as usual, my flu is still killing me. stupid flu! >< this morning was ok. then suddenly the flu just came back. *Argh* anyway, thanks peeps. i'm ok. =) this flu won't really kill me. hahas.

lessons are now are either really boring or i don't bother to listen. =x hahas. bio lessons was doing the table and the tutorial. the tutorial was like already for 3 weeks la. and it's not done. -.-" anyway, i was busy playing my monopoly. hahas. i feel so rich. yaps. 2k+. =P then there was 2 period of break. 1 period was the actual one, and the other was home tuition. our teacher not here again. anyway, during the break, brandon suggested that the entire class should eat together. but nope. it turned out that it was only the few of us. oh well. then the other break, we went to the library. being lame and bored, i make a video. i just video those who were sitting at the long table. lols. i know i'm lame. =x then i started asking people if they are free on 14 feb. lols. ok. another lame thing to do. >< 11, went to class for econs. i didn't even do anything during econs. i play my monopoly again. =x then went chem lecture. i wasn't listening again. =x i don't know what's wrong with me. but i just can't listen. and tml there is bio and maths and gp!!! OMG!!! ='(

went to jurong east with jasmine lim, jasmine chua, jacelyn(new friend), charlotte and mei xuan. went to the pasa malam to eat chicken. yummy. =) then i bought roti john home. hahas. in the mrt, we crap quite alot. and JASMINE CHUA! kept an arm's length away from me. lols. =P met this lady at the mrt station. she ask if this is the way to raffles. so i nodded my head. then before alighting, she said that she didn't study when she was much more younger cause her parents were too poor. and now, she can't read the boards. so i guess, our generation is much more fortunate. yet here we are depriving others a chance to learn, to attain the world most priceless thing. hmmm. am i saying myself? =x hahas.

so fast the last day of jan. =( and time to welcome the scariest month. FEB!!! damn. means i have to spend money to buy maid's present. ><

done blogging.

-i wish you'll still hold on to me and walk that path with me.-

i'm starting to dread going MI. other than hanging out with friends, the sight of the teacher just get on my nerves. ><

went to school this morning. ms ang broke a bad news to us. anna is hospitalised. she met in a car accident. gosh!!! i'm missing her. =( xiao wei too. xiao wei is sick. let's hope they will get well soon. miss them.

anyway, ms ang ask me to take charge of the career talk thing. so during chem lesson i pass it around. after chem, then i remember that that paper is no longer with me. then i panic. i went around asking for the paper. then went for P.E. P.E today was damn crap. last week focus on arm muscles. this week focus on alot of leg muscles. >< then recess time, i finally locate where the paper is. thankk god. some more next period was GP. so i got the paper back and pass to ms ang lo. GP seems like free period. we just had one lesson and the other was break. so we had like 1.5 hours of break la. -.-" waste time. went to eat chicken chop for lunch. then crap with ryan. then went for maths. maths sucks big time! stupid maths teacher. i didn't even understand a single shit. so i slept. then test. i anyhow do and just play game. i just give up. hate it. >< econs lecture. so many people pon. i didn't. and i wasn't listening either. i was playing my hp game, monopoly. =x count down to school end. =)

went home with wl. i love her!! ^^ she's nice to talk to and nice to play with. like jasmine. =P then i thought i saw sean. looks like him from side view. hahas. oh well. was alighting at jurong east. then this old lady behind me use her knuckles to push me la. wth. my kidney are badly damaged already. she still wanna damage it more. >< pain man. *argh*

i think my health is affecting my mood. hais. i'm tired. and sad at the same time. for no reason. =(

it feels good to be noticed at times. but yet, most of the time i'm like an invisible person. oh well. i'm used to this kind of life. at least i know i have friends who care for me and will be there when i'm lonely.

it's just time. time to surrender to fate. whatever happens, it just can't be avoided. when it's time to leave. i just have to go. hahas.

i'm tired.

jas. i'll cheer up. =)

done blogging.

-just one day, i'll be watching my love ones from above.-

today lessons start late. so went school later.

bio lecture was boring. i was on the verge of dozing off. that i had to close my eyes for awhile. hais. then break. crap with bud and ryan. then had chinese. chinese was talking about chinese history. which i think is damn boring. ok. no offence. but i really hate history. =x i can really fall asleep. ><

rush off to meet sh. but in the end, i waited for her. i was so bored la. i wanted to ka jiao min min. but i think it's her off day. so... i waited for sh lo. she finally came. went marina square for lunch. while queueing for food, she went to change something, so can save time. then went to bugis. i bought my phone cover. =P yeahs. my other phone cover broke until damn jia lat. hais. >< went in to topshop. sh show me a blue button shirt. and said it look like mjr uniform. we were like laughing la. i think many people were looking at us. =x anyway, saw this really nice button shirt. with tie. hahas. i wanna buy for myself. =P [i know if puay sees this, she'll be damn angry. =x cause she hates me to dress like boy. lols] erms. saw fang ning. then went bugis street to get my phone cover. after that went bras brasah. went back bugis to sit. then took a damn lame photo. =x

here i am. back home. hahas. chiong-ing my chem tutorial. hate redox. i can never master it. =(

oh. Os might be out on 9th. means this saturday is my last day to enjoy. hows? not much plan this sat. oh well. wed got many programmes. jia lat bro ask me go eat lor ark(duck). then og having outing. and my classmates wanna go watch movie. =x hahas. where as on friday, i'm going lunch with puay! =D

my arm hurts. ='( and having flu. *argh*

well well. hopefully tml will be a better day. and shucks! i hate feb. so going to hate feb. >< stupid O lvl result and stupid new year. *argh* i wanna fast forward!!! =x

kk. pictures time.


my shoe today so cute. hahas. make my feet look so small. =x


see that lady? she is wearing the traditional japanese costume. so cute!


art friends' flower so cute. =)


a box with 2 hearts and the flower. nice!


sh's shoe and my shoe. hahas.

done blogging.

-the real challenge is just about to start. before that, i'll enjoy first. =P-

i'm so bored. =(

woke up like 10 plus. actually can sleep longer. but mummy pull me out of bed. ='( sians.

didn't do homework. i'm so lazy to do. hahas. bet the rest also never do. =P

oh ya. something stupid happen yesterday la. sh and i was talking to a lecturer. then before we go, he asked if i had an elder sis. so i said ya. then he asked if she was from poly. i was like, noooo.. then he say i look like his ex student, so he thought i was her younger sister. haha.

my sis once told me that in the entire world, there will be 6 people who look some what like me. so one was my sis, second was friday that shop's customer, and lastly is the nyp's lecturer's student. hahas. but where are the other 3?? hahas.

my throat is killing me. and my wrist hurts. damn. hope my old injury just don't come back. *shoo shoo shoo*

done blogging.

-once in a lifetime.-

slept at about 11.30 last night. surprisingly, angel will msg me. hahas. yaps. miss him alot cause i haven't seen him for so long la. think a month plus. hahas.

anyway, woke up 9.33 and i receive a msg from sh saying she'll be late. but she has like an hour or so to prepare ma. then i thought i was the one late. in the end, she realise we were meeting at 10.30. -.-"

before meeting her, i went to cheers to get fisherman that sweet. cause my sore throat is back. ='( pain like siao man. then went met her and made our way to yio chu kang. we went to check the bus directory to see which bus can go there. then we took bus 72. i ask the uncle if it really goes to nyp. then he say can walk. but in the end we took bus la. reach there, we spent most of our time watching the performance. i'm so amused by the magic. =x call my childish la. but i still like magic. ^^ i can make me smile k? hahas. anyway, after that went to check out some courses. nyp left a bad impression on me. i still prefer tp. YES! cause of their cross disciplinary subjects. and it's nearer to my house. second choice, sp. other than that, i'll retake Os. hahas. =x

ok ok. went to city hall, marina square to play bowling. today damn ex la. 3 bucks. =( i played like 3 rounds. hahas. first round was warm up. then second round really damn jia lat la. 2 times, i hit nothing la. damn sad. then before i spare,my nail sort of chip. ='( and guess what. i drop the ball. 2nd time la. so paiseh. =x and some more i took 8 lehs. >< so sad. hahas. 3rd round, i won sh by 3. =P hahas. she's such a good coach. hahas. =P then went walking around. i saw nice nice shoes! and nice nice bag! i'm going to save!!!

wishlist after new year:
1. GODIVA
2. INK BAG
3. HEELS
4. new toy

went tcc to eat cake and drink soda. the cake wasn't so bad. and the soda is nice. =) then went home.

went out with granny again. went crystal jade. wah lao. their standard drop la. yucks! only their e-fu noodle is nice. <3 <3 hahas. then went to buy dad's dinner. wait for aunt to pick granny up. then we took cab home.

here i am. home sweet home.

was at tcc talking to sh. suddenly, we kept quiet. then i went "ehs.". it's just so scary that the collection of result so drawing so near. now there might be anyone to console me. hais. so i told sh. if i score well, i'll rush home and share the joy with my family. but if i don't do well, i'll be alone some where on this earth. i'll off my phone to prevent people from contacting me. hahas. so smart of me. =P though i know there is no way to turn back time and no reason for me to regret, but... i guess it just can't be help.. hahas. who to turn to this time? hmmmms.

done blogging.

-do you thing you'll be there for me just for that day?-

wow. been out for 2 consecutive nights. =) so you'll expect a long entry. i won't do the book review yet. cause i'm too lazy. =x

thursday
lessons was so damn boring la. especially bio. she's so old that she keep repeating the questions she went through. and maths was boring too. i nearly slept off. as for gp, we go through news article on sec revolution. hahas. i quickly rush home after school.

met puay at 6++. then while waiting for buddy, we sat down and talk. i miss talking to her. cause she is the only one that really wake me up from all my fantasies. she gives me good advices and really encourage me. PUAY! I LOVE YOU!! hahas. bud came. we went to cafe cartel. order half way, puay suggest to go to cine de restaurant. then we too paiseh to walk out. when all the waitress all gone, we quickly walk out. hahas. walk to cine. had a good seat at the restaurant. we order alot la. pity buddy. he ate the most. hahas. my nachos, i can't finish, he help me. my chicken, puay help me. dessert, they both help me. hahas. puay so cute! she help me cut my chicken. then i say hot, so ask her help me blow. she really did lehs! sweet. =) then my chocolate chip crepe, she help me cut and feed me. =) if only she is a guy, i'll throw myself at her. hahas. =x i miss puay alot. i love hanging out with her, just the way i love hanging out with sh. they just make me feel good. =) puay puay is going out with me this coming friday for lunch. <3 <3 she's picking me up. wheee!! i miss puay puay. =)

went home at 10.30. i was too tired to blog. so went to bed.

friday
raining, so went to class. first lesson was maths. i was wondering if i can really trust the teacher or not. the question ask for series, he do sum. -.-" then when i question him, he just don't wanna admit he teach wrongly. he say, this way also can. but series and summation are different!! -.-"
after that was econs. damn freaking boring.
GP had group discussion. both jasmines are just so pervertic. hahas. =P gosh! what's in their minds? hahas.
then break and there was chem. chem was fun. i love it. =)

rush home. then went out again. i went out with anna, charlotte, gracie, weelin, tirza, amanda, jasmine lim. jasmine chua can't make it. hais. anyway, we went to meet evangeline to buy donuts. i bought 6. YUMMY~! we chiong to pizza hut so we can get the student meal. so i shout "chiong ar!!". then the old man in front of me got a shock. hahas. =x the weelin and me laugh. hahas. then went to pizza hut. gracie, weelin and me bully the waitress. hahs. =P keep trying to take picture of her. hahas. i saw jocey chua. been a long time since i last saw her. hahas. anyway, we had a fun time at pizza hut. we were taking pictures and acting cute. yes! my virus! hahas. =P i saw yi xun too. =)

then wanted to go bowling. so walk towards the bowling alley. on the way, i saw shu hui. so say hi to her. then some don't want to bowl cause too ex. so went walking around with gracie, charlotte and weelin while the rest go arcade. then i saw steffanie, but i didn't say hi. then i saw yun fang at ice lemon tea. hahas. weelin wanted to see the brown bag ma. so went in. then walk around. in the end, charlotte wanna go home. so we went walking towards city link. we all went into an earring shop. then i saw a senior of mine. hahas. i find it too early to go home. wanna stay out longer. in the end, all went home, except me, weelin and tirza. we walk back to marina square hoping to bowl. in the end, no space. sians. we went into a bag show to see. i ask for the price of a bag. and the man thought i ask before. and ask if i stay in hougang. then i was like, NO. then he apologise. hahas. so went home lo. on the way, saw rainer. hahas.

so here i am. home sweet home!


jasmine chua and me. in school canteen.


me and weelin!! hahas.


xiao wei, jasmine chua and me.


one class draw meh meh. =P


me with ACS tie around my head. =P


me and puay. =)


buddy, me, puay.


puay blowing the chicken chop for me. =)


chocolate chip crepe, puay cut for me le. =)


puay and me!


puay's head so small. hahas. =x


us again! hahas. finally she willing to take so many pictures with me!! =P


puay alone. trying to prove to me she is still so dao. =x


anna, tirza and me. =)


my dinner. hahas.


me, amanda and anna.


charlottle, me, jasmine lim.


my act cute bunch. gracie, weelin and me!


bottom:charlotte, jasmine lim, me.
top:gracie, amanda, weelin.

hmms. somehow, i think i had enough with lying to myself. no matter how perfect we are looking for, it just can't be.

done blogging.

-the day i want you, is the day you are leaving.-

as usual, went to school. but today, we kinda walk from the bus stop to school.

first lesson was bio. the teacher is so irritating. those students were already late, they already got lectured by the DC teacher(i assume), so why does she still need to lecture them. if she has so much time to waste, she should teach more. i can't remember what i did for bio lo. after than tutorials. -.-"
there was a break. then HT. HT is so boring. most of us were sleeping. i was reading my book.
econs was bad. i don't understand it when he teaches us. i still think all the lecturers are better. =x
chem wasn't that bad. only that he's just re-teaching what we were taught in secondary. and i was on the verge of dozing off. =x

finally end school, i wanted to go jurong east. but somehow, i make bud take wrong bus with me. we ended up at boon lay. -.-" i miss going jurong point. FOOD PARADISE! hahas. there are like so many shops to eat. i'll starve myself one day, and i'll go jurong point to eat all the food. HAHAHA!! anyway, bought some food. and took mrt home. =)

i'm currently having bad flu. and my eyes are half-close. wanted to pon school tml. but on second thoughts, i shan't. hahas. hopefully puay will be free for dinner. then i'll meet her for dinner. hehe. =) i miss puay!!!

woohoo~ i'm going to finish my book soon. i'm already at the climax. and it's so freaking interesting. i was practically cursing the murderer. =x yes yes yes! can start on a new book soon. =)

i promised i'll upload the pic. but something's wrong with the comp. i just can upload. so.. i'll upload it soon. =)

done blogging.

-i miss you-

today suppose to be a special day. hmms.

went with sis to school. thought she ps me at bouna vista. i waited for bud and xl at jurong east. then head off to school met wl at the station.

school today was fun. first period was chem. everyone was busy doing tutorial. quite boring. then where was a break. P.E was quite fun. though i keep losing in the stupid tic tac toe. did forfeits can? ='( then had break. GP was hell boring!! i nearly slept. >< final break before maths and econs. another 3 hours of boring lessons. and many people pon econs la. wth.

took pictures with jas(c),jas(l) xiao wei, amanda, charlotte and wl. any many many candid shots. =P i'll upload them some time soon. hahas.

went home with charlotte, amanda, both jas, pearlyn, and wl. jasmine chua was so crappy. she acted like she was mad. and then we really saw this mad man. and he went, "I WON!!!". lols. then jasmine laugh like mad. hahas. so funny. we went to buy food to eat.

i'm so tired. didn't do any homework today. =x i'm glued to my book. oopsy daisy. hahas. the book rocks. i'm eyeing on her other book. hopefully i could finish both books soon. =)

here i am. at home. my elbow there is hell pain! sians. and my entire left hand feels so weak. =( hais. ooo. someone wanna know me through friendster. damn crap la. he didn't put his picture. and dylan was like he must be too ugly that's why desperate until need to go online to look for girls. crap right? dylan, another crap guy. i told him he sounded like a bro. and his answer is, "i am. a guy older+not interested in you=friend/bro." hahas. nice answer. hahas.

life is not fair(quoting sh). but when we aren't satisfy with something in our life, think about those who can't afford to have it. no wonder human aren't easily contented. lols.

puay might be taking off this thursday. hopefully i can pon school and go out with her. PUAY!! I MISS YOU LOADS!

done blogging.

-i'm just not ready to walk this path alone.-

no matter how perfect you are. no matter how perfect you want your life to be. it can't be done. "perfect" this word, doesn't really exist.

love always exist with hate.
truth always exist with lies.
smile always exist with tears.
success always exist with failure.
promises always exist with empty promises.

no matter how much you love someone, one day, hate will just control your love.
no matter how much truthful you are, one day, you'll lie your way through.
no matter how much you wish to smile, one day, you find tears welling up in your eyes.
no matter how successful you are, i believe you started out by being a failure.
no matter how many people promised you something, don't have too much hope. one day, they might just break their promises.

so, so much for being perfect.

stop hating whoever lied to you. and start loving them cause you have to admit that we live in a world of lies. stop looking down on those who are failures now, cause you've yet to taste what failing is like. stop promising someone something, when you know you can't do it. there is such thing as "try my best".

why make the world a sad place to live, when actually it can be a nice place to be in?

school starts late. and even so, i was kinda chase out of house. my dad thought i was running late and sort of chase me out. -.-" waited for xl. i wonder what always take him so long. i saw the change in colours of the sky. from dark blue, to pink and blue and finally to blue sky.

went to school. met bud at 7-eleven though he didn't came with us. so we 3 went school together. while waiting for the others to come, i borrowed xl's tutorial to see. cause i was stuck at a few questions. then the rest came along.

first lesson was bio lecture. i hate bio lecture. cause she is always so... i don't know. there are some students who just don't respect her. ok. i don't really like her either. but we still have to respect her. afterall she is a teacher. if she don't teach us bio, who will?

break. then went for chinese lessons. i love chinese lessons. cause he's jokes are just so funny and it makes the time pass so fast. haha. he is just so knowledgeable. and i didn't know he taught primary school before. and!! and!! after hearing his story, i kinda scare of being a teacher. =x scary.

i was talking with sh today. i told her i can't wait for v day to be over. nothing special actually. cause after v day, it just signifies that i will officially be an O level holder. and it means i'll know my results by then. and probably i'll spend my v day alone this year again. hahas. and after vday, it'll be new year!! more money!! that means more clothes, more food and more shoes!! wheee~

this friday, i'll be out with my class, 07s16. i think they are really special people. =) it feels good being part of them. wheee~ just hope we'll always keep in contact. <3 <3

went to bukit batok library today. i went to get another book. then i came across this book with a wonderful sentence. well, not to you maybe, but to me, it's wonderful. =)

you're my everything. and before i lose you, i'll rather lose myself.

went to lunch with bud. and then i came home. did my tutorials. and sis was shocked. hahas. ya ya. she teased me. i don't mind though. =) i love it when we are like real sisters. instead of all those shoutings and scolding of vulgarities. hahas.

everything about you is so special and magical.

done blogging.

-i never regret loving you. even for a second.-

the book i'm reading is kinda interesting. the begining already captures your attention that makes the book irresistable. lols. but because i was very sleepy last night, i put the book aside.

woke up this morning. and started doing my homework. can you believe it?! there isn't any major exam coming yet, and without throwing my temper, i'm doing my tutorials. wow! amazing. hahas. don't ask me what medicine i ate. lols.

sis went to work, maid's off day today. so i'm left with my old folks. hahas. it's like kinda boring. cause i can't go out and i'm stuck at home. all i can do is like to stay online. -.-" hais. i was looking at some people blogs. and i really envy them. i always wonder why some people can share their problems with their elder or younger sister without being sabotage. yet, it doesn't happen in my case. oh well.. some things are just fated. hahas.

i spent most of my afternoon reading the book. hahas. only finish 1/6 of it la. it's 600 pages. the thickest book i've read. =x shows how thin the books i usually read are. hahas. =x

new year is coming. and relatives will start bombarding me with questions. like how's my Os results. where i'll go next. what are my plans. how's life in MI. why not planning to stay on. blah blah blah. it's just something i can never run away each year. it's no wonder why my heart skips a beat each time people talks about Os results. hais. if only i had the universal remote control, i'll fast forward. HAHA~! =x

done blogging.

^{it seems like we are back to where we once were. it's just like a cycle. can't i just put this cycle to an end? please don't treat me this way. i feel as if i'm being tortured.}

-a wish i wished i didn't make.-

i'm feeling so much better now. yeah. ^^ didn't know what went wrong with me last night. all i know was that i cried in bed.

woke up at 8.45. then slack till about 1. i went tp with mum, cause eve wasn't able to make it. so yap. we had tour around business school. i went to find out more about my courses and then went to applied science to find out the other few courses. i had 3 courses in mind from tp, and about 2 in sp and 2 in nyp. so i'll make the decision after next week's nyp open house. hahas.

i saw a few sec 4 mjr-ians, and i saw my ex classmates. i also saw my senior!! hahas. =) just didn't see cai cai mummy. ='( anyway, i went to do a test to see if i'm healthy. the score ranges from 10000 to 50000++. and the average score for singaporeans is 30000-39000. my mum's score is like 29000. and i'm like 12000!! what the heck?! means in future i'll have lots of diseases and i might die early!!! >< gosh. i feel so sad now. ='( hais. life is all about entering and leaving. hais....

went to the library to borrow 2 books. i couldn't find one of the book that i want. =( wow. pasir ris is filled with green men today. =x they are huge and tall. unlike the ones i see every morning, thin and average size.. hmms. are they fed with different food??

went out with granny, cousin, her friend, mummy and maid. out of all the food we order, i only ate one dish la. sweet and sour pork. cause the rest all so spicy. >< but the dessert is nice. love it. =)

ok ok. pictures time. don't say i didn't entertain you. =P


my orientation shirt.


Mr de novo. he's from my OG. and we made him the mascot. Mr butterfly. =x


me in sis's new spects. i think it's nicer on me than my own new spects. right?


took it at marche. the moo moo is so cute!! =x


"wrote" my name on the esplanade furry chair. =P


the chicken sushi i wanted to eat. but very ex cause it's red plate. since cannot eat, so take a picture lo.


triza's bear. is it a bear? or whatever you call it. so cute right? jasmine lim says it looks like jasmine chua. lols.


took this picture of me today. =) just trying very hard to act innocent. =x


me again! acting cute and innocent. lols.


the cafe i went to have dinner. =)

done blogging.

-i've created enough mess. and i have to clear them now.-

yes! another weekend is here. that means another 2 days of waking up late.

met xl and bud to go to school. i was listening to music and let my mind wander about. anyway, when the train reach this particular station, the door didn't open immediately. it took quite sometime. and the word,"biology", on this guy's file caught my eyes. it's very nicely decorated. i think he knows i was staring, and looked at me. so i turned away. >< so paiseh. hais.

reach school, hang out in the canteen awhile. then went to aseemble. i told my teacher my mum can't make it tml. then i started playing with xiao wei. maths lessons was freaking boring. the lesson was supposed to start at 8.45. the teacher came 8.30. so he had like an hour to teach us. and i'm like so bored. though the lesson was easy. but his teaching method is boring. =x then was econs. had a short test. 5 mcqs. i scored like 2. and i had no idea what he was talking about. i think all the lecturers are so much better than my tutors. =x then gp. quite boring. break. then finally chem. chem was not bad. i almost sleep though. =x

went back mjr. met sh. i had a hard time walking back school cause my leg hurts alot. anyway, went back. slack in the canteen awhile. feels so good to talk to my juniors. at least i know that PB still exist. =x 42 sec 2 juniors. gosh! and one guy say the badge is stupid. HELLO! eugene is right to shut him up. whoever say anything bad about PB or related to PB ought to shut up. went walking around the school. then talk with wu laoshi. after that talk to ms quek. then went canteen again. suddenly i miss everything about secondary school life. all the fun, gossips, little quarrels, talking back to teachers, teasing teachers, getting scolded, stay back late after school, consultations, eating, jokes and all the other pieces that make up that huge memory.

counting down towards the day of collection of results is freaking me out. probably because i know that isn't the best. and probably because i know that i might not make the mark. but ya. i just have to accept whatever happens. i'm not sure if i'll have jc and sy to console me. neither am i sure if PB room will be open for me to cry and hide. but i guess i'll probably be walking that path alone. =) or maybe, i'll he happily jumping up and down. lols. but, i'll be sensitive to others. =x

i'm kinda enjoying life in MI with my cute friends of course. but time to face reality. JC/CI is definitely not a choice for me. and i'm currently looking into poly courses. banking and financial is my ultimate choice. and hopefully, i'll be able to do well in it. wheee~ banker. =) or broker. lols.

i'm going TP tml. sasa will be our tour guide. =) thought i'm not exactly sure what courses they have. but ya. i'll just check it out. i'm not sure where would i head next. but i guess, i'll be alone. puay can't meet me, eve going to ps me for qiqi after that. crystal also not sure if she is coming. lols. next best choice, LIBRARY! then i'll head off to another place. lols.

gee. i woke up with a nice dream this morning. but some times, reality just don't turn out the way dreams do. no wonder people always wish to live in dreams than in reality. but what's the point. i rather know the truth than to be lied. i hurts more to be lied. right right? lols. but yet, i'm always the one lying to myself. hais.

thanks jas. =) thanks for msging me last night. really appreciated. and yaps. i love you! really do. =P i know you'll freak out. =P

done blogging.

-i just miss all those fun we used to have-

time for book summary. my usual habit.

toxic bachelor
this book is about 3 bachelors, Adam, Gary and Charlie. they were very close friends and loved each other alot. they shared their problems with each other. it was a tradition for them spent their entire august on charlie's yatch.

Charlie is a guy who had a really sad family background. his parents died when he was a young boy. his sister had to stop studying and work just to send him to university. but she died cause of cancer. charlie had a few engagements, but the women always ran away. from then on, charlie was convinced that people you love will leave you some day. and he was afraid. he fear to commit. as charlie runs a foundation, he donated nearly one million to a centre that was set up to save all children who were once abused. he fell in love with Carole, who was also a commitment phobic. charlie was angry with her for one period of time, as carole lied about her real identity. and to charlie, relationship is all about trust and honesty. but after gary persuaded him, he took her out and they patched. charlie began to understand why she hid her identity and later forgive her. although charlie was rather determined never to get married, he ended up marrying carole. =)

Adam is a lawyer from Harvard. he was very much like a flirt. he had a divorce with his wife and he didn't get along well with his family. he started going out with stars and people who wanted jobs in the showbiz. most of the girls who he went out with were only after his money. adam met maggie at a concert. he didn't really contacted her until he was pissed off by his parents. he started to fell for her, although he didn't want to get married either. maggie got pregnent and he thought she was trying to force him to marry her. however, too his surprise, she didn't want to. she wanted to keep the baby cause it was his baby. adam then realised that she was unlike the other girls he used to go out with. adamn fell for her and they married.

Gary was an artist. the women in his life were either drug dealers or women who were abandon by their husbands. gary tried his best to get their life back on track. and after he did, they left him. gary didn't mind. while travelling on charlie's yatch to portofino,he met a lady, Sylvia. he was attracted to her. they started contacting each other. their interest were pretty much the same. she opens a gallery and he was an artist. as gary was adopted, he never liked his family. he was afraid to be attacted to kids. sylvia and gary's relationship was smooth until sylvia told him that her kids were coming back. gary didn't want to meet her kids. so they fought. it was Boy(gary's "brother"), who taught him a lesson. then gary finally picked up the courage to meet sylvia's children. and they liked him a lot. so gary and sylvia got married. =)

there was a sentence from this book, "love is about disappointment.".

oh well. i was at the mrt, when i picked up a 5 bucks. i thought i'll be lucky today. but damn it. NO! it's rather a bad day though.

as usual, i waited for xl for 10 minutes. we were waiting for the bus, when xl decided to walk to school. bud walk so fast, so xl and me didn't bothered to go after him. i was msging. and my mind was in a confuse state. but anyway. reach school just in time.

first period was chinese. the teacher is really funny. but i was busying msging sh. then i asked jia lat if he wanted to meet me. after that, was bio. the teacher is like damn boring. got picked by her twice to answer questions. -.-" there was a super long break. actually 45 minutes. but GP teacher didn't come, so we were at the library. we were all playing game. first was Bingo, then murderer. i killed the wrong person. i didn't know jasmine was the detective and i killed her. >< gosh. then was maths. stupid teacher. he shouldn't be a teacher at all. i'm so sure i'll make a better teacher than him. he makes maths so boring. i'm freaking tired that i can sleep.

i pity jasmine. she's always picked on by that maths teacher. and today, she got electric shocked when she on the lights. but when the teacher switched the lights on, he didn't. lol. then she was called up to do a question. and the teacher was damn impatient. HOW TO BE TEACHER?! *argh*

went home with xl and bud. jia lat didn't want to meet me cause i took a very long time. so 3 of us ended up at BK. i thought xl how to fold hearts using straws. he wanted to fold for the girl he has a crush on. sweet. =) but too bad, i'm a lousy teacher at teaching such things. *sigh* then head home.

i was walking in the rain. i'm not sure what's going on. but i was kinda angry deep down inside. anyway, the moment i closed the toilet door behind me, i had an urge to cry. this feeling sucks big time! yes! my entire life is turning upside down. and it sucks! Daddy, i'm tired.l and i really hope to get out of this life soon. ='(

meeting crystal, puay and eve this sat after the PTI in school. i guess i won't be out long with them. i wanna sit outside esplanade again. yaps. i wanna figure out what's wrong with me. and who the heck pass me that stupid saddness disease! disgusting idiot! ><

^{i've been thinking about you lately. a lot. just when i close my eyes, you appear in front of me. i miss you that much and i really wanted you to know. maybe i'm thinking too much. and maybe my trust for you is that low. cause i just couldn't sense your love for me. i guess you're either angry with me or disappointed. and i really wanna apologise to you to keep disturbing you. i'm sorry.}

done blogging.

-get me out of this freaking life.-

i'm dreading to go to school these days. i'm really tired. guess is due to the long hours of travelling to and fro. sigh.

i slept really early last night. my eyes were already half close at 9. and my temper started to change at 9.30. bad sign. >< i was talking to dylan last night. and freakingly, he sounded like a brother to me. hahas. both of us were feeling bored. i asked him to find a partner. and he said no girls want him, so he decided to be gay. OMG! hahas. girls out there, don't feel sad. lols. anyway, he said he wished i was older so can go out. haha. and i asked him wait 1.5 years. i'll sure to ask him go club with me on my 18th birthday. lols. unlike some of my friends, he didn't forbid me for drinking, but just ask me to be careful with who i am with. =) lols. and ya. he started talking to be about jc. and he's persuading me to go jc. and his logic was that even the piggiest human on earth, like him, can survive in cjc, why can't i? lols. i told him i'll consider his issue. lols.

went to school this morning. day by day, we reach school later. and today, we practically had to brisk walk to school cause we were running late. thank god, we aren't. lols. i stood beside jas during morning assembly. and she's like so crappy. lols. then went to one room for bio lesson. we had a revision test. and NOT BAD, i'm quite impressed. despite not touching my bio textbook for nearly 2 months, i still can rememeber somethings. ok. probably because the test is like really basic. but ya. some questions are manageable. lols.

there was a break. me and bud were waiting for the room to be cleared. and i started singing the montage 2 songs. lol. Name the tune and ba jun zhan. but sadly, i couldn't remember the lyrics but i could remember the tune. wow. hahas. anyway, we were suppose to have home tution. but my teacher didn't come. so we were practically slacking. i was reading my book the entire 45 minutes, till nearly 11. then head off for econs. and my econs teacher is a relief one! lols. he's damn tall and thin. so he shared with us some things in his life. he was talking about life in MI(he was an ex student.), then to NS life. and gosh! he look so soft, but he is a sergeant.. -.-" then he talked about his ns life. so i took out my book to read. i'm addicted to my book. i'm finishing!! like finally? lols.

went to LR2 for chem. the entire 1 and a half hour was used to touch on basic things. i think he 3 weeks also cannot finish the basic. it's all things that were taught during Os. how can anyone of us not know?! *argh* so boring!!!

finally lesson end, i walked with xl, sebest, kris and nana to west mall. they went there to eat, while i went to bugis. i met jia lat and dum. then went to get somethings. 2.45, we went to sakae. then we went in to sit first. till 3, then we start eating. think we finish about 25++ plates. DUM EAT SO MUCH!!! i watch him eat, i'm both scared and jealous. cause he eat damn freaking alot la.. so scary. jealous cause he eat so much yet still so thin. lol.

jialat was trying to knock some sense into me. "don't give so much when you know you won't get any in return." i'm not sure if i really understand. or was i just trying to pretend that i don't understand. but anyway, like people say, "love is blind.". lols. and for god sake, JIA LAT, I'M NOT STUPID! =P we sat there for about an hour. then walk around, then i went home first.

i really love the book i'm reading. i really wish i could be one of the girls in that book. yeah. and ya. it's really sometimes, no matter how firm you are on your own principles, when LOVE comes knocking on your door, one might no longer be firm on one's principles anymore. i'm not sure if things happen this way in reality. and i don't mean love as in relationships. but LOVE in general term like friendship, kinship and of course relationship.

ok. sh has been listening to my problems for the past 2 days. thank her so much. yeah. at least someone is willing to listen to my troubles. to reach out to me and be patient to whatever i say. i'm really not as happy as how i acted. and i seriously needed someone to talk to before i break down. thank god. sh came along. =) love her!! ^^ yeahs. i know i'm not who i am for the time being. bare with me. i'll be more cheerful soon. guess some sadness disease was spread to me. so. ya. i'll be fine in a few days.

done blogging.

-will you ever sit down an listen to my problems?-

went to school today. was slightly late. but guess who i saw? jun kai! hahas. yeah. =)

morning assembly, i lined up behind jas. she's so damn crappy. she kept laughing. and i don't know why. so i just laugh. haha. she gave me the preserved lemon. wasn't that sour. then when i gave that weirdo look, she laugh. lols.

first period was chem. was trying to find a seat beside buddy, then weelin, ask me to sit beside her. and she keep meh-ing me. lols. she's cute. anyway, jas and charlotte sat in front of me. i didn't finish my tutorials. and thank god, the teacher isn't fierce. hahas. but she looks fierce la. >< i was busy msging. tutorials are boring!!! ><

there was break. i was hanging out with jasmine, charlotte, meijun and the others. jasmine was so amused with the m&m mini box. lols. then she keep pressing and it POP! lols.

then went for P.E. we had our own teacher assigned to us. at first, me and jas didn't want that fierce female teacher. but in the end, she is la. she wasn't as fierce as what we thought she was. she rocks. and we had P.E homework. lols. there was half an hour break before GP. GP is goddamn boring! everyone was sleeping. hahsa.

there was another break. then maths. stupid maths teacher sucks! i want my lecturer back!!! argh. then last lesson econs. i kinda understand. but i switched off at 4.30. ><

went home with nana, kris, bud and weelin. my new recruit. my MEH warrior! hahas. =P

i'm really tired. i don't know what's causing me to be so dead. but yeah. i'm just tired. tired of this house. tired of this school. tired of this world. tired of this life.

since primary, i'm spoilt. i'll get whatever i want, by just crying. i give things up easily. like giving up dancing and piano(bet no one knows i learn before. lol.). but ya. from then on, whatever i wanted to learn, i can't. cause they know i'll give up half way. lols. i didn't really mind not having any talent. till recently. when everyone around me had music background or are good at something. and i'm neither. lols. i feel useless. and kinda regret. but. i've got to surrender to life. =)

i was reading a book, when i had this thought. i really don't mind just being a character in a storybook. whereby everything is so perfect. some stories just have a happy ending. mine? lols. there's still a long way to go.

i'm kinda emo now. i'm sad. i feel that i led this life without any right reason. all i care is about running away from difficulties. so what if i wish i were a world tennis player. so what if i wish i'm a great pianist. so what if i dream i'm a graduate from Harvard. lols. dreams are just dreams.

fuck. i'm freakingly depress.

done blogging.

-my life? GAME OVER-

i couldn't sleep last night. i went to bed at 10.30 and only manage to sleep at about 11.45. gosh! hahas. but when i woke up this morning, i found myself smiling. it'll sound silly. but really. my dream seems so real. i'm not sure if it's good or bad news. but i dreamt that i actually scored 17 points for L1R5 for Os. wow!! hahas. in my dream, i was very very happy. i was practically jumping up and down. when we can all go home, i was looking for him frantically, hoping to share the good news. only to realise that he wasn't there at all. =( oh well. when i rushed home, i told my mum, and she was happy. somehow, i ended up in jc. weird dream. hahas. but if the points is really real. HOW NICE! hahas. =)

ok. went to meet xl then head to school. we were the earliest mjr-ians to reach. lol. and we didn't had to squeeze into the bus with all the other PAE students. hahas. anyway, most PAE students were like crowding around the noticeboard, copying the timetable. stupidly, i followed. then waited for the others to come.

morning assembly was cancelled. so my class went to LR1 for home tuition. and ya. timetable was given out. i feel so damn cheated la. >< hmph. anyway, waited for bio lecture to begin. it's damn freaking boring. i was about to fall asleep with my eyes open when i felt vibration. WHEEE~ msg! hahas. i manage to stay awake till lecture end.

break. then went for MT. my chinese teacher is damn crap la. he was actually linking all the social issues together. thus it sounded like a joke. it's like damn crap can? hahas. anyway, he was saying that olden days, naughty children are called si gi na. now a days, naughty students are call siao kia. hahas. then after that, he asked if it was time to put Singapore into the hands of our batch, are we ready? there were silence. hahas. then i have no idea how he say until gambling. he said that it was right for singapore to open the casino, cause the chinese can come to gamble. then link until swiss bank. then link until women not wanting to settle down and have children. damn crap la. hahas. i was laughing my head off. =x

lessons end at 1.15. tml, lessons end at 5. and i'm thinking of pon-ning. it's like damn irritating. by the time i reach home will be 6 la. >< sians. and there is P.E!! i'm having phobia. hahas. =x

gosh. i think i'm sick. >< having horrible flu and stupid sore throat. >< stupid rain! go away man! ><

done blogging.

-will never love anyone more than i love you-

after reading sh's blog. i had the urge to blog. probably after what she wrote set us thinking. or maybe whatever she said just make sense. hahas. =)

i was talking to her last night before i went to bed. she said the same thing to me.

is the past more important or the present that is more important?

to some people, the past is more important. in a sense, the past holds more memories than the present. in another sense, the past teaches them a lesson and that they should not make the same mistake in future. thus past is more important.

to some people, the present is more important. cause the present is the fruit of whatever you have reap from the past. the present is to show others how much they had work hard to have whatever they had.

but for teenagers. both past and present matters. cause to them, past and present is part of a relationship. take an example of a girl and a guy, when they are together, the guy's past means alot to a girl. cause to them, it roughly shows where she stand in his heart. i guess that is when comparing comes into our lives.

teachers always say, as a teenager, we have more responsibilities in our hands than to waste our time on relationship. after all, it studies than is more important to the society than the number of exs you had in your life. yet how many of us, ever seriously listen to the golden words of a teacher? in our mind, we already have the mindset that this is our lives and that no one should interfer with whatever we are doing. right? but if we were to sit down and think again. maybe teachers do make sense sometimes. after all, they experience more than any of us students. =)



anyway, i didn't really think alot till now. =x so ya. i went to bed at about 10 plus. and woke up at 11 this morning. i was hoping to make this day slightly more fruitful than yesterday. but my laziness is engulfing me. >< suddenly, i would rather work than to go school.

feb is apporaching. many things will take place. and probably my life will change, the way it changed when i took my chinese results in feb last year. *sigh* hopefully none of those things would happen. anyway, what i meant is that Os result will be out. then vday. guess this year no more chocolates and roses. like how yao pampered me during the past 4 years. haha. but i'll be expecting something else i guess. =) then will be chinese new year. wheee~ after that i'll feel rich again. =P then then. i'll spend part of those money on GODIVA!!!! =) wheeee. and of course new school bag. =)

gosh. i'm feeling fat. >< it's time to slim down. JIAN FEI~ hahas. =) hahs. ok ok. my future used to be very BLEEK. but, ya. i'm quite sure where i wanna head now. =) JC is definitely not a choice for me. so yap. poly. not sure of the course yet. i thought i can get away with cca even in poly. but can't! shit. sians. i really damn lazy to join cca. =x definitely not choir. =x i can't reach any high notes now la. i bet i'm an alto now. HAHA. =x

ok ok. i think i grew up quite alot. especially with the way i think. =) i told mummy my plan and she finally seems quite satisfied with it. =) i'm not sure if i'm making the right choice. neither am i sure if my passion is really teaching. but i guess, i won't know till i try. =)

oh well. just hope, i'll put these words into actions. and hopefully, things will be the way i want it to be. even if i were to retain, it won't stop me from becoming a teacher. even if i were to retake Os, it won't stop me. =) wheee. i'll stand firm on my decisions this time. ^^

6 more days then can see puay, eve and crystal. =)

done blogging.

-i miss you!!!-

after an entire week of sleepless nights, i was really hoping to sleep well last night. but then, i didn't! *argh* i woke up like at 3 plus, then 4 plus, then 7 plus. then 8 plus, and finally at 10 plus. damn shitty la. >< and i wasn't feeling well when i woke up. *sigh*

i came online. but i was studying my bio. i'm such a good girl. =) although it's first 3 months, i promised i will make it a fruitful trip. so i will do my best to learn what i can. wheee. haha. that include scoring well for a test. =x i finish maths tutorial before i slept this morning, at 12.30. so i'm left with chem tutorial. =x

i left house at 12.30. then angel msg me. he ask me one damn lame question. "why one of our leg is smaller than the other?". so i gave a normal answer like no one is perfect. and he tell me, "cause we have one father, and one mother. so bigger leg is father, smaller leg is mother." damn lame la. it's actually a joke told to him by an uncle. -.-"

i met him at 1 plus at the convention centre. then we went to marina square, then to millenia walk, then to suntec, then back to convention centre. he is DAMN smart. make me walk one big round. -.-" hmph. then ended up at marche for his lunch. i didn't realise i had sore throat until he tell me la. which i have no idea how he knows it. =x

at 2 plus, we went to listen to talk. i was like half asleep. i was TRYING very hard to stay awake. and i did! yeah. haha. ok ok. i'm quite sure where i wanna go after getting back my Os result. so yeah. wish me all the best. i'll do my best to achieve my dreams. and i guess i'll be quite fated to be single if i'm a teacher(if you notice, most teachers are single). hehe. =x

after the talk, we went walking around. then went esplanade's library. then walk from city hall to raffles' place. did alot of walking la. >< my muscles ache more now.

i'm like so damn tired. but i have to finish my chem tutorial by tonight. >< gosh. thank god, i might not be doing A level. =x *sigh*

gosh. i'm so happy. i'll be meeting puay and eve soon. in 7 days time. =) i'm counting down. hehe. love them. =) and i'll be meeting dar on wed. =) going back for choir. AGAIN!. <3 choir. hahas.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TAREPANDA~

done blogging.

-a smile hides a thousand tears-

ok. one small little request. i blogged instead of spend my time doing my tutorials, so i hope that you, readers, will read my entry thoroughly and not do speed reading. PLEASE! =)

ok. went to school. it was like raining la. anyway, xl, me and bud manage to get seats in the train. wow. hahas. then at the bus stop, no bus. so we took taxi to school lo. xl damn pissed off with the taxi driver. cause he this place don't know. that place don't know. lols.

reach school. then went to LR1 for our assembly since it's raining. so, the teacher had one student to sing. and GOSH! his voice is like damn solid and damn nice!! how long since i last heard a nice powerful soloist. hahas.

after that, went for GP. damn boring. xiao wei is always joking la. hahas. then after GP, had break. then went for bio. stupid bio lecturer damn boring and still expect us not to sleep. like how can? i was so damn happy when bio ended.

went for home tuition. was quite fun. know more people! like anna, evangeline, wang wan and more. than ms ang ask people to stand up to answer one question about ourselves. so she asked xiao wei, then xiao wei ask samuel, samuel ask ming xuan and ming xuan pointed to me. i wasn't convinced he was pointing to me la. but ms ang insisted that he was. and my face turned red. and anna was like, "relax. your entire face is red.". then the guys behind were like, "mehhhhhh~". DOTS! after that, released. the class is damn crap! hahas.

went to meet sh. we were like chatting happily in the train la. hahas. we went back to school. i met POTATO, FISH and JOCEY CHUA again! hahas. we are so fated. =) then met gui. sh and gui went to play badminton while me, fish and potato play dai dee. then ended up me and potato play stress. i feel so lousy at it. i ended up taking the entire deck of cards. >< lols. then sh came. 4 of us went outside the hall. then me and sh play badminton. i keep dropping the shuttle cock la. -.-" i laugh until my tummy pain. then sh went to buy drink. me and potato play. we ended up laughing too. we had to make jacky picked up our shuttle cock twice and sh to picked it alot la. =x damn funny.

i finally went back to choir. but they were playing game. so ya. i left quite after sometime. then went to play with sh. then waited for jialat and dum. then went home. met jordan. he waited for me. and took mrt with me. but he alighted at eunos. so. hahas. =) fun meeting him and seng yong!! i keep bullying his cousin. wei liang, i say until wei ba liang qi lai(tail is glowing.)=x lols. anyway, i miss mjr alot. my ex form teacher so cute. she saw me on wed, and today. and she went, "YOU AGAIN?!". hahas. and she laughed. =)

last night, a classmate of mine msg me. and he started telling me somethings. i'm not sure how to cheer him up. but all i can do was just to listen. that's what i normally do. sometimes, it sets me thinking if i'm really a good listener. haha. but it's the least i can do to make someone feel better right? =) anyway, hope he won't think so much and just stay happy. life is never always dark. the light will be out. it just a matter of time. =)

done blogging.

-i'm aching! hate P.E!!!-

ok. forgot to mention. i met potato,fish and jocey chua. haha. i was damn happy to see potato, that i run to her and gave her a big hug. i miss her!! ^^

ok. slept early last night cause i really cannot take it. my eyes were half close at 9.30. =x gosh. shows how tired i am. =x

woke up late today. i started rushing. and i left house late too. met xl and bud. then i found a place. i sat down and doze off. i nearly miss my stop. =x xl had to tap on my shoulder and wake me up. thank god, i'm a light sleeper. *phew* hahas. =)

reached school, lined up in our classes, no longer in clans. then went for bio lecture. the lecture was so damn boring! i had to msg people to keep me awake. =x the teacher practically put the sleeping spell on us la. every one was about to doze off. =x. i was so bored too. not only do i have to msg people, i started writing nonsense thing again la. don't worry. i won't post. if not, someone, will start telling me how EMO i am. -.-" hahas. ok. after that, was P.E! HATE IT! *argh* ok. we ran 2 rounds around the track. i ran with jas and charlotte. cause we are all SUPER slow runners. =x then we had SILENT P.E. we did stretching. and we didn't even know he had started la. cause he didn't even talk. -.-" then jasmine kept laughing. she was so amused. haha. ok ok. we did jogging on the spot, star jumps, clutches, push ups(girls style), and all sorts of stretching exercise. but what is unfair is that the guys get to do them on the dry area. and we girls had to do on the WET track. my pants were like WET la. stupid! thank god my pants dry easily. *sigh* then had another 3 rounds. 3 of us ended up walking. =x i'm lazy k?! ><

break. i was too tired to move. i asked sebest help me buy drink. ^^ then i went to change and wait for lecture to start. we were outside the LR1. then xl, kx and sebest came. and they say maths in the same room. i was shocked. in the end, both combi went in. after the teachers discussed, CHEM people had to move. means, we had to move. so move to LR2. chem lessons was another boring lecture. he spent like 1.5 hours talking about basic chem stuff. i was freaking bored la. even Ms tay can finish them in 1 hr 10 mins. HE TEACH SO SLOW!!! *argh* funniest thing. after the first lesson, he asked if his lesson was over. so some people said yes. and he really thought so. he wanted to release us. but he checked his timetable and realise we had another period. and every one went, "AIYAH!!". lols. damn funny.

after lesson, met xl. then me, bud and xl went for lunch at west mall. after that, we were about to reach the mrt when one girl said bye to xl. and he was shocked. he doesn't even know her la. haha. funny. i should have record his reaction. SO FUNNY! =x

PLANS:tml, i'll be going back mjr after school. sat, i'll be out again. sunday should be going with sh to republic poly. monday onwards, tutorial should start. DAMN! tuesday, angel asked me if wanna go vivo. i haven't ask mummy. =x oops. hahas. i gotta see how. erms. i guess no more plans after that. OH! 20th, i'll be going to TP with eve and meeting puay after that. GOSH! i have so much to tell her!! PUAY!! I MISS YOU! ^^

done blogging.

-is that what you're really thinking? =x-

today is like the 6th day of school. so ya.

did the same routine. but this time, i was noticing all the NS guys in the train. not that i'm despo and whatever you're thinking. but it's that, i always see them sleeping. sleeping while standing also can. DAMN PRO! i wonder if they're train to sleep while standing. =x and every morning, i see this guy. he'll always be sleeping on the train la. GOSH! no wonder they get higher pay than those who don't serve. =x

anyway, reached school, went to the canteen and saw everyone crowding around the noticeboard. only then, did i realise that the class lists are put up. me and buddy same class. so ya. after the morning assembly, we went to the lecture room for home tuition. wow! my classmates are like so fun! haha. xiao wei same class as me. =) she rocks! haha. erms. know people like charlotte, mei jun, jasmine.. and some people whose name i can't rmb. =x ok. i'm the little sheep of the class. wheee! i love my nick k? hahas.

had GP lecture. i feel like dozing off la. damn boring... so... skip. had break. and chem lecture. it's like damn stupid. the teacher spent 1 entire period talking about rules, and stupid textbooks. like i'll care. the funniest thing. he showed us a sentence, "do or do not. there is no "try"." then he started saying that if we don't know a question, don't leave it blank. try to attempt it. but yet, the sentence say do or do not, no try. means if you don't know how to do a question, don't do la. right? ok. that's my joke. you probably won't laugh. so, fine! =x

went back mjr today after my second period of home tuition. but i met jia lat at bukit batok mrt station. he entertained me through out the trip. and i entertain him while walking from kallang to school. i'm so sweet! haha. anyway, on the train, where is this toddle, a girl. when she looks at me, i smile to her and she ignore me. but yet she smiles so sweetly to a guy and jia lat. after she and her mum left, i told jia lat she would grow up to be a flirt. and he laugh. really ma. =x

i sat alone in the canteen. then went to outside staff room. i didn't went choir. cause they were in the humanities room. and i hate that room to the core! =x hate hate hate. =x so ya. after talking to teachers like miss quek and mdm wee, i went to the canteen with dum. then we talk la. then mr gui came, and i wave to him. he scare me la. he told me results out next thursday. then i was, "HUH?! SURE OR NOT?!". and he made it sound so convincing la. in the end, it's not true. bluff me. >< scare me some more. -.-" hmm. we waited for jialat for damn long la. when he is finally out, three of us went to the overhead bridge to wait for lynette. then i entertain the 2 of them k? i'm so nice! haha. but the find me damn irritating. =x so i had to shut up. =x then they talk talk talk. and finally, i came home. wheee~

i'm so freaking tired. every morning i can never find a seat in the train. and i had to stand. -.-" my leg hurts la. *sigh* P.E tml. sucks. tml will not be a good day. sigh. i promised my juniors i'll be back on friday to visit choir. and i will. =) i miss my cutey boyfriend. gosh! can't believe he is sec 4 la. he still act like a young boy. haha. cute junior he is. =) but he grown to be more responsible. great! =) heard from him that prefectorial board is like going down. haha. can't be bothered. SAC will definitely rise. and thank god! i'm out from there. *phew*

done blogging.

-07S16. WOOHOO~-

i slept exactly at 10 last night. was freaking tired and i could not stay awake for another second. ><

woke up 1 minute earlier today. wheee~ same routine: met xl then went to meet buddy, took bus 941 at bukit batok bus interchange. reach school, slack till 8 and report to the stadium for morning assembly.

after that, me and buddy went to the container classroom for GP! as the name suggests, it is really a container. you know those big big metal "boxes" use for shipping. so cool right?! and it's air conditioned! cool. haha. ok. i sounded so sua ku. ><

we were already in class at 8.25 and waited for the teacher to come at 8.30. i started scribbling words on a waste paper. i couldn't help it. i miss you badly. and at the moment, i really wished i am in your arms and that you are by my side. i want you this badly. oh well. the teacher came in at 8.40 instead.

for GP, we talked about family. and the entire lesson was very crappy. my teacher, Ms jamaliah. she is my OG tutor. I LOVE HER! cause she rocks. haha. ok ok. she asked what kind of marriages do we have. then one student came up with "shortgun marriage". and my teacher said, "i wonder how this term came about. is it because the angry father took out a shortgun and threaten the guy who got his daughter pregnant?". so crap right? haha. then she started introducing us to "monogamy", "polygamy" and "polyandry". and she said that the system polygamy and polyandry can actually help to control a population. haha. ok ok. the last crap was the word "breadwinner". she was telling us the tradition roles of a father. that a father is a breadwinner. so he brings home breads cause he win them. lol. so crappy!

after GP, there was a 45 minutes break. then we had maths lecture. maths was great and it is fun! i'm loving it. =) though i forgotten alot of simple things that were taught in sec 3. like the law of indices and inequality. =x after the lecture, i remembered it. which is cool. =)

i waited for xl alone. cause buddy wanted to go home to cook his own lunch. so. yap. while waiting, xiao wei and the other girl(forgot her name.=x) came to ka jiao me. haha. but in the end, we talked. xiao wei sent me quite alot of themes. wheee~ thank you! ^^ then xl came, so i went off.

FINALLY! the day is coming~! i'll be going back to mjr with jia lat tml. i'll go collect my award! whee! hehe. i miss mjr. =) maybe i'll pop into music room awhile. been a long time since i hear choir. i wonder how's their progress. hmm. wheee~ maybe i'll talk to some teachers or i'll do my work quietly while waiting for dum and jia lat. hehe. wheee~~

all i wanted was to have you by my side.
to feel your love and your care.
you got me so crazy over you,
but now, i'm all alone,
wishing and hoping you would come back.
every night, i long for your hug.
cause i feel secure in there,
and i'll know that you are there for me
when it's the darkest days of my life.
every day, i long for your sms.
cause i'll know that you'll never be gone,
and that i'm in your mind
no matter what you are doing.
but the more i long for them,
the more painful my heart gets.
cause i know, those days,
will never come back.
cause we both concluded,
it's the end.
what's the point of me thinking,
missing,
and waiting for you.
when all i am to you,
is NOTHING.

i've been missing you all these while. no matter where, no matter what time, and no matter who i am with. and i just can't get you out of my mind. >< i'm sorry.

done blogging.

-i'll never let you go-

THANK GOD! thank God lessons begin today. or else i'll be dead bored. lol.

reach school about 7.40, only to realise that the morning assembly is at 9. darn! then i waste my morning just like that. =( if not i can have longer hours to sleep. haha. =x

ok. my timetable rocks for today and tomorrow. i'm not sure about other days. cause we are currently having mass lectures. which is kinda fun. cause you can do what you want without having much attention on you. =x oops. ok. you can expect some mischief from me. but not a lot. i swear. =x

ok. we still had morning assembly in clans. so i lined up with hwee ling again. haha. so funny. her arms were sun burnt, while my face was sun burnt. haha. ok. after that, i met buddy to go for P.E briefing. it's like so boring. the teachers are trying to waste the entire 45 minutes by letting us ask questions. i mean, what to ask about P.E? it's all about running, perspiring and torture! i won't change my views of P.E! not until NAFA test is over. NO!! =x

i had like 45 minutes break. and i had glutinous rice. then me and bud walk around the school hoping to look for the lecture room 1. and we manage to find it. we aren't the first la. >< shows how many more kiasu people there too. =P we had maths mass lecture in lecture room 1. we are on the topic A.P and G.P. it's fun! yap. finally change my views on number patterns. i really hate number patterns la. cause i always can't find the formula. but now, they give you the formula! wheee~ so it's alot more fun. haha. i have absolutely no comments on my msths lecturer. he tried his best to crack jokes. and ya..... no one laugh la. =x so the entire 45 minutes is just used to go through a few questions. AND WE HAVE ASSIGNMENTS! they are no longer known as homework. god! first day only la! ><

ok. i had another 45 minutes break. gosh! i had like so many breaks. haha. and my break timing is different from the others. so the queue to buy food is shorter. haha. ok. after that, me and bud went to look for the classroom. and we just followed to crowd la. so i asked my OG group members if that was the class. haha. and it is! yeah! so i sat right at the back in one corner. yes! my dream seat! whereby i can sms, eat, talk, day dream, sleep.... =x ok ok. i had 1h 30 minutes of econs lesson. it's not boring! i swear it isn't! though i don't even have a clue what she was talking about. but i know it's funny! haha. my lecturer is damn cute! she giggles and laughs almost through out the entire period. haha. damn funny. she reminds me of mrs lim. haha. =x ok. econs is about the study of human behaviour. and.. ya.. i don't see how it link to maths. haha. she asked if we had enough for the day, and we said yes!!! and she let us off 15 minutes before time is up. wow! so cool right? haha.

my lesson end at 2. bud and me waited for xl to end lessons at 3.30! so freaking late la. haha. ok ok. when they were released, we checked our time table. then sebest told xl,"when our lessons end earlier than today, their lessons end even earlier.". hahas. yeah! they end lessons at 2 tml. and i end at 12.30!! woohoo!! haha. i only have 2 subject lectures tml. wheee~ haha. GP! *shivers* i'm always nervous whenever i have english, GP that is, lesson. after that, i have a break and i'll have maths!! wheee~ i so love maths!! MATHS MATHS MATHS~ =x

wow. i'm starting to love MI. =x i really don't mind staying on la. seriously. but... i don't know. maybe i can cope. but maybe not. hmm. i'll wait for Os result to come. =)

i'll be going back mjr some time this week. i really miss it. =) my teachers, of course. mr fahmy, ms quek, mr gui, ms tay, mrs lim, mdm wee.. hehe. of course of course, my beloved friends. =)

oh! guess who i saw today? i met john on the train. had a good chat with him. been a long time since i last talk to him. =) hahas. i got to know him through angel i think. if not is jared chong! haha. he looks tanner than before he graduated. but definitely not as tan as sanee. haha.
then i met lh bro at singapore post. haha. CAUGHT YOU RED HANDED! haha. yaps. he was with his gf. hahas. gosh. i always catch couples red handed. xP
finally, MET MY DAR!! hahas. gosh! he grew fatter! jordan ar jordan!!! haha. yap. he went back mjr. haha. talk to him about school and things. haha. asked him to organise a gathering for 4E soon. hehe. =)

ok ok. hopefully tomorrow will be a better day. ^^

done blogging.

-T_n=a+(n-1)d understand? xP-

someone commented that my previous entry was rather emo. so i guess i shall be less emo today. and ya. about the lesson learnt. i'll remember it in my mind. lol. =)

i wasn't feeling well last night. my sun burnt cause me to have slight fever. and a slight sore throat after all those shoutings while cheering for our clan during the orientation. it's not a big deal. my fever went down today. still having sore throat and my irritation running nose is back. -.-"

ever since school started, my waking-up-late habit is gone. and i'm starting to wake up early. >< when can i have my long sleeping hours?! *argh* i miss sleeping. =x

went to ntuc with my mum, daddy and my maid. sis had to work. so anyway, after paying, my mum ask me to hold the eggs. and god. by the time i reach home, the eggs were not in rows la. some were on top of each other. =x oops. lucky none broke. *phew* hehe.the weather is damn hot la. and i haven't recover from my freaking sun burn. ='(

i spent the rest of my afternoon rotting. till now. but i slept for 45 minutes. =x i'm tired!! i have not enough sleep!! i wanna get my sleep back!! sleep sleep sleep!! =x call me a pig if you want too. dylan is convinced that i'm already a pig. ><

so fast. proper lessons starts tml. and i've got to make new friends all over again. gosh! i don't dare to think what time lessons end. but hopefully, it'll be early. i wanna go back mjr!! i miss mjr!!

yap. seriously. i miss and love mjr alot. i didn't regret going there. i love my teachers. i love the friends i made in there. i love my juniors and seniors. and lastly, i love my classrooms and prefect room!!! i miss all the fun i had back then. ok. other than the naggings and the scoldings. =x time flies really fast. just 5 months ago, i was counting down to the start of Os. now. i'm counting down to the day i'll be receiving my result. i'm not sure if the prefect room will be open for me to cry. hopefully it is. haha. i remembered that i used to cry in the prefect room next to the canteen. once was when ms tan scolded me for the teachers' day thingy, then was when i quarrelled with someone, the other was when my mum scolded me for my physics thingy, then was the day of the chinese Os result when i had to drop my higher chinese, lastly was on o7o7o6. hahas. those were history. but, i still love hanging out there. wheee!!

ok ok. i'll blog more tml. in the mean time, miss me people!! cause vale vale love love you. ^^ gosh. i sound so act cute. =x whatever it is, just miss me. =)

done blogging.

-i'll get a good hair cut soon. ^^-

what's the point of saying i miss you when i'm nothing to you? anyway, i miss you

i guess no one understands me anymore. no one cares about me and it doesn't matter to any one what i want in life. i'm just living this life for her. cause she feels that it meant well for me. but did she even thinks what i want? did it even occur to her that i might not be happy with what i'm doing? i guess not.

i and sh went to singapore poly's open house. and took a bus to school of business. tour around the school. the courses sounds fun but it doesn't really lead me to my teaching career. so i guess. maybe not.

went to marina square after that. had lunch and i went to buy socks for school. stayed there till about 4.30 and went home. just as we went down the escalator, the train arrived and we had to rush. the door was about to close. and i hesitated. but i still went in. and i got stuck between the doors for awhile. the door sort of clip my wrist and my bag. i manage to pull my hand, but my bag was stuck. and manage to pull it out. lucky. =x my wrist hurts a little. but, it's fine. sorry sh. didn't mean to scare you. =( and don't worry. no one will beat you up. cause, obviously, no one cares. hahas. =)

i'm starting to get use to MI's life. i love the principal cause he cares for his students and interact quite alot with them. =) cool. he stands by the entrance every morning to greet his students. wow. it really makes a student feel welcome. haha. proper lessons starts next week. and hopefully i'll get use to the time table. guess it'll really drag till evening. and i guess i'll reach home about 7 plus. darn. >< but never mind. i love the combi i choose. and i feel it's the best combi! ^^

hmms. sometimes, girls think all guys are like bastards, while guys think all girls are like bitches. but i guess, it's unfair to some if we don't see that minority of the girls and guys are not bitches are bastards. i guess life is just unfair.

suddenly, i just can't help wondering what exactly are you thinking. one moment, you're making me feel as if i'm at the top of the world. but when i ask you what exactly am i to you, you made me feel as if it was just a wishful thought of mine. and it's making me confuse. i'm sorry if you don't like what i've just blog. and i'm sorry for calling you piggy. i'll stop it right away. sorry for not considering how you feel.

i'm just not in the right mood today. many things are bottled inside me. and i have no way to speak my mind out. i guess i'll be fine soon. hmm. my heart hurts a whole lot. my face is pain. and i'm having a freaking headache. but i guess, it just doesn't matter. i'm better off dead.

done blogging.

-just admit. i'm nothing to you.-

^{i no longer see the reason living on this world if i were to just do whatever she said. please spare a thought for my feelings. and spare a thought for my passion. it's just time for me to grow up and to do things that interest me.
"LOVE" doesn't seem to exist in this life anymore. i guess i've kicked it quite far away. i've receive all the love and care that i've always dreamt of wanting. and thanks. but i guess i've also had enough of crying through the nights.
right now, i just wanna walk away silently.}

finally the weekends are here. *yiipee* ok. i'm not implying that MI's orientation isn't fun or what so ever. but i'm just glad that i have 2 days of waking up late. woohoo!

oh! and finally dylan is coming home! hahas. since he left for genting on monday, i had less one person to talk to me online la. and i was dead bored. and i pity piggy. cause i had to keep ka jiao-ing him. and force him to keep me company. sorry piggy. =x didn't mean to.

woke up with a gastric la. then met xl and buddy. the pain hurts like mad and i had no choice but to squart. and while doing so, my mind was filled with you.

reach school on time. and i lined up with hwee ling, my new friend. =) and out of curiosity i asked her why the principal loves standing along the corridor to see students coming in. and she just laugh. =x oh well. after morning assembly, attire check starts today. i had my shirt tucked in for a while and my hair is always neat. =P other than shirts and socks, the rest are trained by prefectorial board. hahas.

went to the hall for OG period. settle MORE MORE MORE admin stuff. then after that we changed into our P.E attire. and i wore my jersey. FAN OF MJR 4E'o6! hahas. =x

we head to the stadium to play games. first was savanger hunt. which was quite lame. there were some things that were impossible to find. such as korea magazine, dvd of any movies and 1.5 litre of coke bottle and stuff. and we aren't allowed to leave the stadium la. where to find? -.-"
second game was squarrel and tree game. and it's like quite lame. i keep becoming tree. -.-" and this st. joseph guy was my squarrel once. and the second time, he couldn't find any tree, so i ask him come to my tree. haha. =x damn lame. so in the end, i got out. cause i couldn't find any partner. THANK GOD! you know why? those who leave the game didn't had to do forfeit. while those still playing had to do forfeit. and the game master is damn funny. he made them write the word MILLENIA with their butts. and when they did the letter L, he went "ooo.. i like..". damn crap. lols.
third game was the balloon tied to our legs and we had to try to prevent it for bursting. the clan that has the most balloon not burst win. and damn funny. the utu(my clan), helped each other. hahas. =)

then we had clan period. where by we had to do friendship dance for performance. so.. ya. after that had lunch. then gather at the stadium to do MI dance. and so lucky, i didn't have a guy partner again. hahas. ^^ then we had clan period till 1.50.

the actual competition starts at 2. so we gather at the stadium. first, we had cheer competition. then mascort competition. and jerome was the mascort. he rocks la. he didn't mind pretending to be a butterfly. hahas. finally, the performance. damn funny. they short of people to dance the friendship dance. so i was sitting. and the malay guy ask me to be his partner. so i went to help out. and johnathon, another OG member, ask me to be his partner. and i didn't say anything la. so in the end, they were like "no! she's my partner." DOTS! and in the end, johnathon said, "i lend her to you for one day." and he pretend to cry. HE'S DAMN CRAP! hahas. he strike a conversation by saying that adraino is his cousin. hahas. ok ok. the performance was great. =) got to know this guy, ian, from westwood. easy going guy and quite funny person too. =)
after the orientation, the ogl sing us a "we love utu" song. haha. sweet. =)

everything ended at 4.30. and god. i wanted to go back mjr. but i can't. but the time i was at aljunied, it's already 5.40. guess i just have to go back another day. =( i miss my teachers!! i rather have lai lai as DC teacher than the lim lim. >< horrible. MJR-ians! APPRECIATE LAI LAI LA. HE ROCKS MAN! =x

i'm sun burnt. face red like no one's business. pain like crazy. ='( how to go open house tml?! shit. still have to travel to dover. -.-" why do i always pick schools around west? >< TP!!! TP!! I LOVE TP! cause it's in the east. =x

oh well. i'm done. i'll blog more tml.

done blogging.

-horrible red face-

i had another weird dream. but this dream is just so sweet. if only it really happens. =) i'm surely be smiling from ear to ear. hahas. =x but still, a dream will always be a dream. not all dreams are de javu k? hahas.

wow. so fast thursday. finally weekend coming. woohoo! and finally lessons will start on monday. ^^ i promised i'll make this trip a fruitful one. and i'll make the right decision whether to go jc or poly. =)

early in the morning, have morning assembly with the PU2s and PU3s. we are more than the PU2 and PU3s combine together la. so you can imagine. while waiting for the assembly to start, i started talking to the girl next to me. her name is hweeling. she retained cause she flunk her PU1. and she's nice. =) oh. i saw this blogger!! she's like so cute!! feel like pinching her cheeks. =x

after that, we went to the hall for MORE talks. first was on student affairs. they make it like we have never heard before. but actually they provide the same student service as most secondary schools do. then the discipline talk. the DC teacher makes discipline such a big deal. and he was trying to show off his command of english. just because he has an english degree, that doesn't make him BIG! he is just like a normal teacher trying to scare us, students, hoping that we will listen to him. and he keep using "identity crisis" on boys. he is just plain insulting us, students. hate such teachers! at least lai lai isn't like that. and MJR-ians ought to feel lucky. hmph!

then was OG period. my group sat in a circle to settle MORE admin stuff. then i got to know another girl, shikim. she's a band member. but she has those outdoor look. haha. after that, we head a short break. i hang out with xl again. cause i'm still not very close with my group.

after break, we played games! first was the water bomb thingy. it's a balloon fill with water and we have to pass it to each other in a zic zag manner. we were lined up in 2 rows and 5 steps away. i was standing to a few guys. and they started talking crap la. damn pervert stuff. and i kept laughing. and they said "sorry ar, don't mind us. we are from all guys' school. and it's quite normal." so i guess i have to come to all conclusion that most guys from guys school are perverts. =x hahas. anyway, we drop 2 balloons and it burst. so we only had one last chance. and we manage to pass that on safely. =)
next game was some minesweeper. quite a weird game. but fun. =)
last was the usual orientation game. the hoolahoop. that everyone has to pass through. but now is that we have to put our right hand between our legs and hold the other person's left hand. and for guys is like damn awkward. hahas. after the game, one guy scream, "damn you la, hit my shalalalala." DOTS.

we have clan period. then discuss about our performance and stuff. then we had OG photo taking. and we had to do an act cute pose. ><

finally, we went back to the hall to do MI dance. we were taught to do so la. haha. damn funny. =x erms. the dance song is i need to know-mark anthony. if anyone has the song, send it to me. please. ^^

tml is the last day of orientation. will be more exciting. lol. wheee. saturday, i'll be meeting sh to go for sp's open house. and the following saturday, i'll be going TP's open house. wheee!! ^^ anyone can be my tour guide? *hint hint*

done blogging.

-you say i say you say what? "WHAT?!"-

i woke up like 5.50. i was practically rushing for time la. by the time i finish preparing, i had not time for breakfast. it's like my rush than preparing for secondary school. >< lucky i manage to reach paya lebar to meet xl at 6.30. but that guy, made me wait for 10 minutes. -.-" anyway, on the train, i saw chintow! my choir senior. hahas. =) went to meet buddy at kallang and finally embark on our jouney to jurong east. then had to change train to bukit batok. we were supposed to be taking the bus at the bus interchange, but there was a long queue of PU2 and PU3(that's what the teachers call the year 2 and year 3 students). so we went to the bus stop outside and manage to board a not so pack bus. reach school about 7.40. =x

i manage to find out my OG and i'm in u(utu)1. kris is in u4. we are in the same clan. each clan has 5 OG. yaps. so anyway, we had introduction. like telling us about the theme for this year. it's De Novo. it actually meant a new begining. sounds kinda nice right? haha. after that, we broke up into our OG. i so love my OGL. her name is cheryl. she looks like a combination of ziling and hui min. =x oh. she's PU3, art student. =) but too bad. she'll only be my OGL for today. tml will be another OGL,charissa. charissa had food poisoning so cheryl got to take over. hmms. then introducing our OGT which is Miss jamaliah. she is a GP teacher. and gosh! i love her too. if she didn't say she is a GP teacher, i wouldn't have guess it. yap. she's so hyper and stuff.

after that, we had a principal's address. he's like so crappy. he asked if we were ready for the principal's address. so he clicked the next slide and an address appear. and he asked why aren't we taking it down when we said we were ready. -.-" *shivers* so cold. =x anyway, he played a game with us. stressing the importance of focusing. and we were to clap when he did a certain action and not to clap when he didn't do so. so anyway, the first round some of us didn't make it through, but yet, almost 75% of the people sat down. hahas. so he said he was trying to stress on focusing, other than integrity. haha.

the next part was on subject combination introduction. it was kinda boring. so... skip.

my clan and a few others had break. so some of the mjr students gather together. and god! i think our school people are either shy or dao. none of us make any new friends. -.-" even at the end of the day. and god. this orientation is more of a torture for me. i'm someone who can't keep quiet for a single minute. and now, they are trying to train me not to talk. -.-" not in this manner ma!! =( oh well. i suddenly heard my name. and guess who it was? JUN KAI! haha. he is my prefect and choir senior. haven't see him since end of 2005 when we went malaysia for a choir competition. so cool huh. ^^ anyway, he is PU3 this year. so fast!! and he asked me what for travel so far just to come for first 3 months. gosh. he really sets me thinking. ><

next part. we had our clan period. so we were thought some response. and our clan's response was SHUT UP! so everytime, they call out UTU, we'll shout shut up. -.-" oh well. then we were suppose to do some cheer. but there isn't anytime, and we had to get back to a straight line to listen to the subject talk.

all of us sat there for 2 hours listening to the different department's talk. i'm really impressed and motivated to work hard by the GP HOD. gosh! just listen to the way she speaks, is just so different. she speaks naturally and she doesn't force herself to pronouce all the end sounds like how some english teacher does. she speaks well and fluently and she has her own sense of humour. i love it. =) oh! her name is Miss Meya. =)
then the next teacher was the mother tongue HOD. god. can't stand the way he speaks. totally voice rejection. =x anyway, he said "students who take japanese, germany,french, must show me your approval." and everyone started laughing. =x
followed by this teacher is the maths teacher. she touch on both H1 and H2 maths criteria. i guess i can take h2. cause of A maths!! whee!! but damn. got to buy graphic calculators. 172 bucks!!! ><
then, it was the science HOD. he was briefing us on the criteria. and i already know which sciences i want, in my mind. =D
after that, it's the english lit teacher. the HOD wasn't around, so he took over. and GOD! he's not bad looking. well, that's for far of course. =x
next, the art teacher. he touches not only on art, but on history and geo. =x i'm not sure if i wanna kill myself with geo for the next 1.5 months. =S
finally, the business teacher. she touches on POA, business management and economics. hm. should i kill myself with geo or economics? HOW?!?!

finally, debrief. and then me, buddy and xl walked to westmall for lunch.

took mrt home. when i reached outram, i'm god damn tired. and i slept in the train from outram to paya lebar. gosh. >< you know how tired i am? can you imagine?! keeping quiet the entire day lo.

oh. there are students from cedar, CCHMS and of course some weirdo school. =x

damn! i wanna pon orientation. is so god damn boring!!! >< and each orientation(other than P1 cause there is no orientation in P1), there will bound to be someone with the same name as me. is valerie so common as that? >< *argh*

i wanna start lesson. i'll work hard. and be consistent in my studies. i swear. =x

done blogging.

-boring orientation. should have work-

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