradition. lols. what tradition? crying when i receive the result of major exams. lols. see. i cried upon receiving my PSLE results, i cried when getting my chinese Os result in 2005, and tears welled up in my eyes upon receiving my june Chinese Os result in 2006. damn it. i got a strong feeling that i won't do well this time either. hais. damn. if only i worked hard. ><

drag myself out of bed today. school was fun today. =) whee~ cause there is me!! hahas. ok ok. not true. =P anyway, the MI principal gave a talk. he wasn't trying to persuade us to stay. in fact he was trying to send the message that we should make right decision. and do whatever we really like. anyway, after that, we went back to classes. i helped anna back to class. whee! cause she hurt her leg, so i get to take the lift with her. =P hahas. anyway, i helped her back to class. everyone just miss her. =)

break was boring. and i'm so happy. you know why? cause it was the first time jian yong actually answer me! hahas. yeah. every time, when ay of us talk to him, except issac, he will either nod or shake his head. but today was different. he actually answer me! hahas. ok ok. i'm lame. =x then we had HT. i was so bored. ms ang gave us something to eat. some had hello panda, some had mamee. it's just something for us before we leave. lols. after HT, i went with her to take the withdrawal form. i'm planning of pulling out next week. =P oh ya. i pon econs today. =x so i had another extra break. i was in the library reading snoopy comic. i was laughing my head off. lols. =x

went for chem lecture. me, xiao wei and jasmine had a great laugh. i video the lecturer. then xiao wei "squash" him. hahas. then i use jasmine's pencil to "poke" him. lols. we were laughing all the way. i did't even listen la. hahs. oh ya! i got back my chem and maths test. I PASS!! gosh! i didn't study la. hahas. and i had to ask the Sum of Infinity formula from bud and jas. =x but chem, i wasn't in the mood to do. so i anyhow do. hahas. my mummy laugh her head off when i told her i pass without studying. lols.

i learnt many things in MI. from my friends, i learnt that my life isn't that bad after all. seriously, if you think your life is unfair, think again. lols. then i learnt that laughing is the best medicine. and of course, we all learnt to set aside the differences and bond together. lols. =) so afterall, i didn't regret going for first 3 months. there are nothing to lose, yet i've gain many things. =) both friends and knowledge. =P

hmms. i think i'm very kind to myself. lols. YAPS! i'm giving myself another day off tml. =P my last chance to slack and enjoy myself. before the DOOM day. lols. let's see how things go tml. i'll probably be home again. hahas. =x

ok. guess you're bored with my entry. so i'll end here.

done blogging.

-what is done, is already done.-

wheee~

2007-02-06T19:21:00.000+08:00

i was kind enough to give myself a day break. =P yeah. in other words, i pon today la. =x

i woke up likt 7.30 cause bud msg me. then i slept back till 8 then woke up to reply him. then used sis's comp. then wait until 11. preparing to meet sh. when suddenly not meeting le. so i ended up in the library. i did alot of thinking. hahas. yaps. then i realise that hatred do control our life sometimes. lol. never mind. i found myself a very nice book. =)

came home to slack. spend my entire afternoon watching tv and eating nonsense stuff. =x

i'm so excited!! my primary school friends are like FINALLY going to have a class gathering. you know how much i miss them!? i miss those fun. when all of us are so close and no one ever feel left out or forgotten. girls and boys, we mixed together and have fun. hahas. yaps. i haven't seen them for a long time. and i wonder how much have they changed. =P yeah. i guess i'm the shortest now. =( anyway. yaps. just miss them!!!

i'll be back to school tml. aiya! sians again. then we'll all start counting down to the collection of results. -.-" hate that day. i wonder where will i end up in. yeahs. won't forget the time i cried in school after receiving PSLE. lols. at least i have my sis. now? lols. standing all by myself. hahas.

gosh. i'll miss all my friends i made in MI. =)
cutie weelin.
cheerful meixuan.
funny xiao wei.
lovely jasmine chua.
friendly charlotte.
sweet amanda.
adorable jasmine lim.
crazy gracie.
*grawl* anna.
*SHHH!* evan.
quiet wang wan.
nice nice tirza.
and of course my other classmates. =)

done blogging.

-yet all i wanted was you to hold on to me.-

sians.

2007-02-05T17:40:00.001+08:00

last night, went ecp with my aunts, cousin, uncles, granny, daddy, mummy, sis and my maid. they order so many food. >< we had chicken wing, clams, fried oyster egg, laksa noodle and stingray! hahas. yummy. =) went home, daddy and me watch superstar. i think the girl sings better than the guy. the guy's english song sucks! his sway sounds like stay. -.-"

school today was boring. everyone can't wait for lesson to end. yeahs. at least time pass fast.

btw, results will release this friday. confirm.
http://sg.news.yahoo.com/070205/5/singapore256726.html

i'm tired. so forgive me for short entry.

done blogging.

-time to face it!-

sians.

2007-02-05T17:40:00.000+08:00

boring sunday

2007-02-04T15:59:00.000+08:00

every sunday is a boring sunday. though it's family day. but still boring. hais.

woke up about 9 plus. and went to ntuc with mum. i help her buy whatever is needed, while she choose the fruits and vege. then help to carry it to dad's car. and TA DA! i'm home. of course, i help to pack all the stuff la. i'm such a good girl.

sis went out. so i use her comp. lols. =P anyway, was talking to sh about starting a family. erms. ok. at the wrong time, i know. anyway, i told her i don't want boys. for an obvious reason. you know, yesterday i was sitting down at taka while mum do her shopping, i saw this boy keep plahying cars la. then a few other boys with toy cars also come. then they were like playing merry go round. they went for so many rounds la. it's amazing why they aren't dizzy. so ya. the mother of one of the small boys wanted to leave, so ask the son to go home. the son refuse. after several tries, the son still refuse. the mother was helpless. so she had no choice but to carry to boy home. and he cried. HELLO!! if i were the mother, i'll just walk away. won't even bother to carry the boy. he is like 5 years old? you know how heavy is a 5 year old boy? gosh. another reason is that most guys go for branded stuff. so i guess it's expensive to have a son. hahas. =x oops. sorry if i offend any guys. so, TAKE MY APOLOGIES! =x sh said i'm a bad mummy. =( fine! i'll remain single for the rest of my life. lols.

i'm so tired. i just woke up from lala land. and i'm going ecp for dinner with my family later. bleahs! =P jia lat invite me go superstar. which, i don't watch and know nuts about them. =x hahas. tml got school!! time to use my new bag. =P

done blogging.

-i'll accept the truth. and face reality.-

wow~

2007-02-03T22:46:00.000+08:00

today, suppose to go for class bbq, but i forgo it. i went out with my mummy instead. =) first time see her so enthu to go out with me, though granny didn't go. hahas.

i wanted to cut my hair today. but mummy say next week la. she even ask me dye my hair. OMG! what's up with my mummy?? =x anyway, we went taka to shop. i bought a converse bag for 34 bucks!!! omg!! it's damn nice. 15% off mahs. =P then i bought a pants for 35 bucks. hahas. the pants is damn cute. a design that i've never seen before. mummy bought herself the same pants, but in different colour. then a heart detector and a few shirts. about 6 plus, sis met us. then went to sakae to eat dinner. =) wow. i love today! =P

tml FAMILY DAY!! muumy suggest to daddy to bring us to ecp!! wow!! the last time i went there with them was october? before Os. wheee~ feel like a small little girl. =x to think about it. mummy promised me to get me blades. WHERE'S MY BLADES?! hahas. fine. =x

sigh. just realise. after graduation, i lost contact with quite alot of people. when was the last time i see eve and jc. when was the last time i saw qy, mae and san. when was the last time i saw vale goh, crystal and boon. everyone like went missing. hmm. guess i'm probably just a hi-bye friend. hahas. not those kind who made an impact in people's life. hahas. hopefully it won't happen with my friends in MI. =) i'll really miss their laughter. especially jasmine chua!!! hahas! and tickling xiao wei. of course disturbing wl. and acting les with mei xuan. =x anyway, just treasure what is before you. at least you won't regret in future. =)

guess what i told mum. i told her i wanna work in those offices at raffles place. then she say provided my Os result can make it to the diploma course. then i told her, even if it doesn't, i won't regret retaking my Os. cause i believe i'll do better. =X i don't know where i had that confidence to say that. but i did. so ya. just have to wait and see. =x

done blogging.

-my life isn't as perfect as you see-

boring friday.

2007-02-02T20:50:00.000+08:00

went to school as usual.

maths lesson was so boring. even though i pon yesterday's lesson, i still understand! wow. lols. the teacher was seems quite pissed of when most of them didn't know how to do. lol. when he is pissed, he is so funny. =P i was playing game of life during his lesson. and i came in first!! woohoo! lol. after that was econs. starting to hate econs. i know nuts about it. xiao wei slept off, jas was playing games, i was sending bud games, and bud was listening. lol. then we went for gp. gp was so boring. i was just busy copying and msging sh. then there was a break. i had chicken chop. feel so god damn cheated! 2.20 for a SO SMALL chicken! what the heck. i eat until so bu shuang. =S hmph! and it doesn't really taste nice la. >< then finally was chem. we had test, then went through tutorials. then left school. before that, i took pic with wl and xiao wei. then both and them and mei xuan. lols. so cool. =P

went back to mjr. met sh at aljunied. then walk to school. then sat in the canteen. oh oh. me and sh had soggy fries for lunch. i bought from bukit batok. lols. then i met dum. dum wear the shirt i bought for him in thailand. then i laugh laugh laugh. lols. =x i gave dum some fries. i offered tohwee bro. but he sick too. hahas!! everyone is having sore throat! like me. =P then we talk talk talk. went to play badminton with sh. then with toh wee. then play with sh again. got this group of sec 4 students ask if they can play. we couldn't let them. somemore the racket aren't ours. so i say no. they keep pestering like shit. damn angry. in the end, me and sh just walked away. then went to the hall to play badminton with tohwee. he damn bad!! he keep making me run while he just stand at one spot. >< the i let sh play lo. i went to choir room to pass sihui his water. choir seems more discipline now. =) i sit in for awhile. the S2 always disappear into thin air. lols. S2 always sing so softly. hahas. they went off tune abit, but overall wasn't that bad. gosh. suddenly miss choir. =)

i went back to the hall. watch them play a while more, then went outside staff room to talk. me and jordan talk to mrs kong. she persuaded us to go poly. even mr ong. anyway, jordan wrote a chinese word, xia(down). then he wrote correctly. but it looked weird. so i say wrong. then i went to write the dian instead of on the right, i put it on the left. then jordan, mrs kong and mr ong laugh at me. so paiseh. >< then they name that word as "valerie de xia". >< anyway, talk to bro about my route. still. everyone thinks i should take a degree before heading to be a teacher. hmms. who knows. but still, i'll go poly. hahas. i planning to withdraw the week after next. lols. =)

came home. thank god mum not home yet. i didn't tell her i was going back mjr. =x

tml o7s16 having class bbq. i'm not sure if i can go. mummy bringing grany out. and i miss granny alot. i love to make her smile. =) afterall, she loves and dote on me alot when i was young. hehes. i remember one day, i wanted to pon kindergarden. then my mummy hit me until my entire leg was red. yaps. really red. lols. i was used to beatings and scoldings at that time. i always get them almost every other day. lols. anyway, just then, my ah ma came in. and she ask my mummy don't beat me. she even scold my mummy for beating me. hehes. =x also, when i was young i love sweets. but my ah ma always chop them into small small pieces. when i'm a good girl, then she give me one small piece. hehes. most of the time, i'll climb up the chair and get them. hehes. =P love my ah ma!!! =)

my sore throat is slightly better. the pain was killing me this morning. >< but i still eat kolopok! hahas. =P wanted to buy lollypop. sh persuaded me not to buy. lols. anyway, the sec 4s and 5s were having the Dr ernest wong's motivational talk. i think they'll work hard for a few months after that. lols. then the teachers will be so happy and touched. lols. oh ya! counting down to the day i'll be receiving my results. and i'll probably be MIA for quite sometime. hais~~!

done blogging.

-if only i could start this life all over again.-

wonderful thursday. =)

2007-02-01T17:39:00.000+08:00

wow. my flu is like so much better now. but i have to deal with stupid sore throat. sians. ><

this morning assembly was like so lame la. before the start of the national athem, someone shout or whatever. then the entire singing and pledge taking, the dc teacher ask him to own up, if not, all of us will not go back to class. but after so long while, no one owns up. so we stood there and wait la. in the end, no one own up and we still went back for lessons. -.-"

chinese lessons was hell boring. we were suppose to read a text. but in the end, the teacher keep side tracking. xiao wei fall asleep, then jas. and i didn't hahas. =P anyway, one person per para. and my was only 2 lines. =x xiao wei read her para until so jia lat. hahas. jasmine and i laughed until i cry. finally found someone who can't read chinese text like me. =P she is so funny. followed by bio lesson. i was dazing through the entire 2 periods. she keep going through the same old thing every tutorial. luckily she released us early today. then we have 3 periods of break. 1 period is our actual break, the other 2 is gp. so we slack in the canteen. in the end, evan, jas lim, jas chua, amanda, me, xiao wei, tirza, bud, mei jun pon maths lesson. then we went to visit anna. hahas. my first time pon-ing lesson can?? >< feel so naughty. =( lols.

anna looks fine. she is still as funny and lively as ever. which is a good thing. hahas. we crap and told her a lot of joke. and xiao wei gave me a title-- zi lian kuan. lols. fine. >< we stayed that till about 4+ then leave.

and here i am. hahas. gonna study for chem test tml. and of course, i might get detention tml. lols. don't ask me why. the reason is quite obvious. lols.

done blogging.

-i'll break free.-

still sick.

2007-01-31T18:45:00.000+08:00

as usual, my flu is still killing me. stupid flu! >< this morning was ok. then suddenly the flu just came back. *Argh* anyway, thanks peeps. i'm ok. =) this flu won't really kill me. hahas.

lessons are now are either really boring or i don't bother to listen. =x hahas. bio lessons was doing the table and the tutorial. the tutorial was like already for 3 weeks la. and it's not done. -.-" anyway, i was busy playing my monopoly. hahas. i feel so rich. yaps. 2k+. =P then there was 2 period of break. 1 period was the actual one, and the other was home tuition. our teacher not here again. anyway, during the break, brandon suggested that the entire class should eat together. but nope. it turned out that it was only the few of us. oh well. then the other break, we went to the library. being lame and bored, i make a video. i just video those who were sitting at the long table. lols. i know i'm lame. =x then i started asking people if they are free on 14 feb. lols. ok. another lame thing to do. >< 11, went to class for econs. i didn't even do anything during econs. i play my monopoly again. =x then went chem lecture. i wasn't listening again. =x i don't know what's wrong with me. but i just can't listen. and tml there is bio and maths and gp!!! OMG!!! ='(

went to jurong east with jasmine lim, jasmine chua, jacelyn(new friend), charlotte and mei xuan. went to the pasa malam to eat chicken. yummy. =) then i bought roti john home. hahas. in the mrt, we crap quite alot. and JASMINE CHUA! kept an arm's length away from me. lols. =P met this lady at the mrt station. she ask if this is the way to raffles. so i nodded my head. then before alighting, she said that she didn't study when she was much more younger cause her parents were too poor. and now, she can't read the boards. so i guess, our generation is much more fortunate. yet here we are depriving others a chance to learn, to attain the world most priceless thing. hmmm. am i saying myself? =x hahas.

so fast the last day of jan. =( and time to welcome the scariest month. FEB!!! damn. means i have to spend money to buy maid's present. ><

done blogging.

-i wish you'll still hold on to me and walk that path with me.-

stupid tuesday.

2007-01-30T21:09:00.000+08:00

i'm starting to dread going MI. other than hanging out with friends, the sight of the teacher just get on my nerves. ><

went to school this morning. ms ang broke a bad news to us. anna is hospitalised. she met in a car accident. gosh!!! i'm missing her. =( xiao wei too. xiao wei is sick. let's hope they will get well soon. miss them.

anyway, ms ang ask me to take charge of the career talk thing. so during chem lesson i pass it around. after chem, then i remember that that paper is no longer with me. then i panic. i went around asking for the paper. then went for P.E. P.E today was damn crap. last week focus on arm muscles. this week focus on alot of leg muscles. >< then recess time, i finally locate where the paper is. thankk god. some more next period was GP. so i got the paper back and pass to ms ang lo. GP seems like free period. we just had one lesson and the other was break. so we had like 1.5 hours of break la. -.-" waste time. went to eat chicken chop for lunch. then crap with ryan. then went for maths. maths sucks big time! stupid maths teacher. i didn't even understand a single shit. so i slept. then test. i anyhow do and just play game. i just give up. hate it. >< econs lecture. so many people pon. i didn't. and i wasn't listening either. i was playing my hp game, monopoly. =x count down to school end. =)

went home with wl. i love her!! ^^ she's nice to talk to and nice to play with. like jasmine. =P then i thought i saw sean. looks like him from side view. hahas. oh well. was alighting at jurong east. then this old lady behind me use her knuckles to push me la. wth. my kidney are badly damaged already. she still wanna damage it more. >< pain man. *argh*

i think my health is affecting my mood. hais. i'm tired. and sad at the same time. for no reason. =(

it feels good to be noticed at times. but yet, most of the time i'm like an invisible person. oh well. i'm used to this kind of life. at least i know i have friends who care for me and will be there when i'm lonely.

it's just time. time to surrender to fate. whatever happens, it just can't be avoided. when it's time to leave. i just have to go. hahas.

~~i'm tired.~~

jas. i'll cheer up. =)

done blogging.

-just one day, i'll be watching my love ones from above.-

monday.

2007-01-29T18:52:00.000+08:00

today lessons start late. so went school later.

bio lecture was boring. i was on the verge of dozing off. that i had to close my eyes for awhile. hais. then break. crap with bud and ryan. then had chinese. chinese was talking about chinese history. which i think is damn boring. ok. no offence. but i really hate history. =x i can really fall asleep. ><

rush off to meet sh. but in the end, i waited for her. i was so bored la. i wanted to ka jiao min min. but i think it's her off day. so... i waited for sh lo. she finally came. went marina square for lunch. while queueing for food, she went to change something, so can save time. then went to bugis. i bought my phone cover. =P yeahs. my other phone cover broke until damn jia lat. hais. >< went in to topshop. sh show me a blue button shirt. and said it look like mjr uniform. we were like laughing la. i think many people were looking at us. =x anyway, saw this really nice button shirt. with tie. hahas. i wanna buy for myself. =P [i know if puay sees this, she'll be damn angry. =x cause she hates me to dress like boy. lols] erms. saw fang ning. then went bugis street to get my phone cover. after that went bras brasah. went back bugis to sit. then took a damn lame photo. =x

here i am. back home. hahas. chiong-ing my chem tutorial. hate redox. i can never master it. =(

oh. Os might be out on 9th. means this saturday is my last day to enjoy. hows? not much plan this sat. oh well. wed got many programmes. jia lat bro ask me go eat lor ark(duck). then og having outing. and my classmates wanna go watch movie. =x hahas. where as on friday, i'm going lunch with puay! =D

my arm hurts. ='( and having flu. *argh*

well well. hopefully tml will be a better day. and shucks! i hate feb. so going to hate feb. >< stupid O lvl result and stupid new year. *argh* i wanna fast forward!!! =x

kk. pictures time.

my shoe today so cute. hahas. make my feet look so small. =x

see that lady? she is wearing the traditional japanese costume. so cute!

art friends' flower so cute. =)

a box with 2 hearts and the flower. nice!

sh's shoe and my shoe. hahas.

done blogging.

-the real challenge is just about to start. before that, i'll enjoy first. =P-

sians.

2007-01-28T17:28:00.000+08:00

i'm so bored. =(

woke up like 10 plus. actually can sleep longer. but mummy pull me out of bed. ='( sians.

didn't do homework. i'm so lazy to do. hahas. bet the rest also never do. =P

oh ya. something stupid happen yesterday la. sh and i was talking to a lecturer. then before we go, he asked if i had an elder sis. so i said ya. then he asked if she was from poly. i was like, noooo.. then he say i look like his ex student, so he thought i was her younger sister. haha.

my sis once told me that in the entire world, there will be 6 people who look some what like me. so one was my sis, second was friday that shop's customer, and lastly is the nyp's lecturer's student. hahas. but where are the other 3?? hahas.

my throat is killing me. and my wrist hurts. damn. hope my old injury just don't come back. *shoo shoo shoo*

done blogging.

-once in a lifetime.-

saturday.

2007-01-27T22:02:00.000+08:00

slept at about 11.30 last night. surprisingly, angel will msg me. hahas. yaps. miss him alot cause i haven't seen him for so long la. think a month plus. hahas.

anyway, woke up 9.33 and i receive a msg from sh saying she'll be late. but she has like an hour or so to prepare ma. then i thought i was the one late. in the end, she realise we were meeting at 10.30. -.-"

before meeting her, i went to cheers to get fisherman that sweet. cause my sore throat is back. ='( pain like siao man. then went met her and made our way to yio chu kang. we went to check the bus directory to see which bus can go there. then we took bus 72. i ask the uncle if it really goes to nyp. then he say can walk. but in the end we took bus la. reach there, we spent most of our time watching the performance. i'm so amused by the magic. =x call my childish la. but i still like magic. ^^ i can make me smile k? hahas. anyway, after that went to check out some courses. nyp left a bad impression on me. i still prefer tp. YES! cause of their cross disciplinary subjects. and it's nearer to my house. second choice, sp. other than that, i'll retake Os. hahas. =x

ok ok. went to city hall, marina square to play bowling. today damn ex la. 3 bucks. =( i played like 3 rounds. hahas. first round was warm up. then second round really damn jia lat la. 2 times, i hit nothing la. damn sad. then before i spare,my nail sort of chip. ='( and guess what. i drop the ball. 2nd time la. so paiseh. =x and some more i took 8 lehs. >< so sad. hahas. 3rd round, i won sh by 3. =P hahas. she's such a good coach. hahas. =P then went walking around. i saw nice nice shoes! and nice nice bag! i'm going to save!!!

wishlist after new year:
1. GODIVA
2. INK BAG
3. HEELS
4. new toy

went tcc to eat cake and drink soda. the cake wasn't so bad. and the soda is nice. =) then went home.

went out with granny again. went crystal jade. wah lao. their standard drop la. yucks! only their e-fu noodle is nice. <3 <3 hahas. then went to buy dad's dinner. wait for aunt to pick granny up. then we took cab home.

here i am. home sweet home.

was at tcc talking to sh. suddenly, we kept quiet. then i went "ehs.". it's just so scary that the collection of result so drawing so near. now there might be anyone to console me. hais. so i told sh. if i score well, i'll rush home and share the joy with my family. but if i don't do well, i'll be alone some where on this earth. i'll off my phone to prevent people from contacting me. hahas. so smart of me. =P though i know there is no way to turn back time and no reason for me to regret, but... i guess it just can't be help.. hahas. who to turn to this time? hmmmms.

done blogging.

-do you thing you'll be there for me just for that day?-

update!

2007-01-26T22:45:00.000+08:00

wow. been out for 2 consecutive nights. =) so you'll expect a long entry. i won't do the book review yet. cause i'm too lazy. =x

thursday
lessons was so damn boring la. especially bio. she's so old that she keep repeating the questions she went through. and maths was boring too. i nearly slept off. as for gp, we go through news article on sec revolution. hahas. i quickly rush home after school.

met puay at 6++. then while waiting for buddy, we sat down and talk. i miss talking to her. cause she is the only one that really wake me up from all my fantasies. she gives me good advices and really encourage me. PUAY! I LOVE YOU!! hahas. bud came. we went to cafe cartel. order half way, puay suggest to go to cine de restaurant. then we too paiseh to walk out. when all the waitress all gone, we quickly walk out. hahas. walk to cine. had a good seat at the restaurant. we order alot la. pity buddy. he ate the most. hahas. my nachos, i can't finish, he help me. my chicken, puay help me. dessert, they both help me. hahas. puay so cute! she help me cut my chicken. then i say hot, so ask her help me blow. she really did lehs! sweet. =) then my chocolate chip crepe, she help me cut and feed me. =) if only she is a guy, i'll throw myself at her. hahas. =x i miss puay alot. i love hanging out with her, just the way i love hanging out with sh. they just make me feel good. =) puay puay is going out with me this coming friday for lunch. <3 <3 she's picking me up. wheee!! i miss puay puay. =)

went home at 10.30. i was too tired to blog. so went to bed.

friday
raining, so went to class. first lesson was maths. i was wondering if i can really trust the teacher or not. the question ask for series, he do sum. -.-" then when i question him, he just don't wanna admit he teach wrongly. he say, this way also can. but series and summation are different!! -.-"
after that was econs. damn freaking boring.
GP had group discussion. both jasmines are just so pervertic. hahas. =P gosh! what's in their minds? hahas.
then break and there was chem. chem was fun. i love it. =)

rush home. then went out again. i went out with anna, charlotte, gracie, weelin, tirza, amanda, jasmine lim. jasmine chua can't make it. hais. anyway, we went to meet evangeline to buy donuts. i bought 6. YUMMY~! we chiong to pizza hut so we can get the student meal. so i shout "chiong ar!!". then the old man in front of me got a shock. hahas. =x the weelin and me laugh. hahas. then went to pizza hut. gracie, weelin and me bully the waitress. hahs. =P keep trying to take picture of her. hahas. i saw jocey chua. been a long time since i last saw her. hahas. anyway, we had a fun time at pizza hut. we were taking pictures and acting cute. yes! my virus! hahas. =P i saw yi xun too. =)

then wanted to go bowling. so walk towards the bowling alley. on the way, i saw shu hui. so say hi to her. then some don't want to bowl cause too ex. so went walking around with gracie, charlotte and weelin while the rest go arcade. then i saw steffanie, but i didn't say hi. then i saw yun fang at ice lemon tea. hahas. weelin wanted to see the brown bag ma. so went in. then walk around. in the end, charlotte wanna go home. so we went walking towards city link. we all went into an earring shop. then i saw a senior of mine. hahas. i find it too early to go home. wanna stay out longer. in the end, all went home, except me, weelin and tirza. we walk back to marina square hoping to bowl. in the end, no space. sians. we went into a bag show to see. i ask for the price of a bag. and the man thought i ask before. and ask if i stay in hougang. then i was like, NO. then he apologise. hahas. so went home lo. on the way, saw rainer. hahas.

so here i am. home sweet home!

jasmine chua and me. in school canteen.

me and weelin!! hahas.

xiao wei, jasmine chua and me.

one class draw meh meh. =P

me with ACS tie around my head. =P

me and puay. =)

buddy, me, puay.

puay blowing the chicken chop for me. =)

chocolate chip crepe, puay cut for me le. =)

puay and me!

puay's head so small. hahas. =x

us again! hahas. finally she willing to take so many pictures with me!! =P

puay alone. trying to prove to me she is still so dao. =x

anna, tirza and me. =)

my dinner. hahas.

me, amanda and anna.

charlottle, me, jasmine lim.

my act cute bunch. gracie, weelin and me!

bottom:charlotte, jasmine lim, me.
top:gracie, amanda, weelin.

hmms. somehow, i think i had enough with lying to myself. no matter how perfect we are looking for, it just can't be.

done blogging.

-the day i want you, is the day you are leaving.-

sick.

2007-01-24T19:26:00.000+08:00

as usual, went to school. but today, we kinda walk from the bus stop to school.

first lesson was bio. the teacher is so irritating. those students were already late, they already got lectured by the DC teacher(i assume), so why does she still need to lecture them. if she has so much time to waste, she should teach more. i can't remember what i did for bio lo. after than tutorials. -.-"
there was a break. then HT. HT is so boring. most of us were sleeping. i was reading my book.
econs was bad. i don't understand it when he teaches us. i still think all the lecturers are better. =x
chem wasn't that bad. only that he's just re-teaching what we were taught in secondary. and i was on the verge of dozing off. =x

finally end school, i wanted to go jurong east. but somehow, i make bud take wrong bus with me. we ended up at boon lay. -.-" i miss going jurong point. FOOD PARADISE! hahas. there are like so many shops to eat. i'll starve myself one day, and i'll go jurong point to eat all the food. HAHAHA!! anyway, bought some food. and took mrt home. =)

i'm currently having bad flu. and my eyes are half-close. wanted to pon school tml. but on second thoughts, i shan't. hahas. hopefully puay will be free for dinner. then i'll meet her for dinner. hehe. =) i miss puay!!!

woohoo~ i'm going to finish my book soon. i'm already at the climax. and it's so freaking interesting. i was practically cursing the murderer. =x yes yes yes! can start on a new book soon. =)

i promised i'll upload the pic. but something's wrong with the comp. i just can upload. so.. i'll upload it soon. =)

done blogging.

-i miss you-

pain.

2007-01-23T21:37:00.000+08:00

today suppose to be a special day. hmms.

went with sis to school. thought she ps me at bouna vista. i waited for bud and xl at jurong east. then head off to school met wl at the station.

school today was fun. first period was chem. everyone was busy doing tutorial. quite boring. then where was a break. P.E was quite fun. though i keep losing in the stupid tic tac toe. did forfeits can? ='( then had break. GP was hell boring!! i nearly slept. >< final break before maths and econs. another 3 hours of boring lessons. and many people pon econs la. wth.

took pictures with jas(c),jas(l) xiao wei, amanda, charlotte and wl. any many many candid shots. =P i'll upload them some time soon. hahas.

went home with charlotte, amanda, both jas, pearlyn, and wl. jasmine chua was so crappy. she acted like she was mad. and then we really saw this mad man. and he went, "I WON!!!". lols. then jasmine laugh like mad. hahas. so funny. we went to buy food to eat.

i'm so tired. didn't do any homework today. =x i'm glued to my book. oopsy daisy. hahas. the book rocks. i'm eyeing on her other book. hopefully i could finish both books soon. =)

here i am. at home. my elbow there is hell pain! sians. and my entire left hand feels so weak. =( hais. ooo. someone wanna know me through friendster. damn crap la. he didn't put his picture. and dylan was like he must be too ugly that's why desperate until need to go online to look for girls. crap right? dylan, another crap guy. i told him he sounded like a bro. and his answer is, "i am. a guy older+not interested in you=friend/bro." hahas. nice answer. hahas.

life is not fair(quoting sh). but when we aren't satisfy with something in our life, think about those who can't afford to have it. no wonder human aren't easily contented. lols.

puay might be taking off this thursday. hopefully i can pon school and go out with her. PUAY!! I MISS YOU LOADS!

done blogging.

-i'm just not ready to walk this path alone.-

nothing is perfect.

2007-01-22T20:34:00.000+08:00

no matter how perfect you are. no matter how perfect you want your life to be. it can't be done. "perfect" this word, doesn't really exist.

love always exist with hate.
truth always exist with lies.
smile always exist with tears.
success always exist with failure.
promises always exist with empty promises.

no matter how much you love someone, one day, hate will just control your love.
no matter how much truthful you are, one day, you'll lie your way through.
no matter how much you wish to smile, one day, you find tears welling up in your eyes.
no matter how successful you are, i believe you started out by being a failure.
no matter how many people promised you something, don't have too much hope. one day, they might just break their promises.

so, so much for being perfect.

stop hating whoever lied to you. and start loving them cause you have to admit that we live in a world of lies. stop looking down on those who are failures now, cause you've yet to taste what failing is like. stop promising someone something, when you know you can't do it. there is such thing as "try my best".

why make the world a sad place to live, when actually it can be a nice place to be in?

sians.

2007-01-22T18:26:00.000+08:00

school starts late. and even so, i was kinda chase out of house. my dad thought i was running late and sort of chase me out. -.-" waited for xl. i wonder what always take him so long. i saw the change in colours of the sky. from dark blue, to pink and blue and finally to blue sky.

went to school. met bud at 7-eleven though he didn't came with us. so we 3 went school together. while waiting for the others to come, i borrowed xl's tutorial to see. cause i was stuck at a few questions. then the rest came along.

first lesson was bio lecture. i hate bio lecture. cause she is always so... i don't know. there are some students who just don't respect her. ok. i don't really like her either. but we still have to respect her. afterall she is a teacher. if she don't teach us bio, who will?

break. then went for chinese lessons. i love chinese lessons. cause he's jokes are just so funny and it makes the time pass so fast. haha. he is just so knowledgeable. and i didn't know he taught primary school before. and!! and!! after hearing his story, i kinda scare of being a teacher. =x scary.

i was talking with sh today. i told her i can't wait for v day to be over. nothing special actually. cause after v day, it just signifies that i will officially be an O level holder. and it means i'll know my results by then. and probably i'll spend my v day alone this year again. hahas. and after vday, it'll be new year!! more money!! that means more clothes, more food and more shoes!! wheee~

this friday, i'll be out with my class, 07s16. i think they are really special people. =) it feels good being part of them. wheee~ just hope we'll always keep in contact. <3 <3

went to bukit batok library today. i went to get another book. then i came across this book with a wonderful sentence. well, not to you maybe, but to me, it's wonderful. =)

you're my everything. and before i lose you, i'll rather lose myself.

went to lunch with bud. and then i came home. did my tutorials. and sis was shocked. hahas. ya ya. she teased me. i don't mind though. =) i love it when we are like real sisters. instead of all those shoutings and scolding of vulgarities. hahas.

everything about you is so special and magical.

done blogging.

-i never regret loving you. even for a second.-

good girl.

2007-01-21T16:49:00.000+08:00

the book i'm reading is kinda interesting. the begining already captures your attention that makes the book irresistable. lols. but because i was very sleepy last night, i put the book aside.

woke up this morning. and started doing my homework. can you believe it?! there isn't any major exam coming yet, and without throwing my temper, i'm doing my tutorials. wow! amazing. hahas. don't ask me what medicine i ate. lols.

sis went to work, maid's off day today. so i'm left with my old folks. hahas. it's like kinda boring. cause i can't go out and i'm stuck at home. all i can do is like to stay online. -.-" hais. i was looking at some people blogs. and i really envy them. i always wonder why some people can share their problems with their elder or younger sister without being sabotage. yet, it doesn't happen in my case. oh well.. some things are just fated. hahas.

i spent most of my afternoon reading the book. hahas. only finish 1/6 of it la. it's 600 pages. the thickest book i've read. =x shows how thin the books i usually read are. hahas. =x

new year is coming. and relatives will start bombarding me with questions. like how's my Os results. where i'll go next. what are my plans. how's life in MI. why not planning to stay on. blah blah blah. it's just something i can never run away each year. it's no wonder why my heart skips a beat each time people talks about Os results. hais. if only i had the universal remote control, i'll fast forward. HAHA~! =x

done blogging.

^{it seems like we are back to where we once were. it's just like a cycle. can't i just put this cycle to an end? please don't treat me this way. i feel as if i'm being tortured.}

-a wish i wished i didn't make.-

so much better

2007-01-20T21:40:00.000+08:00

i'm feeling so much better now. yeah. ^^ didn't know what went wrong with me last night. all i know was that i cried in bed.

woke up at 8.45. then slack till about 1. i went tp with mum, cause eve wasn't able to make it. so yap. we had tour around business school. i went to find out more about my courses and then went to applied science to find out the other few courses. i had 3 courses in mind from tp, and about 2 in sp and 2 in nyp. so i'll make the decision after next week's nyp open house. hahas.

i saw a few sec 4 mjr-ians, and i saw my ex classmates. i also saw my senior!! hahas. =) just didn't see cai cai mummy. ='( anyway, i went to do a test to see if i'm healthy. the score ranges from 10000 to 50000++. and the average score for singaporeans is 30000-39000. my mum's score is like 29000. and i'm like 12000!! what the heck?! means in future i'll have lots of diseases and i might die early!!! >< gosh. i feel so sad now. ='( hais. life is all about entering and leaving. hais....

went to the library to borrow 2 books. i couldn't find one of the book that i want. =( wow. pasir ris is filled with green men today. =x they are huge and tall. unlike the ones i see every morning, thin and average size.. hmms. are they fed with different food??

went out with granny, cousin, her friend, mummy and maid. out of all the food we order, i only ate one dish la. sweet and sour pork. cause the rest all so spicy. >< but the dessert is nice. love it. =)

ok ok. pictures time. don't say i didn't entertain you. =P

my orientation shirt.

Mr de novo. he's from my OG. and we made him the mascot. Mr butterfly. =x

me in sis's new spects. i think it's nicer on me than my own new spects. right?

took it at marche. the moo moo is so cute!! =x

"wrote" my name on the esplanade furry chair. =P

the chicken sushi i wanted to eat. but very ex cause it's red plate. since cannot eat, so take a picture lo.

triza's bear. is it a bear? or whatever you call it. so cute right? jasmine lim says it looks like jasmine chua. lols.

took this picture of me today. =) just trying very hard to act innocent. =x

me again! acting cute and innocent. lols.

the cafe i went to have dinner. =)

done blogging.

-i've created enough mess. and i have to clear them now.-

finally.

2007-01-19T20:29:00.000+08:00

yes! another weekend is here. that means another 2 days of waking up late.

met xl and bud to go to school. i was listening to music and let my mind wander about. anyway, when the train reach this particular station, the door didn't open immediately. it took quite sometime. and the word,"biology", on this guy's file caught my eyes. it's very nicely decorated. i think he knows i was staring, and looked at me. so i turned away. >< so paiseh. hais.

reach school, hang out in the canteen awhile. then went to aseemble. i told my teacher my mum can't make it tml. then i started playing with xiao wei. maths lessons was freaking boring. the lesson was supposed to start at 8.45. the teacher came 8.30. so he had like an hour to teach us. and i'm like so bored. though the lesson was easy. but his teaching method is boring. =x then was econs. had a short test. 5 mcqs. i scored like 2. and i had no idea what he was talking about. i think all the lecturers are so much better than my tutors. =x then gp. quite boring. break. then finally chem. chem was not bad. i almost sleep though. =x

went back mjr. met sh. i had a hard time walking back school cause my leg hurts alot. anyway, went back. slack in the canteen awhile. feels so good to talk to my juniors. at least i know that PB still exist. =x 42 sec 2 juniors. gosh! and one guy say the badge is stupid. HELLO! eugene is right to shut him up. whoever say anything bad about PB or related to PB ought to shut up. went walking around the school. then talk with wu laoshi. after that talk to ms quek. then went canteen again. suddenly i miss everything about secondary school life. all the fun, gossips, little quarrels, talking back to teachers, teasing teachers, getting scolded, stay back late after school, consultations, eating, jokes and all the other pieces that make up that huge memory.

counting down towards the day of collection of results is freaking me out. probably because i know that isn't the best. and probably because i know that i might not make the mark. but ya. i just have to accept whatever happens. i'm not sure if i'll have jc and sy to console me. neither am i sure if PB room will be open for me to cry and hide. but i guess i'll probably be walking that path alone. =) or maybe, i'll he happily jumping up and down. lols. but, i'll be sensitive to others. =x

i'm kinda enjoying life in MI with my cute friends of course. but time to face reality. JC/CI is definitely not a choice for me. and i'm currently looking into poly courses. banking and financial is my ultimate choice. and hopefully, i'll be able to do well in it. wheee~ banker. =) or broker. lols.

i'm going TP tml. sasa will be our tour guide. =) thought i'm not exactly sure what courses they have. but ya. i'll just check it out. i'm not sure where would i head next. but i guess, i'll be alone. puay can't meet me, eve going to ps me for qiqi after that. crystal also not sure if she is coming. lols. next best choice, LIBRARY! then i'll head off to another place. lols.

gee. i woke up with a nice dream this morning. but some times, reality just don't turn out the way dreams do. no wonder people always wish to live in dreams than in reality. but what's the point. i rather know the truth than to be lied. i hurts more to be lied. right right? lols. but yet, i'm always the one lying to myself. hais.

thanks jas. =) thanks for msging me last night. really appreciated. and yaps. i love you! really do. =P i know you'll freak out. =P

done blogging.

-i just miss all those fun we used to have-

tired.

2007-01-18T19:41:00.000+08:00

time for book summary. my usual habit.

toxic bachelor
this book is about 3 bachelors, Adam, Gary and Charlie. they were very close friends and loved each other alot. they shared their problems with each other. it was a tradition for them spent their entire august on charlie's yatch.

Charlie is a guy who had a really sad family background. his parents died when he was a young boy. his sister had to stop studying and work just to send him to university. but she died cause of cancer. charlie had a few engagements, but the women always ran away. from then on, charlie was convinced that people you love will leave you some day. and he was afraid. he fear to commit. as charlie runs a foundation, he donated nearly one million to a centre that was set up to save all children who were once abused. he fell in love with Carole, who was also a commitment phobic. charlie was angry with her for one period of time, as carole lied about her real identity. and to charlie, relationship is all about trust and honesty. but after gary persuaded him, he took her out and they patched. charlie began to understand why she hid her identity and later forgive her. although charlie was rather determined never to get married, he ended up marrying carole. =)

Adam is a lawyer from Harvard. he was very much like a flirt. he had a divorce with his wife and he didn't get along well with his family. he started going out with stars and people who wanted jobs in the showbiz. most of the girls who he went out with were only after his money. adam met maggie at a concert. he didn't really contacted her until he was pissed off by his parents. he started to fell for her, although he didn't want to get married either. maggie got pregnent and he thought she was trying to force him to marry her. however, too his surprise, she didn't want to. she wanted to keep the baby cause it was his baby. adam then realised that she was unlike the other girls he used to go out with. adamn fell for her and they married.

Gary was an artist. the women in his life were either drug dealers or women who were abandon by their husbands. gary tried his best to get their life back on track. and after he did, they left him. gary didn't mind. while travelling on charlie's yatch to portofino,he met a lady, Sylvia. he was attracted to her. they started contacting each other. their interest were pretty much the same. she opens a gallery and he was an artist. as gary was adopted, he never liked his family. he was afraid to be attacted to kids. sylvia and gary's relationship was smooth until sylvia told him that her kids were coming back. gary didn't want to meet her kids. so they fought. it was Boy(gary's "brother"), who taught him a lesson. then gary finally picked up the courage to meet sylvia's children. and they liked him a lot. so gary and sylvia got married. =)

there was a sentence from this book, "love is about disappointment.".

oh well. i was at the mrt, when i picked up a 5 bucks. i thought i'll be lucky today. but damn it. NO! it's rather a bad day though.

as usual, i waited for xl for 10 minutes. we were waiting for the bus, when xl decided to walk to school. bud walk so fast, so xl and me didn't bothered to go after him. i was msging. and my mind was in a confuse state. but anyway. reach school just in time.

first period was chinese. the teacher is really funny. but i was busying msging sh. then i asked jia lat if he wanted to meet me. after that, was bio. the teacher is like damn boring. got picked by her twice to answer questions. -.-" there was a super long break. actually 45 minutes. but GP teacher didn't come, so we were at the library. we were all playing game. first was Bingo, then murderer. i killed the wrong person. i didn't know jasmine was the detective and i killed her. >< gosh. then was maths. stupid teacher. he shouldn't be a teacher at all. i'm so sure i'll make a better teacher than him. he makes maths so boring. i'm freaking tired that i can sleep.

i pity jasmine. she's always picked on by that maths teacher. and today, she got electric shocked when she on the lights. but when the teacher switched the lights on, he didn't. lol. then she was called up to do a question. and the teacher was damn impatient. HOW TO BE TEACHER?! *argh*

went home with xl and bud. jia lat didn't want to meet me cause i took a very long time. so 3 of us ended up at BK. i thought xl how to fold hearts using straws. he wanted to fold for the girl he has a crush on. sweet. =) but too bad, i'm a lousy teacher at teaching such things. *sigh* then head home.

i was walking in the rain. i'm not sure what's going on. but i was kinda angry deep down inside. anyway, the moment i closed the toilet door behind me, i had an urge to cry. this feeling sucks big time! yes! my entire life is turning upside down. and it sucks! Daddy, i'm tired.l and i really hope to get out of this life soon. ='(

meeting crystal, puay and eve this sat after the PTI in school. i guess i won't be out long with them. i wanna sit outside esplanade again. yaps. i wanna figure out what's wrong with me. and who the heck pass me that stupid saddness disease! disgusting idiot! ><

^{i've been thinking about you lately. a lot. just when i close my eyes, you appear in front of me. i miss you that much and i really wanted you to know. maybe i'm thinking too much. and maybe my trust for you is that low. cause i just couldn't sense your love for me. i guess you're either angry with me or disappointed. and i really wanna apologise to you to keep disturbing you. i'm sorry.}

done blogging.

-get me out of this freaking life.-

sians.

2007-01-17T18:43:00.000+08:00

i'm dreading to go to school these days. i'm really tired. guess is due to the long hours of travelling to and fro. sigh.

i slept really early last night. my eyes were already half close at 9. and my temper started to change at 9.30. bad sign. >< i was talking to dylan last night. and freakingly, he sounded like a brother to me. hahas. both of us were feeling bored. i asked him to find a partner. and he said no girls want him, so he decided to be gay. OMG! hahas. girls out there, don't feel sad. lols. anyway, he said he wished i was older so can go out. haha. and i asked him wait 1.5 years. i'll sure to ask him go club with me on my 18th birthday. lols. unlike some of my friends, he didn't forbid me for drinking, but just ask me to be careful with who i am with. =) lols. and ya. he started talking to be about jc. and he's persuading me to go jc. and his logic was that even the piggiest human on earth, like him, can survive in cjc, why can't i? lols. i told him i'll consider his issue. lols.

went to school this morning. day by day, we reach school later. and today, we practically had to brisk walk to school cause we were running late. thank god, we aren't. lols. i stood beside jas during morning assembly. and she's like so crappy. lols. then went to one room for bio lesson. we had a revision test. and NOT BAD, i'm quite impressed. despite not touching my bio textbook for nearly 2 months, i still can rememeber somethings. ok. probably because the test is like really basic. but ya. some questions are manageable. lols.

there was a break. me and bud were waiting for the room to be cleared. and i started singing the montage 2 songs. lol. Name the tune and ba jun zhan. but sadly, i couldn't remember the lyrics but i could remember the tune. wow. hahas. anyway, we were suppose to have home tution. but my teacher didn't come. so we were practically slacking. i was reading my book the entire 45 minutes, till nearly 11. then head off for econs. and my econs teacher is a relief one! lols. he's damn tall and thin. so he shared with us some things in his life. he was talking about life in MI(he was an ex student.), then to NS life. and gosh! he look so soft, but he is a sergeant.. -.-" then he talked about his ns life. so i took out my book to read. i'm addicted to my book. i'm finishing!! like finally? lols.

went to LR2 for chem. the entire 1 and a half hour was used to touch on basic things. i think he 3 weeks also cannot finish the basic. it's all things that were taught during Os. how can anyone of us not know?! *argh* so boring!!!

finally lesson end, i walked with xl, sebest, kris and nana to west mall. they went there to eat, while i went to bugis. i met jia lat and dum. then went to get somethings. 2.45, we went to sakae. then we went in to sit first. till 3, then we start eating. think we finish about 25++ plates. DUM EAT SO MUCH!!! i watch him eat, i'm both scared and jealous. cause he eat damn freaking alot la.. so scary. jealous cause he eat so much yet still so thin. lol.

jialat was trying to knock some sense into me. "don't give so much when you know you won't get any in return." i'm not sure if i really understand. or was i just trying to pretend that i don't understand. but anyway, like people say, "love is blind.". lols. and for god sake, JIA LAT, I'M NOT STUPID! =P we sat there for about an hour. then walk around, then i went home first.

i really love the book i'm reading. i really wish i could be one of the girls in that book. yeah. and ya. it's really sometimes, no matter how firm you are on your own principles, when LOVE comes knocking on your door, one might no longer be firm on one's principles anymore. i'm not sure if things happen this way in reality. and i don't mean love as in relationships. but LOVE in general term like friendship, kinship and of course relationship.

ok. sh has been listening to my problems for the past 2 days. thank her so much. yeah. at least someone is willing to listen to my troubles. to reach out to me and be patient to whatever i say. i'm really not as happy as how i acted. and i seriously needed someone to talk to before i break down. thank god. sh came along. =) love her!! ^^ yeahs. i know i'm not who i am for the time being. bare with me. i'll be more cheerful soon. guess some sadness disease was spread to me. so. ya. i'll be fine in a few days.

done blogging.

-will you ever sit down an listen to my problems?-

ooo.

2007-01-16T22:04:00.000+08:00

went to school today. was slightly late. but guess who i saw? jun kai! hahas. yeah. =)

morning assembly, i lined up behind jas. she's so damn crappy. she kept laughing. and i don't know why. so i just laugh. haha. she gave me the preserved lemon. wasn't that sour. then when i gave that weirdo look, she laugh. lols.

first period was chem. was trying to find a seat beside buddy, then weelin, ask me to sit beside her. and she keep meh-ing me. lols. she's cute. anyway, jas and charlotte sat in front of me. i didn't finish my tutorials. and thank god, the teacher isn't fierce. hahas. but she looks fierce la. >< i was busy msging. tutorials are boring!!! ><

there was break. i was hanging out with jasmine, charlotte, meijun and the others. jasmine was so amused with the m&m mini box. lols. then she keep pressing and it POP! lols.

then went for P.E. we had our own teacher assigned to us. at first, me and jas didn't want that fierce female teacher. but in the end, she is la. she wasn't as fierce as what we thought she was. she rocks. and we had P.E homework. lols. there was half an hour break before GP. GP is goddamn boring! everyone was sleeping. hahsa.

there was another break. then maths. stupid maths teacher sucks! i want my lecturer back!!! argh. then last lesson econs. i kinda understand. but i switched off at 4.30. ><

went home with nana, kris, bud and weelin. my new recruit. my MEH warrior! hahas. =P

i'm really tired. i don't know what's causing me to be so dead. but yeah. i'm just tired. tired of this house. tired of this school. tired of this world. tired of this life.

since primary, i'm spoilt. i'll get whatever i want, by just crying. i give things up easily. like giving up dancing and piano(bet no one knows i learn before. lol.). but ya. from then on, whatever i wanted to learn, i can't. cause they know i'll give up half way. lols. i didn't really mind not having any talent. till recently. when everyone around me had music background or are good at something. and i'm neither. lols. i feel useless. and kinda regret. but. i've got to surrender to life. =)

i was reading a book, when i had this thought. i really don't mind just being a character in a storybook. whereby everything is so perfect. some stories just have a happy ending. mine? lols. there's still a long way to go.

i'm kinda emo now. i'm sad. i feel that i led this life without any right reason. all i care is about running away from difficulties. so what if i wish i were a world tennis player. so what if i wish i'm a great pianist. so what if i dream i'm a graduate from Harvard. lols. dreams are just dreams.

fuck. i'm freakingly depress.

done blogging.

-my life? GAME OVER-

first day of tutorials.

2007-01-15T16:22:00.000+08:00

i couldn't sleep last night. i went to bed at 10.30 and only manage to sleep at about 11.45. gosh! hahas. but when i woke up this morning, i found myself smiling. it'll sound silly. but really. my dream seems so real. i'm not sure if it's good or bad news. but i dreamt that i actually scored 17 points for L1R5 for Os. wow!! hahas. in my dream, i was very very happy. i was practically jumping up and down. when we can all go home, i was looking for him frantically, hoping to share the good news. only to realise that he wasn't there at all. =( oh well. when i rushed home, i told my mum, and she was happy. somehow, i ended up in jc. weird dream. hahas. but if the points is really real. HOW NICE! hahas. =)

ok. went to meet xl then head to school. we were the earliest mjr-ians to reach. lol. and we didn't had to squeeze into the bus with all the other PAE students. hahas. anyway, most PAE students were like crowding around the noticeboard, copying the timetable. stupidly, i followed. then waited for the others to come.

morning assembly was cancelled. so my class went to LR1 for home tuition. and ya. timetable was given out. i feel so damn cheated la. >< hmph. anyway, waited for bio lecture to begin. it's damn freaking boring. i was about to fall asleep with my eyes open when i felt vibration. WHEEE~ msg! hahas. i manage to stay awake till lecture end.

break. then went for MT. my chinese teacher is damn crap la. he was actually linking all the social issues together. thus it sounded like a joke. it's like damn crap can? hahas. anyway, he was saying that olden days, naughty children are called si gi na. now a days, naughty students are call siao kia. hahas. then after that, he asked if it was time to put Singapore into the hands of our batch, are we ready? there were silence. hahas. then i have no idea how he say until gambling. he said that it was right for singapore to open the casino, cause the chinese can come to gamble. then link until swiss bank. then link until women not wanting to settle down and have children. damn crap la. hahas. i was laughing my head off. =x

lessons end at 1.15. tml, lessons end at 5. and i'm thinking of pon-ning. it's like damn irritating. by the time i reach home will be 6 la. >< sians. and there is P.E!! i'm having phobia. hahas. =x

gosh. i think i'm sick. >< having horrible flu and stupid sore throat. >< stupid rain! go away man! ><

done blogging.

-will never love anyone more than i love you-

thinking.

2007-01-14T14:16:00.000+08:00

after reading sh's blog. i had the urge to blog. probably after what she wrote set us thinking. or maybe whatever she said just make sense. hahas. =)

i was talking to her last night before i went to bed. she said the same thing to me.

is the past more important or the present that is more important?

to some people, the past is more important. in a sense, the past holds more memories than the present. in another sense, the past teaches them a lesson and that they should not make the same mistake in future. thus past is more important.

to some people, the present is more important. cause the present is the fruit of whatever you have reap from the past. the present is to show others how much they had work hard to have whatever they had.

but for teenagers. both past and present matters. cause to them, past and present is part of a relationship. take an example of a girl and a guy, when they are together, the guy's past means alot to a girl. cause to them, it roughly shows where she stand in his heart. i guess that is when comparing comes into our lives.

teachers always say, as a teenager, we have more responsibilities in our hands than to waste our time on relationship. after all, it studies than is more important to the society than the number of exs you had in your life. yet how many of us, ever seriously listen to the golden words of a teacher? in our mind, we already have the mindset that this is our lives and that no one should interfer with whatever we are doing. right? but if we were to sit down and think again. maybe teachers do make sense sometimes. after all, they experience more than any of us students. =)

anyway, i didn't really think alot till now. =x so ya. i went to bed at about 10 plus. and woke up at 11 this morning. i was hoping to make this day slightly more fruitful than yesterday. but my laziness is engulfing me. >< suddenly, i would rather work than to go school.

feb is apporaching. many things will take place. and probably my life will change, the way it changed when i took my chinese results in feb last year. *sigh* hopefully none of those things would happen. anyway, what i meant is that Os result will be out. then vday. guess this year no more chocolates and roses. like how yao pampered me during the past 4 years. haha. but i'll be expecting something else i guess. =) then will be chinese new year. wheee~ after that i'll feel rich again. =P then then. i'll spend part of those money on GODIVA!!!! =) wheeee. and of course new school bag. =)

gosh. i'm feeling fat. >< it's time to slim down. JIAN FEI~ hahas. =) hahs. ok ok. my future used to be very BLEEK. but, ya. i'm quite sure where i wanna head now. =) JC is definitely not a choice for me. so yap. poly. not sure of the course yet. i thought i can get away with cca even in poly. but can't! shit. sians. i really damn lazy to join cca. =x definitely not choir. =x i can't reach any high notes now la. i bet i'm an alto now. HAHA. =x

ok ok. i think i grew up quite alot. especially with the way i think. =) i told mummy my plan and she finally seems quite satisfied with it. =) i'm not sure if i'm making the right choice. neither am i sure if my passion is really teaching. but i guess, i won't know till i try. =)

oh well. just hope, i'll put these words into actions. and hopefully, things will be the way i want it to be. even if i were to retain, it won't stop me from becoming a teacher. even if i were to retake Os, it won't stop me. =) wheee. i'll stand firm on my decisions this time. ^^

6 more days then can see puay, eve and crystal. =)

done blogging.

-i miss you!!!-

sick.

2007-01-13T19:48:00.000+08:00

after an entire week of sleepless nights, i was really hoping to sleep well last night. but then, i didn't! *argh* i woke up like at 3 plus, then 4 plus, then 7 plus. then 8 plus, and finally at 10 plus. damn shitty la. >< and i wasn't feeling well when i woke up. *sigh*

i came online. but i was studying my bio. i'm such a good girl. =) although it's first 3 months, i promised i will make it a fruitful trip. so i will do my best to learn what i can. wheee. haha. that include scoring well for a test. =x i finish maths tutorial before i slept this morning, at 12.30. so i'm left with chem tutorial. =x

i left house at 12.30. then angel msg me. he ask me one damn lame question. "why one of our leg is smaller than the other?". so i gave a normal answer like no one is perfect. and he tell me, "cause we have one father, and one mother. so bigger leg is father, smaller leg is mother." damn lame la. it's actually a joke told to him by an uncle. -.-"

i met him at 1 plus at the convention centre. then we went to marina square, then to millenia walk, then to suntec, then back to convention centre. he is DAMN smart. make me walk one big round. -.-" hmph. then ended up at marche for his lunch. i didn't realise i had sore throat until he tell me la. which i have no idea how he knows it. =x

at 2 plus, we went to listen to talk. i was like half asleep. i was TRYING very hard to stay awake. and i did! yeah. haha. ok ok. i'm quite sure where i wanna go after getting back my Os result. so yeah. wish me all the best. i'll do my best to achieve my dreams. and i guess i'll be quite fated to be single if i'm a teacher(if you notice, most teachers are single). hehe. =x

after the talk, we went walking around. then went esplanade's library. then walk from city hall to raffles' place. did alot of walking la. >< my muscles ache more now.

i'm like so damn tired. but i have to finish my chem tutorial by tonight. >< gosh. thank god, i might not be doing A level. =x *sigh*

gosh. i'm so happy. i'll be meeting puay and eve soon. in 7 days time. =) i'm counting down. hehe. love them. =) and i'll be meeting dar on wed. =) going back for choir. AGAIN!. <3 choir. hahas.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TAREPANDA~

done blogging.

-a smile hides a thousand tears-

sians.

2007-01-12T21:11:00.000+08:00

ok. one small little request. i blogged instead of spend my time doing my tutorials, so i hope that you, readers, will read my entry thoroughly and not do speed reading. PLEASE! =)

ok. went to school. it was like raining la. anyway, xl, me and bud manage to get seats in the train. wow. hahas. then at the bus stop, no bus. so we took taxi to school lo. xl damn pissed off with the taxi driver. cause he this place don't know. that place don't know. lols.

reach school. then went to LR1 for our assembly since it's raining. so, the teacher had one student to sing. and GOSH! his voice is like damn solid and damn nice!! how long since i last heard a nice powerful soloist. hahas.

after that, went for GP. damn boring. xiao wei is always joking la. hahas. then after GP, had break. then went for bio. stupid bio lecturer damn boring and still expect us not to sleep. like how can? i was so damn happy when bio ended.

went for home tuition. was quite fun. know more people! like anna, evangeline, wang wan and more. than ms ang ask people to stand up to answer one question about ourselves. so she asked xiao wei, then xiao wei ask samuel, samuel ask ming xuan and ming xuan pointed to me. i wasn't convinced he was pointing to me la. but ms ang insisted that he was. and my face turned red. and anna was like, "relax. your entire face is red.". then the guys behind were like, "mehhhhhh~". DOTS! after that, released. the class is damn crap! hahas.

went to meet sh. we were like chatting happily in the train la. hahas. we went back to school. i met POTATO, FISH and JOCEY CHUA again! hahas. we are so fated. =) then met gui. sh and gui went to play badminton while me, fish and potato play dai dee. then ended up me and potato play stress. i feel so lousy at it. i ended up taking the entire deck of cards. >< lols. then sh came. 4 of us went outside the hall. then me and sh play badminton. i keep dropping the shuttle cock la. -.-" i laugh until my tummy pain. then sh went to buy drink. me and potato play. we ended up laughing too. we had to make jacky picked up our shuttle cock twice and sh to picked it alot la. =x damn funny.

i finally went back to choir. but they were playing game. so ya. i left quite after sometime. then went to play with sh. then waited for jialat and dum. then went home. met jordan. he waited for me. and took mrt with me. but he alighted at eunos. so. hahas. =) fun meeting him and seng yong!! i keep bullying his cousin. wei liang, i say until wei ba liang qi lai(tail is glowing.)=x lols. anyway, i miss mjr alot. my ex form teacher so cute. she saw me on wed, and today. and she went, "YOU AGAIN?!". hahas. and she laughed. =)

last night, a classmate of mine msg me. and he started telling me somethings. i'm not sure how to cheer him up. but all i can do was just to listen. that's what i normally do. sometimes, it sets me thinking if i'm really a good listener. haha. but it's the least i can do to make someone feel better right? =) anyway, hope he won't think so much and just stay happy. life is never always dark. the light will be out. it just a matter of time. =)

done blogging.

-i'm aching! hate P.E!!!-

tired.

2007-01-11T17:14:00.000+08:00

ok. forgot to mention. i met potato,fish and jocey chua. haha. i was damn happy to see potato, that i run to her and gave her a big hug. i miss her!! ^^

ok. slept early last night cause i really cannot take it. my eyes were half close at 9.30. =x gosh. shows how tired i am. =x

woke up late today. i started rushing. and i left house late too. met xl and bud. then i found a place. i sat down and doze off. i nearly miss my stop. =x xl had to tap on my shoulder and wake me up. thank god, i'm a light sleeper. *phew* hahas. =)

reached school, lined up in our classes, no longer in clans. then went for bio lecture. the lecture was so damn boring! i had to msg people to keep me awake. =x the teacher practically put the sleeping spell on us la. every one was about to doze off. =x. i was so bored too. not only do i have to msg people, i started writing nonsense thing again la. don't worry. i won't post. if not, someone, will start telling me how EMO i am. -.-" hahas. ok. after that, was P.E! HATE IT! *argh* ok. we ran 2 rounds around the track. i ran with jas and charlotte. cause we are all SUPER slow runners. =x then we had SILENT P.E. we did stretching. and we didn't even know he had started la. cause he didn't even talk. -.-" then jasmine kept laughing. she was so amused. haha. ok ok. we did jogging on the spot, star jumps, clutches, push ups(girls style), and all sorts of stretching exercise. but what is unfair is that the guys get to do them on the dry area. and we girls had to do on the WET track. my pants were like WET la. stupid! thank god my pants dry easily. *sigh* then had another 3 rounds. 3 of us ended up walking. =x i'm lazy k?! ><

break. i was too tired to move. i asked sebest help me buy drink. ^^ then i went to change and wait for lecture to start. we were outside the LR1. then xl, kx and sebest came. and they say maths in the same room. i was shocked. in the end, both combi went in. after the teachers discussed, CHEM people had to move. means, we had to move. so move to LR2. chem lessons was another boring lecture. he spent like 1.5 hours talking about basic chem stuff. i was freaking bored la. even Ms tay can finish them in 1 hr 10 mins. HE TEACH SO SLOW!!! *argh* funniest thing. after the first lesson, he asked if his lesson was over. so some people said yes. and he really thought so. he wanted to release us. but he checked his timetable and realise we had another period. and every one went, "AIYAH!!". lols. damn funny.

after lesson, met xl. then me, bud and xl went for lunch at west mall. after that, we were about to reach the mrt when one girl said bye to xl. and he was shocked. he doesn't even know her la. haha. funny. i should have record his reaction. SO FUNNY! =x

PLANS:tml, i'll be going back mjr after school. sat, i'll be out again. sunday should be going with sh to republic poly. monday onwards, tutorial should start. DAMN! tuesday, angel asked me if wanna go vivo. i haven't ask mummy. =x oops. hahas. i gotta see how. erms. i guess no more plans after that. OH! 20th, i'll be going to TP with eve and meeting puay after that. GOSH! i have so much to tell her!! PUAY!! I MISS YOU! ^^

done blogging.

-is that what you're really thinking? =x-

cool.

2007-01-10T20:51:00.000+08:00

today is like the 6th day of school. so ya.

did the same routine. but this time, i was noticing all the NS guys in the train. not that i'm despo and whatever you're thinking. but it's that, i always see them sleeping. sleeping while standing also can. DAMN PRO! i wonder if they're train to sleep while standing. =x and every morning, i see this guy. he'll always be sleeping on the train la. GOSH! no wonder they get higher pay than those who don't serve. =x

anyway, reached school, went to the canteen and saw everyone crowding around the noticeboard. only then, did i realise that the class lists are put up. me and buddy same class. so ya. after the morning assembly, we went to the lecture room for home tuition. wow! my classmates are like so fun! haha. xiao wei same class as me. =) she rocks! haha. erms. know people like charlotte, mei jun, jasmine.. and some people whose name i can't rmb. =x ok. i'm the little sheep of the class. wheee! i love my nick k? hahas.

had GP lecture. i feel like dozing off la. damn boring... so... skip. had break. and chem lecture. it's like damn stupid. the teacher spent 1 entire period talking about rules, and stupid textbooks. like i'll care. the funniest thing. he showed us a sentence, "do or do not. there is no "try"." then he started saying that if we don't know a question, don't leave it blank. try to attempt it. but yet, the sentence say do or do not, no try. means if you don't know how to do a question, don't do la. right? ok. that's my joke. you probably won't laugh. so, fine! =x

went back mjr today after my second period of home tuition. but i met jia lat at bukit batok mrt station. he entertained me through out the trip. and i entertain him while walking from kallang to school. i'm so sweet! haha. anyway, on the train, where is this toddle, a girl. when she looks at me, i smile to her and she ignore me. but yet she smiles so sweetly to a guy and jia lat. after she and her mum left, i told jia lat she would grow up to be a flirt. and he laugh. really ma. =x

i sat alone in the canteen. then went to outside staff room. i didn't went choir. cause they were in the humanities room. and i hate that room to the core! =x hate hate hate. =x so ya. after talking to teachers like miss quek and mdm wee, i went to the canteen with dum. then we talk la. then mr gui came, and i wave to him. he scare me la. he told me results out next thursday. then i was, "HUH?! SURE OR NOT?!". and he made it sound so convincing la. in the end, it's not true. bluff me. >< scare me some more. -.-" hmm. we waited for jialat for damn long la. when he is finally out, three of us went to the overhead bridge to wait for lynette. then i entertain the 2 of them k? i'm so nice! haha. but the find me damn irritating. =x so i had to shut up. =x then they talk talk talk. and finally, i came home. wheee~

i'm so freaking tired. every morning i can never find a seat in the train. and i had to stand. -.-" my leg hurts la. *sigh* P.E tml. sucks. tml will not be a good day. sigh. i promised my juniors i'll be back on friday to visit choir. and i will. =) i miss my cutey boyfriend. gosh! can't believe he is sec 4 la. he still act like a young boy. haha. cute junior he is. =) but he grown to be more responsible. great! =) heard from him that prefectorial board is like going down. haha. can't be bothered. SAC will definitely rise. and thank god! i'm out from there. *phew*

done blogging.

-07S16. WOOHOO~-

cool.

2007-01-09T17:16:00.000+08:00

i slept exactly at 10 last night. was freaking tired and i could not stay awake for another second. ><

woke up 1 minute earlier today. wheee~ same routine: met xl then went to meet buddy, took bus 941 at bukit batok bus interchange. reach school, slack till 8 and report to the stadium for morning assembly.

after that, me and buddy went to the container classroom for GP! as the name suggests, it is really a container. you know those big big metal "boxes" use for shipping. so cool right?! and it's air conditioned! cool. haha. ok. i sounded so sua ku. ><

we were already in class at 8.25 and waited for the teacher to come at 8.30. i started scribbling words on a waste paper. i couldn't help it. ~~i miss you badly. and at the moment, i really wished i am in your arms and that you are by my side. i want you this badly.~~ oh well. the teacher came in at 8.40 instead.

for GP, we talked about family. and the entire lesson was very crappy. my teacher, Ms jamaliah. she is my OG tutor. I LOVE HER! cause she rocks. haha. ok ok. she asked what kind of marriages do we have. then one student came up with "shortgun marriage". and my teacher said, "i wonder how this term came about. is it because the angry father took out a shortgun and threaten the guy who got his daughter pregnant?". so crap right? haha. then she started introducing us to "monogamy", "polygamy" and "polyandry". and she said that the system polygamy and polyandry can actually help to control a population. haha. ok ok. the last crap was the word "breadwinner". she was telling us the tradition roles of a father. that a father is a breadwinner. so he brings home breads cause he win them. lol. so crappy!

after GP, there was a 45 minutes break. then we had maths lecture. maths was great and it is fun! i'm loving it. =) though i forgotten alot of simple things that were taught in sec 3. like the law of indices and inequality. =x after the lecture, i remembered it. which is cool. =)

i waited for xl alone. cause buddy wanted to go home to cook his own lunch. so. yap. while waiting, xiao wei and the other girl(forgot her name.=x) came to ka jiao me. haha. but in the end, we talked. xiao wei sent me quite alot of themes. wheee~ thank you! ^^ then xl came, so i went off.

FINALLY! the day is coming~! i'll be going back to mjr with jia lat tml. i'll go collect my award! whee! hehe. i miss mjr. =) maybe i'll pop into music room awhile. been a long time since i hear choir. i wonder how's their progress. hmm. wheee~ maybe i'll talk to some teachers or i'll do my work quietly while waiting for dum and jia lat. hehe. wheee~~

all i wanted was to have you by my side.
to feel your love and your care.
you got me so crazy over you,
but now, i'm all alone,
wishing and hoping you would come back.
every night, i long for your hug.
cause i feel secure in there,
and i'll know that you are there for me
when it's the darkest days of my life.
every day, i long for your sms.
cause i'll know that you'll never be gone,
and that i'm in your mind
no matter what you are doing.
but the more i long for them,
the more painful my heart gets.
cause i know, those days,
will never come back.
cause we both concluded,
it's the end.
what's the point of me thinking,
missing,
and waiting for you.
when all i am to you,
is NOTHING.

i've been missing you all these while. no matter where, no matter what time, and no matter who i am with. and i just can't get you out of my mind. >< i'm sorry.

done blogging.

-i'll never let you go-

fun!

2007-01-08T18:41:00.000+08:00

THANK GOD! thank God lessons begin today. or else i'll be dead bored. lol.

reach school about 7.40, only to realise that the morning assembly is at 9. darn! then i waste my morning just like that. =( if not i can have longer hours to sleep. haha. =x

ok. my timetable rocks for today and tomorrow. i'm not sure about other days. cause we are currently having mass lectures. which is kinda fun. cause you can do what you want without having much attention on you. =x oops. ok. you can expect some mischief from me. but not a lot. i swear. =x

ok. we still had morning assembly in clans. so i lined up with hwee ling again. haha. so funny. her arms were sun burnt, while my face was sun burnt. haha. ok. after that, i met buddy to go for P.E briefing. it's like so boring. the teachers are trying to waste the entire 45 minutes by letting us ask questions. i mean, what to ask about P.E? it's all about running, perspiring and torture! i won't change my views of P.E! not until NAFA test is over. NO!! =x

i had like 45 minutes break. and i had glutinous rice. then me and bud walk around the school hoping to look for the lecture room 1. and we manage to find it. we aren't the first la. >< shows how many more kiasu people there too. =P we had maths mass lecture in lecture room 1. we are on the topic A.P and G.P. it's fun! yap. finally change my views on number patterns. i really hate number patterns la. cause i always can't find the formula. but now, they give you the formula! wheee~ so it's alot more fun. haha. i have absolutely no comments on my msths lecturer. he tried his best to crack jokes. and ya..... no one laugh la. =x so the entire 45 minutes is just used to go through a few questions. AND WE HAVE ASSIGNMENTS! they are no longer known as homework. god! first day only la! ><

ok. i had another 45 minutes break. gosh! i had like so many breaks. haha. and my break timing is different from the others. so the queue to buy food is shorter. haha. ok. after that, me and bud went to look for the classroom. and we just followed to crowd la. so i asked my OG group members if that was the class. haha. and it is! yeah! so i sat right at the back in one corner. yes! my dream seat! whereby i can sms, eat, talk, day dream, sleep.... =x ok ok. i had 1h 30 minutes of econs lesson. it's not boring! i swear it isn't! though i don't even have a clue what she was talking about. but i know it's funny! haha. my lecturer is damn cute! she giggles and laughs almost through out the entire period. haha. damn funny. she reminds me of mrs lim. haha. =x ok. econs is about the study of human behaviour. and.. ya.. i don't see how it link to maths. haha. she asked if we had enough for the day, and we said yes!!! and she let us off 15 minutes before time is up. wow! so cool right? haha.

my lesson end at 2. bud and me waited for xl to end lessons at 3.30! so freaking late la. haha. ok ok. when they were released, we checked our time table. then sebest told xl,"when our lessons end earlier than today, their lessons end even earlier.". hahas. yeah! they end lessons at 2 tml. and i end at 12.30!! woohoo!! haha. i only have 2 subject lectures tml. wheee~ haha. GP! *shivers* i'm always nervous whenever i have english, GP that is, lesson. after that, i have a break and i'll have maths!! wheee~ i so love maths!! MATHS MATHS MATHS~ =x

wow. i'm starting to love MI. =x i really don't mind staying on la. seriously. but... i don't know. maybe i can cope. but maybe not. hmm. i'll wait for Os result to come. =)

i'll be going back mjr some time this week. i really miss it. =) my teachers, of course. mr fahmy, ms quek, mr gui, ms tay, mrs lim, mdm wee.. hehe. of course of course, my beloved friends. =)

oh! guess who i saw today? i met john on the train. had a good chat with him. been a long time since i last talk to him. =) hahas. i got to know him through angel i think. if not is jared chong! haha. he looks tanner than before he graduated. but definitely not as tan as sanee. haha.
then i met lh bro at singapore post. haha. CAUGHT YOU RED HANDED! haha. yaps. he was with his gf. hahas. gosh. i always catch couples red handed. xP
finally, MET MY DAR!! hahas. gosh! he grew fatter! jordan ar jordan!!! haha. yap. he went back mjr. haha. talk to him about school and things. haha. asked him to organise a gathering for 4E soon. hehe. =)

ok ok. hopefully tomorrow will be a better day. ^^

done blogging.

-T_n=a+(n-1)d understand? xP-

bored.

2007-01-07T16:57:00.000+08:00

someone commented that my previous entry was rather emo. so i guess i shall be less emo today. and ya. about the lesson learnt. i'll remember it in my mind. lol. =)

i wasn't feeling well last night. my sun burnt cause me to have slight fever. and a slight sore throat after all those shoutings while cheering for our clan during the orientation. it's not a big deal. my fever went down today. still having sore throat and my irritation running nose is back. -.-"

ever since school started, my waking-up-late habit is gone. and i'm starting to wake up early. >< when can i have my long sleeping hours?! *argh* i miss sleeping. =x

went to ntuc with my mum, daddy and my maid. sis had to work. so anyway, after paying, my mum ask me to hold the eggs. and god. by the time i reach home, the eggs were not in rows la. some were on top of each other. =x oops. lucky none broke. *phew* hehe.the weather is damn hot la. and i haven't recover from my freaking sun burn. ='(

i spent the rest of my afternoon rotting. till now. but i slept for 45 minutes. =x i'm tired!! i have not enough sleep!! i wanna get my sleep back!! sleep sleep sleep!! =x call me a pig if you want too. dylan is convinced that i'm already a pig. ><

so fast. proper lessons starts tml. and i've got to make new friends all over again. gosh! i don't dare to think what time lessons end. but hopefully, it'll be early. i wanna go back mjr!! i miss mjr!!

yap. seriously. i miss and love mjr alot. i didn't regret going there. i love my teachers. i love the friends i made in there. i love my juniors and seniors. and lastly, i love my classrooms and prefect room!!! i miss all the fun i had back then. ok. other than the naggings and the scoldings. =x time flies really fast. just 5 months ago, i was counting down to the start of Os. now. i'm counting down to the day i'll be receiving my result. i'm not sure if the prefect room will be open for me to cry. hopefully it is. haha. i remembered that i used to cry in the prefect room next to the canteen. once was when ms tan scolded me for the teachers' day thingy, then was when i quarrelled with someone, the other was when my mum scolded me for my physics thingy, then was the day of the chinese Os result when i had to drop my higher chinese, lastly was on o7o7o6. hahas. those were history. but, i still love hanging out there. wheee!!

ok ok. i'll blog more tml. in the mean time, miss me people!! cause vale vale love love you. ^^ gosh. i sound so act cute. =x whatever it is, just miss me. =)

done blogging.

-i'll get a good hair cut soon. ^^-

~~what's the point of saying i miss you when i'm nothing to you? anyway, i miss you~~

sad.

2007-01-06T19:04:00.000+08:00

i guess no one understands me anymore. no one cares about me and it doesn't matter to any one what i want in life. i'm just living this life for her. cause she feels that it meant well for me. but did she even thinks what i want? did it even occur to her that i might not be happy with what i'm doing? i guess not.

i and sh went to singapore poly's open house. and took a bus to school of business. tour around the school. the courses sounds fun but it doesn't really lead me to my teaching career. so i guess. maybe not.

went to marina square after that. had lunch and i went to buy socks for school. stayed there till about 4.30 and went home. just as we went down the escalator, the train arrived and we had to rush. the door was about to close. and i hesitated. but i still went in. and i got stuck between the doors for awhile. the door sort of clip my wrist and my bag. i manage to pull my hand, but my bag was stuck. and manage to pull it out. lucky. =x my wrist hurts a little. but, it's fine. sorry sh. didn't mean to scare you. =( and don't worry. no one will beat you up. cause, obviously, no one cares. hahas. =)

i'm starting to get use to MI's life. i love the principal cause he cares for his students and interact quite alot with them. =) cool. he stands by the entrance every morning to greet his students. wow. it really makes a student feel welcome. haha. proper lessons starts next week. and hopefully i'll get use to the time table. guess it'll really drag till evening. and i guess i'll reach home about 7 plus. darn. >< but never mind. i love the combi i choose. and i feel it's the best combi! ^^

hmms. sometimes, girls think all guys are like bastards, while guys think all girls are like bitches. but i guess, it's unfair to some if we don't see that minority of the girls and guys are not bitches are bastards. i guess life is just unfair.

suddenly, i just can't help wondering what exactly are you thinking. one moment, you're making me feel as if i'm at the top of the world. but when i ask you what exactly am i to you, you made me feel as if it was just a wishful thought of mine. and it's making me confuse. i'm sorry if you don't like what i've just blog. and i'm sorry for calling you piggy. i'll stop it right away. sorry for not considering how you feel.

i'm just not in the right mood today. many things are bottled inside me. and i have no way to speak my mind out. i guess i'll be fine soon. hmm. my heart hurts a whole lot. my face is pain. and i'm having a freaking headache. but i guess, it just doesn't matter. i'm better off dead.

done blogging.

-just admit. i'm nothing to you.-

^{i no longer see the reason living on this world if i were to just do whatever she said. please spare a thought for my feelings. and spare a thought for my passion. it's just time for me to grow up and to do things that interest me.
"LOVE" doesn't seem to exist in this life anymore. i guess i've kicked it quite far away. i've receive all the love and care that i've always dreamt of wanting. and thanks. but i guess i've also had enough of crying through the nights.
right now, i just wanna walk away silently.}

final day of orientation.

2007-01-05T19:52:00.000+08:00

finally the weekends are here. *yiipee* ok. i'm not implying that MI's orientation isn't fun or what so ever. but i'm just glad that i have 2 days of waking up late. woohoo!

oh! and finally dylan is coming home! hahas. since he left for genting on monday, i had less one person to talk to me online la. and i was dead bored. and i pity piggy. cause i had to keep ka jiao-ing him. and force him to keep me company. sorry piggy. =x didn't mean to.

woke up with a gastric la. then met xl and buddy. the pain hurts like mad and i had no choice but to squart. and while doing so, my mind was filled with you.

reach school on time. and i lined up with hwee ling, my new friend. =) and out of curiosity i asked her why the principal loves standing along the corridor to see students coming in. and she just laugh. =x oh well. after morning assembly, attire check starts today. i had my shirt tucked in for a while and my hair is always neat. =P other than shirts and socks, the rest are trained by prefectorial board. hahas.

went to the hall for OG period. settle MORE MORE MORE admin stuff. then after that we changed into our P.E attire. and i wore my jersey. FAN OF MJR 4E'o6! hahas. =x

we head to the stadium to play games. first was savanger hunt. which was quite lame. there were some things that were impossible to find. such as korea magazine, dvd of any movies and 1.5 litre of coke bottle and stuff. and we aren't allowed to leave the stadium la. where to find? -.-"
second game was squarrel and tree game. and it's like quite lame. i keep becoming tree. -.-" and this st. joseph guy was my squarrel once. and the second time, he couldn't find any tree, so i ask him come to my tree. haha. =x damn lame. so in the end, i got out. cause i couldn't find any partner. THANK GOD! you know why? those who leave the game didn't had to do forfeit. while those still playing had to do forfeit. and the game master is damn funny. he made them write the word MILLENIA with their butts. and when they did the letter L, he went "ooo.. i like..". damn crap. lols.
third game was the balloon tied to our legs and we had to try to prevent it for bursting. the clan that has the most balloon not burst win. and damn funny. the utu(my clan), helped each other. hahas. =)

then we had clan period. where by we had to do friendship dance for performance. so.. ya. after that had lunch. then gather at the stadium to do MI dance. and so lucky, i didn't have a guy partner again. hahas. ^^ then we had clan period till 1.50.

the actual competition starts at 2. so we gather at the stadium. first, we had cheer competition. then mascort competition. and jerome was the mascort. he rocks la. he didn't mind pretending to be a butterfly. hahas. finally, the performance. damn funny. they short of people to dance the friendship dance. so i was sitting. and the malay guy ask me to be his partner. so i went to help out. and johnathon, another OG member, ask me to be his partner. and i didn't say anything la. so in the end, they were like "no! she's my partner." DOTS! and in the end, johnathon said, "i lend her to you for one day." and he pretend to cry. HE'S DAMN CRAP! hahas. he strike a conversation by saying that adraino is his cousin. hahas. ok ok. the performance was great. =) got to know this guy, ian, from westwood. easy going guy and quite funny person too. =)
after the orientation, the ogl sing us a "we love utu" song. haha. sweet. =)

everything ended at 4.30. and god. i wanted to go back mjr. but i can't. but the time i was at aljunied, it's already 5.40. guess i just have to go back another day. =( i miss my teachers!! i rather have lai lai as DC teacher than the lim lim. >< horrible. MJR-ians! APPRECIATE LAI LAI LA. HE ROCKS MAN! =x

i'm sun burnt. face red like no one's business. pain like crazy. ='( how to go open house tml?! shit. still have to travel to dover. -.-" why do i always pick schools around west? >< TP!!! TP!! I LOVE TP! cause it's in the east. =x

oh well. i'm done. i'll blog more tml.

done blogging.

-horrible red face-

day 2 of orientation.

2007-01-04T18:36:00.000+08:00

i had another weird dream. but this dream is just so sweet. if only it really happens. =) i'm surely be smiling from ear to ear. hahas. =x but still, a dream will always be a dream. not all dreams are de javu k? hahas.

wow. so fast thursday. finally weekend coming. woohoo! and finally lessons will start on monday. ^^ i promised i'll make this trip a fruitful one. and i'll make the right decision whether to go jc or poly. =)

early in the morning, have morning assembly with the PU2s and PU3s. we are more than the PU2 and PU3s combine together la. so you can imagine. while waiting for the assembly to start, i started talking to the girl next to me. her name is hweeling. she retained cause she flunk her PU1. and she's nice. =) oh. i saw this blogger!! she's like so cute!! feel like pinching her cheeks. =x

after that, we went to the hall for MORE talks. first was on student affairs. they make it like we have never heard before. but actually they provide the same student service as most secondary schools do. then the discipline talk. the DC teacher makes discipline such a big deal. and he was trying to show off his command of english. just because he has an english degree, that doesn't make him BIG! he is just like a normal teacher trying to scare us, students, hoping that we will listen to him. and he keep using "identity crisis" on boys. he is just plain insulting us, students. hate such teachers! at least lai lai isn't like that. and MJR-ians ought to feel lucky. hmph!

then was OG period. my group sat in a circle to settle MORE admin stuff. then i got to know another girl, shikim. she's a band member. but she has those outdoor look. haha. after that, we head a short break. i hang out with xl again. cause i'm still not very close with my group.

after break, we played games! first was the water bomb thingy. it's a balloon fill with water and we have to pass it to each other in a zic zag manner. we were lined up in 2 rows and 5 steps away. i was standing to a few guys. and they started talking crap la. damn pervert stuff. and i kept laughing. and they said "sorry ar, don't mind us. we are from all guys' school. and it's quite normal." so i guess i have to come to all conclusion that most guys from guys school are perverts. =x hahas. anyway, we drop 2 balloons and it burst. so we only had one last chance. and we manage to pass that on safely. =)
next game was some minesweeper. quite a weird game. but fun. =)
last was the usual orientation game. the hoolahoop. that everyone has to pass through. but now is that we have to put our right hand between our legs and hold the other person's left hand. and for guys is like damn awkward. hahas. after the game, one guy scream, "damn you la, hit my shalalalala." DOTS.

we have clan period. then discuss about our performance and stuff. then we had OG photo taking. and we had to do an act cute pose. ><

finally, we went back to the hall to do MI dance. we were taught to do so la. haha. damn funny. =x erms. the dance song is i need to know-mark anthony. if anyone has the song, send it to me. please. ^^

tml is the last day of orientation. will be more exciting. lol. wheee. saturday, i'll be meeting sh to go for sp's open house. and the following saturday, i'll be going TP's open house. wheee!! ^^ anyone can be my tour guide? *hint hint*

done blogging.

-you say i say you say what? "WHAT?!"-

day 1 of orientation

2007-01-03T18:27:00.000+08:00

i woke up like 5.50. i was practically rushing for time la. by the time i finish preparing, i had not time for breakfast. it's like my rush than preparing for secondary school. >< lucky i manage to reach paya lebar to meet xl at 6.30. but that guy, made me wait for 10 minutes. -.-" anyway, on the train, i saw chintow! my choir senior. hahas. =) went to meet buddy at kallang and finally embark on our jouney to jurong east. then had to change train to bukit batok. we were supposed to be taking the bus at the bus interchange, but there was a long queue of PU2 and PU3(that's what the teachers call the year 2 and year 3 students). so we went to the bus stop outside and manage to board a not so pack bus. reach school about 7.40. =x

i manage to find out my OG and i'm in u(utu)1. kris is in u4. we are in the same clan. each clan has 5 OG. yaps. so anyway, we had introduction. like telling us about the theme for this year. it's De Novo. it actually meant a new begining. sounds kinda nice right? haha. after that, we broke up into our OG. i so love my OGL. her name is cheryl. she looks like a combination of ziling and hui min. =x oh. she's PU3, art student. =) but too bad. she'll only be my OGL for today. tml will be another OGL,charissa. charissa had food poisoning so cheryl got to take over. hmms. then introducing our OGT which is Miss jamaliah. she is a GP teacher. and gosh! i love her too. if she didn't say she is a GP teacher, i wouldn't have guess it. yap. she's so hyper and stuff.

after that, we had a principal's address. he's like so crappy. he asked if we were ready for the principal's address. so he clicked the next slide and an address appear. and he asked why aren't we taking it down when we said we were ready. -.-" *shivers* so cold. =x anyway, he played a game with us. stressing the importance of focusing. and we were to clap when he did a certain action and not to clap when he didn't do so. so anyway, the first round some of us didn't make it through, but yet, almost 75% of the people sat down. hahas. so he said he was trying to stress on focusing, other than integrity. haha.

the next part was on subject combination introduction. it was kinda boring. so... skip.

my clan and a few others had break. so some of the mjr students gather together. and god! i think our school people are either shy or dao. none of us make any new friends. -.-" even at the end of the day. and god. this orientation is more of a torture for me. i'm someone who can't keep quiet for a single minute. and now, they are trying to train me not to talk. -.-" not in this manner ma!! =( oh well. i suddenly heard my name. and guess who it was? JUN KAI! haha. he is my prefect and choir senior. haven't see him since end of 2005 when we went malaysia for a choir competition. so cool huh. ^^ anyway, he is PU3 this year. so fast!! and he asked me what for travel so far just to come for first 3 months. gosh. he really sets me thinking. ><

next part. we had our clan period. so we were thought some response. and our clan's response was SHUT UP! so everytime, they call out UTU, we'll shout shut up. -.-" oh well. then we were suppose to do some cheer. but there isn't anytime, and we had to get back to a straight line to listen to the subject talk.

all of us sat there for 2 hours listening to the different department's talk. i'm really impressed and motivated to work hard by the GP HOD. gosh! just listen to the way she speaks, is just so different. she speaks naturally and she doesn't force herself to pronouce all the end sounds like how some english teacher does. she speaks well and fluently and she has her own sense of humour. i love it. =) oh! her name is Miss Meya. =)
then the next teacher was the mother tongue HOD. god. can't stand the way he speaks. totally voice rejection. =x anyway, he said "students who take japanese, germany,french, must show me your approval." and everyone started laughing. =x
followed by this teacher is the maths teacher. she touch on both H1 and H2 maths criteria. i guess i can take h2. cause of A maths!! whee!! but damn. got to buy graphic calculators. 172 bucks!!! ><
then, it was the science HOD. he was briefing us on the criteria. and i already know which sciences i want, in my mind. =D
after that, it's the english lit teacher. the HOD wasn't around, so he took over. and GOD! he's not bad looking. well, that's for far of course. =x
next, the art teacher. he touches not only on art, but on history and geo. =x i'm not sure if i wanna kill myself with geo for the next 1.5 months. =S
finally, the business teacher. she touches on POA, business management and economics. hm. should i kill myself with geo or economics? HOW?!?!

finally, debrief. and then me, buddy and xl walked to westmall for lunch.

took mrt home. when i reached outram, i'm god damn tired. and i slept in the train from outram to paya lebar. gosh. >< you know how tired i am? can you imagine?! keeping quiet the entire day lo.

oh. there are students from cedar, CCHMS and of course some weirdo school. =x

damn! i wanna pon orientation. is so god damn boring!!! >< and each orientation(other than P1 cause there is no orientation in P1), there will bound to be someone with the same name as me. is valerie so common as that? >< *argh*

i wanna start lesson. i'll work hard. and be consistent in my studies. i swear. =x

done blogging.

-boring orientation. should have work-

gosh.

2007-01-02T19:02:00.000+08:00

gosh. today is my last day to wake up early. and i woke up at 10.30. >< and tomorrow, i've got to wake up at like 5 plus? how to wake up?!

i manage to slack online from morning till about lunch time. after lunch, my mum, me and my maid went to bukit batok. what can you expect? i was trying to figure my way to the new MI. somehow, we took the wrong bus and ended up at the old MI. and we board another bus. and the driver alighted us at a bus stop and said that take bus 106 and can go back to the interchange. and guess where we were alighted? INCINERATING PLANT! god! i had to, practically, hold my breath. >< oh well. manage to reach the bus interchange and had to start all over again. lucky, this time, we manage to board the right bus. *phew* saw xl at the bus stop. both the mums started talking. and i stood there like a idiot. -.-"

head off to simei later to buy dinner and here i am. home sweet home. saw a guy with his gf. and he had a hole in his pocket. so i joked with my maid, "it's quite obvious he spent quite alot on his gf.". =x i guess it's true. haha.

this morning, mum was convincing me to go poly. and on the other hand, piggy was persuading me to go jc. i mean, both have their good and bad. poly has no P.E(YEAH), while jc has P.E(boo). poly allows home clothes(wheee), jc doesn't(wheeee). i think uniform isn't that bad. at least no bitches will try to show off. haha. poly lessons starts late(yeah!), jc starts early(boo). poly lessons ends late(boo), jc lessons end rather early(yeah). poly doesn't focus on languages(yeah!), jc does(boo.). but, in the end, both should lead me to my dreams, right? so what draw such a clear line between both jc and poly? people are weird. jc student persuading me to go poly, while poly student persuading me to go jc.

oh well. i finally know where i wanna be. after thinking so long. i guess, it's good to be a teacher. to make a change in the future generations' life. to teach them how to differentiate right from wrong. to be more of a friend than a teacher to the students. haha. i guess i come to this conclusion after thinking about what all my teachers had done for me. like how fahmy made a change in my A maths grade from sec 3 to sec 4. how johari made us interested in bio. how miss tay made chem so fun and how mr gui made phyics so cool. and seriously, i don't mind teaching and being single for the rest of my life. haha. ever noticed? most teachers are single. haha. =x

oh well. poly or jc, will eventually, lead me to teaching. just hope i'll make it to NUS/NTU. then i'll have a better chance of being a secondary school teacher. =) but one thing that is not fair. WHY NS GUYS GET HIGHER PAY THAN THOSE WHO DON'T GO NS?! not fair!!! ><

hmm. i wonder what kind of people i'll meet. hmms.

gosh. i've been thinking of you whole day. =(

done blogging.

-welcome to my world.-

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2007-01-01T20:39:00.000+08:00

i really can't stand it anymore. i really wanna walked away from the past. but yet, i'm still missing you. >< i miss you alot.

sleepy.

2007-01-01T12:50:00.000+08:00

i'm damn sleepy and damn lazy to go out now. and i'm not looking forward to school reopen yet. cause i only have one last day to sleep till 12p.m and can't get to watch cartoons from 3 to 6.30 p.m. >< shit.

woke up 10.30 this morning. and mum started talking to me. she's telling me how worried she is. and why i look so sad today. why aren't i talkative like other days and stuff. gosh. i'm like so tired to talk. how to have energy to be happy? -.-" ok ok. then she started talking to me about friends and stuff. asking me why haven't i been contacting some of my friends. hmms. ok ok. i guess it's time i ought not to let mummy worry any more. afterall, i'm 16,going on 17, this year. *sigh* i'm going to be a year older.

ok. my angel is so crap. he is my 99bro. and on my grad card, he wrote 98bro. and on his blog he wrote 100bro. -.-" when will he get it right? hahas. fine. shan't tease him anymore. lol. i figured out those weirdo numbers that send me new year greetings yesterday. ahah. one was my classmate. and i ask him who are you. and he told me his name and he said, "why can't you send me a better greeting instead of asking me who i am?". DOTS! anyway, didn't expect him to msg me. cause in class he is so freaking quiet. and even if i disturb him during class, he'll just keep quiet. hahas. =x

god. sis working today. no wonder the house is so quiet. i'm not use to it. haha. =x and most probably, my cousin is coming. ^^

ok. new year resolution time. ^^

for this year 2007:
-for friends to be happy and healthy.
-for tarepanda to be as crappy as ever and may him and his stead be loving always. =P
-for piggy to be happy always and start liking NS life. =x
-for angel to find his true love and to be happy always too.
-darling potato to be as cute as ever. =)
-beloved puay to stay smart and cool.
-crystal to find a better guy and always cheerful.
-my pri pri princess to be smiling always and MAY GOD BLESS YOU. =)
-buddy. please don't get sick of seeing me always.
-and other friends to be happy and best wishes.
-i hope that i'll stop being a lazy bum.
-stop letting my parents down.
-to be successful in whatever i do.
-have a better result if i were to retake Os (i meant it)
-oh! most importantly, PIMPLES-FREE~
-stay who i truly am.
-great valentines' day, birthday, christmas and new year.
-save more money.

wow. quiet alot huh. haha.

done blogging.

-wheee~-

very first post

2007-01-01T01:20:00.000+08:00

it's first januanry. and i thought it would be great if i have a new blog and start this life all over. =)

i've been holding on to the past and enjoy living in the past. and it's really great to keep recalling all those sweet memories. of course, some are not meant to be forgotten, but some are. then again, we ought to let some things go. so, i started a new blog. =)

went out with my family to celebrate granny's birthday. so we had dinner at the chinese restaurant at raffles town club. the place is like so huge. i don't remember it so huge that time. haha.

anyway, had many dishes. had fish, chicken, prawn, shark fins, noodles, toufu and dessert. haha. all my cousins are like so crap can? haha. and one of my cousin actually swallow helium just have her voice so high pitch. funny. =x and we started to say chinese riddles. the parents all keep passing food over. and my eldest cousin eat alot. haha. he took more than 2 helpings la. and he had the most drunken prawns! not fair right? =x the dessert was great. love it. =)

my niece got most of the attention. and we all had to wait so long for her to look at the camera before we take family photo. she's cute. and she looks alot like her daddy more than her mummy. haha. god. i don't remember receiving so much attention last time. *jealous* ok ok. it's not good to be jealous. =x

ok. was suppose to go countdown with xl, crystal and silin. but crystal not going. and i wasn't really in the mood to countdown. so i stayed home. even when my sis asked me to go out.. i'm like so bored. =x i'm more sleepy than bored. how to countdown?! =( ok ok. treat it as a change. haha.

photos time.

me. taken by sis.

me and my champaign.

my new spects. purple.

blur picture of me.

mua. at home. purple tube dress. was freaking purple today. fahmy's favourite color. =x

cousin lynnette and me!!

cousin barry, cousin lynnette, me, sis, and granny sitting down.

ok. done for the day. ^^ gosh. receive lots of msg from weirdo number. ><

done blogging.

-a brand new start for this life-