woke up like 10 plus. then went to watch tv. i wanted to catch the episode of my HK drama that i missed. lols. =P

left house at about 2.20. took cab down to watch topshop fashion show at VIVO. -.-" and gosh!! the female models are like freaking thin la. they are practically skin and bone. and EEEE~~~ can see the ribcage can. so disgusting. >< the male models are like super all. one had super nice legs. while another is rather cute. hahas. he looks like one jap actor. lols. =) there was 20% off storewide. it's only for members la. thank god my sis's friend invited her. =P that's why we get to see it. lols. you know 20% makes a HUGE diff?! i saved like 30 bucks.. hahas.

went walking around. bought donuts. had to wait for freaking 40 minutes. and it's not as nice as the one at raffles city. >< not that i'm fussy or what. but it just doesn't have the taste. =( had marche for dinner. nope. this time, i'm smart. i didn't order mashed potatoes. =P

met my uncle. talked for awhile, then went home.

many things happened recently. and yaps. my life is really going to undergo a HUGE change. it's just a matter of time. in the meantime, i'll try my best to do less shopping. SAVE!!! and that means, good-bye godiva. hais. before i could really taste it, i have to say bye to it. *argh* but well. no one will ever know what will happen in future right? i just wanna have a happy family. who cares about being rich, when family's love is so much more important. and HELLO~! i haven't seen my dad since i started working. and it's like 3 weeks?! *sigh* daddy. i miss you.

done blogging.

-it's time to be sensible-

yap. finally step out of this house of mine. actually, driven out of this house. lols.

woke up at 8.45. cause my maid start waking my sis. and she threw my sis's bear on me. -.-" then my sis started coming to my bed and take it. then i woke up. and my maid off the air con. >< argh!!! i could have slept for another 2 hours. >< i tried sleeping back, but my maid started moving all the things from my mum's room to my room. cause the pipe in mum's toilet spoil. and some people are coming to repair.. damn. of all days!!! *argh*

so i slack till about 11.20, then prepare. met dum and crystal. went to collect dum's winnings. then went to bugis. went to play arcade. and met eve. wow!! how long have i not seen that lady?! hahas. ok ok. then went v8. gosh! it's still exisiting. hahas. the last time we went there with the other prefects, we spent up till 99 bucks. lols. dum and cong got a shocked of their lives. hahas. =x after lunch, went arcade again. then walk around. met ren, yq and their friend. then walk around again. saw yz!!! hahas. then went mos. then dar and cong join us lo. went sim lim to buy cong's stuff. then went home.

done blogging.

-i am all alone at the crossroads-

i had the weirdest dream. >< how long has it been since i last pack books? about a week ago. and guess what? i dreamt that i was packing books to prepare for the next popular fair!!! >< and this time, the aprons aren't red. they are white. lols. ya! crappiest dream. second part of the dream was, some of us were appointed to help mjr's principal with some stuff la. gosh. shows how much i miss school can? i'm bored at home!!!!

woke up at 10.15. and the entire day, i only watch tv. hais. how boring can life get? =(

i miss school. i miss bitching around with eve and puay. eating sweets in class. sms-ing in front of teacher. but right now, my phone is damn quiet la. =( i miss rushing through homeworks! i miss doing well for exams!!! hahas. fine. ><

done blogging.

-it's time to play with fire.[if you know what i mean.]-

wah lao. 2nd day le. second day of having this stupid stiff neck. and it's worse than the first time la! >< *argh* hate stiff neck!! "stiff neck, go away, come again another day. little meh meh want to play. stiff neck, go away." argh!!!

woke up like 9.30. yaps. another day at home. i practically finish all the free trial of the yahoo games. >< and i'm still so bored. hais. 1 plus, my maid got her friend to buy mac for me. cause she was going lucky plaza. but 2 plus, she's not back. and i was like damn hungry. >< only had lunch at 3. which isn't call lunch le. more like tea break. lols.

friday, might be going to play mahjong. cause the man is coming my house to repair some pipes. and it'll be so noisy. so i decided to go out. wheee~~ hahas. tml might go out too. to play bowling. hahas. =]

hais. suddenly, all the memories just come back. no matter how hard i wanna forget it all. i just can't. cause you were just so special to me. hmms. but... nope. things won't be the same again. cause i'm completely out of your world...

done blogging.

^{i don't know, i am the one for you in this life.}

-trying my best to stay strong.-

gosh. staying at home whole day is damn boring. all i can do is to eat, sleep and watch tv! i wanna go out!!! ><

yaps. my entry is all about eat, sleep and watch tv. how no life i can get. ><

just finish watching this show on channel 55. gosh. i want a guy to care for me too!!!! oh well. bgr can't be perfect like what we want them to be. so much for those promises. lols. =)

done blogging.

-darling. i love you. =)-

P.S: my darling is puay. hahas. =)

had a very nice dream last night. =) can't exactly remember what is it. but i remembered waking up with a smile. wow! hahas.=)

i switched my phone on, and received crystal's msg. in the end, i got to leave house at 11 just to pei her to the clinic and to collect her passport. and for the first time, she was on time. lols. =) anyway, went to somerset to collect her medical report. then when we are at the platform, then she realise that her weight was taken wrongly. she was supposed to be 43 kg. the lady wrote it as 52 kg. lols. i laugh and laugh. cause she's like so freaking thin, and yet heavier than me. lols. so funny.

then went to collect her passport. wah lao. the queue was so damn long la. we waited like an hour for her turn la. lols. and finally, her turn. wow. we waited for an hour. just for her to collect her passport within 5 minutes. -.-" that's like so lame la. hais.

went to TM. had long john silver for lunch. then met xl. after that went to ntuc to get my supper snacks. and finally, went to century. crystal went to take number to send her phone to "see a doctor". was quite long. so we went to see shoes. sians!! my purpose was to buy my shoes la. and they don't even have to stock! worse than far east.. -.-" so. went back up. and finally her turn. lols.

after that, we had nothing to do. so xl suggested to go catch a movie. we watched teenage mutant ninja turtle. it's like a damn crappy show la. lols. but somehow, it's like back to childhood days. lols. i remember watching ninja. but i hate all the fightings. hahas. anyway, i bought this popcorn combo, and they put the popcorn in the tin box. so after the movie, i throw all the popcorn away, and brought home the box. lols. =P

ok ok. school is like starting in 3 weeks time. yap yap. can't wait. to meet new friends and to learn to adapt in a new environment. some seniors ask me to chiong all 3 years. yap. especially first year. i must get into my favourite one!!! hahas. and of course. to have a higher chance to go uni. =) let's hope things will be good in tp. =) though he's in nyp!!!! AHHH!!! lols.

gosh! i'm treating my family to dinner this sunday. cause i got my pay. hahas. =) wheee~~

done blogging.

-i'm giving just this last chance.-

been sick for exactly a week!! wow. =S even my singing now sucks. GOSH! hahas.

still thinking. volleyball? choir? bowling? or drama? volleyball..... HA! *in dreamland* =x

short post. don't know what to blog. my life is just so boring all of a sudden. ><

done blogging.

-love? sorry. i think i don't have that word in my dictionary. =)-

like they always say, "jiu de bu qu, xin de bu lai."

i deleted all the msg in my inbox. it's not accidentally. but it's purposely. lols. i kept like only 4 msg. which was like good night msg. hahas. the rest are gone. =) hahas. time for new messages! hahas. bored.

been dying of boredom the entire day. really miss working. at least time seems to pass quite fast cause i keep looking at him. lols. but ya. the craze should be over now. after the boring talk that night. *yawn*

slept my afternoon away. then got up and watch cartoons. life now seems pretty boring. =( gosh. how to survive till april? lols.

my friend ask me to go to a concert next friday. but i rejected it. i don't know why. choir just doesn't seem to interest me any more. i see no point saying i'm from sop when i've done nothing to contribute to this choir. hahas. =)

my new adventure will begin soon. =)

as for now. let me slack my hours away. hahas.

done blogging.

-silent break. again?-

wow. i think i'm really fated with number 23. in both good and bad ways. lols. do you have any idea that there's a horror movie on number 23?! wah lao. ok. fated with 23, in a sense that many friends are born on 23rd. also that, 23 used to be a very special day. no more now. lols. and lastly, roland wore 23 on the first day of work. and he's my boss! so?? you see. i'm so fated with it. finally, puay's birthday today. happy birthday darling!!! =)

woke up like 10.30 this morning. then did my online registration. was freaking pissed off with my old printer. cause i have to try to print many times, there i finally get the whole full set of documents. sians. of all times, my new printer ran out of ink. -.-"

about 12.40, met crystal. took cab down to suntec. we watched happily never after, but we missed the first part. lols. the show was super lame. and it's only for an hour. so the show ended like 2. then we went walking around. wondering where to go and stuff. hk went to tbc. and we told her to forget about receiving johnny's call. cause his service not efficient de. lols. anyway, we walked about. then ended up at bugis to buy crystal's cover.

pearleen told me that she's in school, with chengyen and cailng. so i went back lo. we took mrt down. then bought bubble tea. reach school, talked to wu lao shi. can see that she miss us. wheee~~ hahas. then went to talk with dum and leonad. then went to canteen to sit. talked and complained to crystal about number of things. and eventually, i sorted out my thoughts. =)

then cailng came down, and i talked to her. talked about tp and him. hahas. cailng can't stand me. oops. =x ok ok. maybe i'm abit crazy. but i know this craze will be over. yap yap. lols. cause he's a boring guy!!! lols. =x anyway, i really miss her. =) saw christine too!!! wheee~~

left school about 6.30. went home with sh and crystal. =) saw this super cute boy. seriously. children are just so innocent. they have no idea that this world is actually so evil and so dark. this world is full of lies. and it's not as perfect as what they think it is. oh well. i wish i'm still innocent. hais. =(

wow. i'm starting to like this feeling of freedom. =) though i miss being in love. but.. hahas. no one to love now, i guess. =)

done blogging.

-just let me hold on to those memories we had. =)-

talked to him.. wheee~~ wasn't very enthu with the conversation at first. it was like HELL boring. guess. another person who has different mentality as me. gosh! things got funnier as the conversation went on. =) hahas. not bad. =) but i guess it's the last time. i don't want to be bored to death again!!! SAVE ME!!! hahas.

done blogging.

-love my life now. alone. yet colourful. =)-

wow. i really can't say i don't believe in fate. =P for a quite obvious reason. =)

met yz like 11+. we were suppose to meet at the head of the train. so i went in the first cabin. and she's actually at the second cabin. -.-" hahas. in the end we met. hahas. went to ocean building again. this time, it's her who needs to do the medical report. somehow, we didn't. cause the queue was too long. and we had to go to jurong.

so went back to raffles to meet sh. then another miscommunication. i'm quite blur today. =x anyway, we took train to jurong east. then went popular to ka jiao xiao ling. =x 3 of us can't help it but to start backing. and to put things to the proper place. lols. we bought our stuff. and used xiao ling's staff card to get some discount. lols. then xiao ling ask us to go have lunch first.

so we went to jurong centre to eat mac. eat half way, yz had to go to the loo. so she went out of mac to find one. suddenly, i receive her call. and guess what?! I SAW HIM~! HA! yap yap. then yz call me just to say, "DID YOU SEE THAT? DID YOU SEE THAT?!" lol. yaps! i saw!!! hahas. gosh!!! so freaking cute la. sh had to keep asking me to relax. lol. so cute. =x

after quite sometime, they left. =( but we still sat there. then we decided to leave. was about to cross the road to go back to popular. and he was opposite~!! ahhh~!! hahas. in the end, we didn't go to popular. we went back in, and look for xiao ling at food court. they were like joking and joking. somehow, i was in another world. hahas!! =x cut the crap. =x

went to orchard. did some window shopping. we took neoprints. which was like freaking long since i last took it la. lols. after that, went home.

everyone is in love. and gosh. lonely again. =(

done blogging.

-vanished into thin air-

woke up at 9.30. then slacked and used the comp till about 10.45. quickly prepare to leave my house. and i took the entire booklet along with me.

went to raffles place for my check up. it was rather fast. didn't really have to wait very long like what sh said. lols. i'm perfectly fine! wheee~ i was quite afraid that i might have diabetes. cause i'm always munching on sweets or chocolates. but, THANK GOD!, nope. i've got none. lols.

went to the nearby building to take a passport size photo. hahas. i see a huge difference. though the previous one i took was a lot nicer. but too bad. i lost them all. =( hais. went to meet my mum. then had lunch at cafe cartel. after that, went to DBS for my tuition grant. as the same time, got my card. ha! been waiting for this day for ages! hahas.

went to apply for job at cathay. really wonder what's up with my sis hearing. or probably she's crazy over money. the pay was 4.50, and she heard 5.50. -.-" and i might have to work from 4 a.m to 6 a.m! 0.o i want my sleep~! hahas. and i was almost knock down by a car today. thank god, mum held me back. *phew*

guess who msg me today? yaps. roland. seriously. i didn't expect him to really msg me. but yaps, he did. 8 years my senior, also tp. and he has same hobby has jason! gosh! both volleyballers. hahas. should i join volleyball too? and i'm wondering if i'm in same school as jason. ^^ anyway, so much for the OH~-HE-IS-SO-CUTE craze. it has pretty much died down. hahas. probably because i don't know him, and we shouldn't judge a book by its cover. and probably because people are starting to see me as a bitch. lols. oh well.

was reading through certain people's blog yesterday. and only to realise that i've been neglecting certain friends. especially puay. =( feel kinda guilty though. hais. and i realised that some people are totally in love. hahas. love is in the air~~ hahas. good luck to you guys ad cherish the other party yeah. =) hahas.

going out tml. to meet xiao ling for lunch. =) as the same time meet up with yz and rowena. =) wheee. hope it'll be a great day.

done blogging.

-once again, i'm all alone. =)-

i wonder how to readjust my human time clock. i woke up at 8. and i tried to sleep back. somehow, i woke up at 9.30. so came to use the comp.

talked to jia lat, yz and dylan. i waited for him to come online. and he did!! he did!! hahas. =) but ya. crystal taught me something. "haha" usually end a conversation. and yaps. i ended the conversation with "haha". DOTS! then i don't dare to talk to him anymore. AHHH!!! =( after that, i wanted to go out to catch a movie. somehow, it didn't happen. cause i wasn't feeling that well, and i'm lazy to go out. ><

i was feeling super tired. slept about 1.30. and i just woke up. like 5.45? gosh. i feel alot better. lols. =) tml got medical checkup. somehow i think the report will turns out quite bad. >< hais.

hopefully, i'll get a job at cathay there. pray hard. =) urgently in need of a job. hahas. and wheeee~~~ hopefully we can talk more. =) hahas.

done blogging.

-taking one step at a time.-

to entertain you, i specially gone through all the trouble just to get my pictures uploaded. and ta da! i'm going to present you the fun and special moments i had during this book fair. =) though it's only like a short period of time, yet the friends i made is really funny and cool people. =)

people i'll remember:
yun zhen
xiang lin
amanda
yeang cherng
philbert
marty
marcus
xiao ling~
pei pei[event supervisor]
roland[no.23]
HIM HIM HIM~! HA!

the moment you've been waiting for, PICTURES!


my masterpiece! i carry the boxes and display the drawing blocks! ha!


philbert at the back, yeang cherng and me in the front. =P


his backview~~~ gosh~! so high! hahas.


alex, me and jc. they were working at metro.


me and xiao ling(set up supervisor)


my grass, amanda, and me!


rowena and me!


yun zhen and me!


me, yeang cherng and amanda. =)


rowena, me, yun zhen and xiao ling. wheee~~ stationery department rocks!


a funny picture of philbert. lols.

done posting. =)

day 1
somehow, i'm in test and assessments department. and i seriously hate it to the core. cause i have to carry many books. >< and i think it's such a WRONG decision to put me there. lols. cause i've never like packing books and arranging them properly. anyway, i wasn't really used to it in the beginning of the day, but was more familiar with stuff towards the end. i was the only part timer there. and that sucks! i have like 8 publishers to handle. >< i was so tired at the end of the day. but during work, i was quite enthu. HA! cause someone gave me energy! wheee~~

day 2
got a hang of things by this day. did slack though. cause my leg was hell pain. >< and my hands had like 2 blue blacks and 6 on my legs. >< gosh! lols. but i was super high today. YAPS! he talked to me!! whee~~ lols. i didn't dare to look into his eyes though. =x hahas! he was only asking if i needed the trolley. and wow! he's so tall!! ^^ wheee~~ hahas. i'm like so high. and my ex supervisor, xiao ling, thinks i'm crazy. lols. dum made me jealous. cause he talked to him more than me!!! =( hmph. anyway, roland tried to take my number. but nope. he couldn't remember it. TOO BAD! hahas. he's quite crappy la. anyway, got this small boy pee on the floor[don't ask me how!], so they used a box to cover the part. and my supervisor ask me to make sure no one step on it. so i stood near it la. and it looks as if i'm the culprit. =(

day 3
my legs are so freaking pain. and i have 2 blisters. =( but still manage to survive till the end. yeah me! hahas. saw him many times. but didn't talk to him. =( roland didn't come today. cause he hurt his hand. LOL. =x went home quite early today. lols. anyway, he was at the door. and he checked dum's bag. =( a DAO girl checked mine! hmph!

day 4
was quite high in the morning. but felt quite giddy after that. i felt like vomitting. and i was having sore throat. so i ask for permission to rest at the eating area. i sat down at the back. i was sort of blocking people's way la. =x anyway, sh accompany me there. then she ask for panadol from xiao ling. xiao ling came to check if i was fine. so i took 2 panadols. then i close my eyes awhile. my headache was subsiding. when some one drag his shoes to the area la. then i open my eyes. i didn't see who. but i saw the shoes. and it was HIM!!! ahhh!! don't know if i should feel happy or not. but i was quite irritated at that time. cause my headache came back again. ARGH! after that, i felt alot better. and went back to work. i work till 9.30. and i know that i won't have a chance to see him. cause he won't come to my department anyway. so i said, if we are fated, he'll walked pass me before 10. and WOW! he did! he did! hahas. 9.58, he walked pass me. =) wheee~~ hahas. =) then going home, he is the one checking the bag. so i thought he can't check girls bag, since the day before, a DAO girl checked the bag. so i joked, i said that we girls don't have to get our bags checked right? then he said NEED.. WHEEE~~ so high!! hahas. ^^

last day.
crystal, sh, dum, and dar didn't go. so i met up with yz and gang. was cool. felt quite bonded with them. anyway, i went back to the stationery department. then quite alot of dirty jokes la. anyway, we were asked the fold the cloth thingy. it was pretty long. so me and yz fold one. it was pretty fast. but the DAO girl said, "some people no strength ma. need 2 people to fold one cloth.". freaking pissed off la. they get paid for sitting down and do nothing. and we get paid for carrying heavy cartons and standing for long hours. f*ck! they are so young and yet HOOK a guy who is a generation older. where the hell is your face? oh. i forgot. you are shameless. ha!=x ok. being mean. hais. i'm just not happy with how we are treated. and some guys have no balls! can't even carry heavy cartons. cartons that we girls can carry. BALL-LESS GUYS! hmph. ok. not all guys are like that. some guys are man enough to help out. =) whee~ hahas. anyway, something quite funny happen. lols. i was trying to push a wagon in between many. and amanda tried to make space for it. somehow, the wagons fell like dominos. so funny. lols. =x oh well. left early. hahas. went to hand in my timesheet. and i got quite a few job offers. hahas. ahhh!! i got his e-mail add. hopefully we could be friends? =x hahas! SO HIGH!!!! oh well oh well. last day to see him. guess no more bahs. =(

anyway, working in this fair really taught me alot.i saw how some kids reacted when their parents are buying assessments. some are enthu, some aren't. those who aren't, reminds me of myself. i hated doing assessments. and really, i'm quite happy that my parents are concern about my studies. and i ought to feel ashamed that i couldn't be bothered about my studies last time. =( anyway, my suppliers are friendly people. i was talking to the yellowreef supplier. and he called me a scholar. =) felt so happy to hear that. and i really felt like one suddenly. =x anyway, there was a joke between us. and yap. they don't want to see me the next fair. cause they wanted me to study. =) yaps. i feel happy. even strangers cared about my future. why shouldn't i care about my own future? lols. guess some things will change soon. =)

done blogging.

-you gave me all the energy i needed to complete this job. =)-

WAHS!~~ i'm super high! lols. tml will probably be the last day i'm working. depends. hopefully not! i wanna go tear down! at least i've an extra day to admire... hahas.

freakingly having cold sore. and i'm disgusted with my leg. filled with BLUE BLACKS! yucks! finally, my finger nails all broken and my skin was kinda pealing. but i enjoyed myself. =) seriously. i love the friends i mixed with. yun zhen, xiang lin, yang cern, philbert, marcus, martini, amanda, xiao ling(set up supervisor), pei pei(event supervisor), johnny(xiao ling's friend), roland(no. 23). and finally, HIM! though i don't know him, but he's cute! ha! and he talked to me yesterday. only one sentence though. =( but anyway, still good! hahas. =x

anyway, learnt many things from this fair. my suppliers were friendly, love to joke with me. and really nice people. SAP supplier was always willing to help me. joke and crap with me. cosmic supplier is another one. super style, classy and humourous. he's super cool! hahas. =) not forgetting the pretty EPH lady who keep helping me. too bad, she hired 2 slackers as promoter. sad for her. =x

will update soon. time to rest my pathetic legs. another long day tml. and MORE BLUE BLACKS, BLISTERS, CUTS! GOSH!!! =( oh well.

i'm so high. =P

oh! call me a BITCH if you want to. =)

done blogging.

-cherish me. it's never too late. ^{but i guess you won't!}-

met sh 8.15. went to food court to drink milo. then went to start work. i carried like a whole lot of drawing blocks la. and it's freaking heavy. i was about to finish my display when the manager ask said, "it's nice. but..." and guess what? i had to take down all the display and put another layer before i put back the display. *ARGH*

went for lunch. ate with my department people. after that, we put display of the files. it was super heavy la. so my supervisor, ask me to carry. somehow i couldn't. so i ask that no. 23 guy to help me. but he was busy. and he ask that cute guy to help me. >< then i went away. =x somehow, the manager ask me to put more display on the wagon, so i went. and guess what? that no. 23 guy came and tell me the cute guy's name. -.-" DOTS!!! lols. did super many things. until i have about 9 cuts, and 4 blue blacks. YEAH ME!! lols. one of the cut was by the pen knife. lols.

went for dinner with my department people again. my supervisor can't stand the way i eat. lols. after that, went back to do other jobs. me and sh carried alot of heavy boxes. and when yz ask the guys to help, they complained. wtf. HELLO! ARE YOU A GUY OR ARE YOU NOT? if you are, i think i've more strength than you! you totally disgust me. and i think, you can forget about going NS. you sure can't make it. LOSERS!

xiao ling, my supervisor, ask me to ask someone to carry a plate. so i ask that no. 23 guy to help me. and he ask that cute guy to come. -.-" and the girls bully me!!! >< evil people. lols. anyway, he's cool. =) hahas. kinda slack from 8.30 to 9.30. i was packing the notebooks and the POP thingy. then he passed me the books to arrange!!! AHHH!! ok ok. i'm mad. lols.

was about to let the overall in charge to sign my timesheet. and that no.23 guy(don't know his name, but he wore a no.23 shirt yesterday. =x), told me, "i helped you alot today. i keep asking him to help you. so don't say i bad.". DOTS!!! -.-" anyway, tml i'm in another department. and that stupid no. 23 guy sure to ka jiao me. cause he is one of the IC! and he has to make sure i do my job. -.-" ^{just let me see him.} =) i'll miss xiao ling. hahas. =P

done blogging.

-i'm head over heels!!!! =P-

P.S:i'm not crushing on that guy. i just find him cute. HAHA!

first day at work, was quite bad. did many sai kang. >< and ya~ i'm seriously not used to it. lols.

anyway, we started at 9. arrange all the tables. set the tables up. then put all the wagons. after that, we were divided into many departments. at first, i'm different with sh. but i volunteered to go to her department. lols. =) crystal was in chinese department, but me and sh in stationery de. lols.

our job was actually to arrange all the different types of notebook. we did half way, and was asked to help another lady. our immediate supervisor was nice. she treated us like her friends. joke and laugh with us. =) whereas the other lady tortured us. WHERE THE HELL ARE THE GUYS!? DEAD?! argh. we arranged and carried quite alot of things. as soon as we finished, she ask us to do another thing. -.-" can't stand her.

after dinner, our job was alot easier. we went back to arrange MORE notebooks. lols. and 5 notebooks is an hour of my pay! lols. that cheap. and it's nice. lols. =) got to know quite alot of people. they are really friendly. and one guy know me as the "CHOIR DE". then my supervisor call me the popeye. i wonder why.. hmms.

OH OH~! i saw this super cute guy!!! he's like SUPER tall. and SUPER cute. =) woots~ hahas. yap yap!! i wanna take his number!!! hahas. =) ok ok. soon. another 6 days later, i should get it. HAHAS~. =P and while carrying a plank, i knock this guy's head. >< oops~~

ok. blog soon.

-in love land? NAHS! don't think so. hahas.-

i wanna seat CABLE CAR!!

another boring day of the week. lols. i didn't even realise it's already the march holidays. lols. it used to be the time when i catch up with my schoolwork and finish all the LATE! work. lols. of course i would go out for 3 days or so. and use the sunday to do last minute work. hahas! miss those days when mum always nag at me for always doing last minute wor. haha. anyway, i'm starting to lose track of time. ><

woke up at 10 today. made a slight improvement. =) hahas. immediately, i switched on the comp. YES! freakingly addicted to this game. it's kinda like detective kind of games. whereby you look for all the items on the list. and you get to crack the mystery. lol. it's fun. =)

i wonder what's wrong with me. lols. been having lots of craving these days. and yap! had chicken chop for lunch today, after making quite a huge fuss. =x lols. went to buy chicken chop at the hawker centre and of course, made my way to econs minimart to buy jelly powder!! i'm making jelly today. =) whee~ it's for myself this time. i can't help it. i just can't stop eating this week. hahas. i predict i'll be sick soon. lols. =)

tml, officially, is the start of my work week. woohoo~~ i'll get money le. =) hahas. but somehow, i won't be able to meet potato, boon, puay and mummy. =( from the tone that puay gave last night, she wasn't happy. =S sorry puay!!! ><

damn. feel like bowling. >< lols. SH!! owe me a bowling date after this work! hahas. =)

i'm so bored. >< shall go back to my game. if not, my dvd!! hahas.

done blogging.

-i'll be heartless. not to anyone, but to myself.-

woke up 11 again. slept until so nice. =) sleeping shall be my future hobby. lols. had a lot of breakfast. ><

lunch was quite late. and i spent half my day watching my show. lols. watch till 4.45, my mum drag me to the gym. did some workout. then came home and use the comp. >< gosh. i feel so lazy. worse! i've got work next week. -.-"

to puay: MISS YOU ALOT!!

lols.

short post. don't know what to post. lols.

done blogging.

-shopping mood!-

woke up like 11. finally i slept until so nice. =) then used sis comp. my cousin came. ^^ then had lunch. watch my dvd. suddenly, i scream. my snowy's tail coming off. ='( my mum asked me to throw. but i didn't want to. HELLO. snowy was the only thing that kept me company through lonely nights. kept me company when i was feeling down. i want a new toy!! =(

watch till like 6.45, then left house. went tm with mum. was freaking squeezy la. had dinner at central. then went shopping. then came home.

hmms. was talking to a senior last night. he told me that no matter what, i was a small girl in his eyes. oh well. suddenly, i wish everyone who know me, will see me as a grown up girl. and not a small little kid who only know how to throw her tantrum. but i guess, it's not that they want to see me as a small kid. but it's just the way i present myself. =)

then, i was talking to mum during dinner. i told her that my purpose of getting into triple science was partly because i wanted to show everyone that i could do what my sis can. and i wanted my parents to be proud of me. my mum then told me that i did't had to do that. cause everyone has their own strong points. and mine, is definitely not studying. i have to agree with her. she told me that she has always been worried about me. she was afraid i couldn't move on to the next part. and i felt a sense of satisfaction when i finally put her mind at ease when i manage to do well for Os and move on.

at that instance, i wish that i could really do well in poly to show my parents that i didn't make the wrong decision in choosing that course. and that i'll do my very best in whatever i choose to be. =)

the most beautiful lady is not the girl with looks. but the girl with confidence in herself.

so, i've decided to be a beauty of my own life. a girl, not with looks, but a girl with confidence. i know i can. =)

it's just time to isolate myself. to isolate myself from this world of lies. to prevent myself from getting hurt again and again. and yes. i find it hard to love you now. probably because i don't know what's in your mind. and probably i don't even exist in your world now. it just so difficult to pretend that i'm absolutely fine in front of you. but deep down, it hurts so much. that i feel like crying out. but, i guess it doesn't matter anymore. sorry. this heart has long stop beating. that very day when you no longer care.

work starts next week. and only for a week. 13-19. i'll find another job after that. gotta expose myself. and gain more experience. and no more rotting at home. i hate staying at home! >< damn. feel like bowling.

done blogging.

-i got to change myself totally.-

woke up like 9 plus today. then came online to check something. then got prepared at 11.30. wait for crystal to leave house from 11.45 to 12.30 la. -.-" then went to see doctor. she took mc. lols.

we took cab to IT fair. it's friday, and it's like super crowded. seriously, did those people even went to work? lols. went to 4th floor. took many brochure. then went lenovo to take brochure and look for xl and dylan. went to ka jiao shu ting, cause she was working there too. i saw my ex boss. but he didn't see me. saw many familiar faces. didn't see yousri though. lols. then was talking to xl when suddenly someone tap my head la. then it was dylan. -.-" talking to customer still ka jiao me. -.-" anyway, we left after a short while. and stupid dylan complaint why i didn't get him something. *arbish*

took cab to mjr. saw ms quek. didn't chat much. then went to canteen to slack. after that went to choir. gosh. i just love the sound of sop. and seriously, i miss being in choir alot. =( sang NAME THE TUNE along with them. and wow! i still know the tune k? not bad. lols. met many of my juniors. miss them loads. =) was about to leave when i realise CHRISTINE was in school. took picture with her. sis! i miss you hell loads! wanna go out with you soon! and with cai cai!! hehes. =)

then left. took taxi to marina square. wanted to bowl. but so many people. we waited for like an hour before we got a lane. then we bowl lo. first round was bad. then second round was super funny. guess what? i saw this super cute boy. think he is only 5 years old. he carry the ball, put it at the line there, then he push and let it roll. when it was gutter ball, he still clap and run to his mummy and smile. so cute lo. =) and got this round, he bowl first. and he hit 6 pins down. and i hit none la. >< but he is cute. =) his overall points was 19. hahas. *claps* hahas. guess what? i finally win dum in the second round. mins 96, i'm 78 and dum 73!! hahas. =x

here i am back home. gosh. lenovo's laptop caught my eye! lols. anyway, currently talking to a few friends. my senior, who somehow become my er zi. glenn and jian yao. gosh. suddenly miss mjr. =( puay! when are you jio-ing me out?? ><

done blogging.

-HA! call me bitch for all i care.-

woke up like 9.30. had breakfast and stuff, and started making my chocolate truffle. looks kinda nice. =) left it in the refrigerator for like an hour or so. the took it out, roll it into a ball and add some toppings.

i slacked all the way till 3, then left house and met mins, eve and yu ren at parkway. i took cab down. -.-" i gave them my pudding and chocolate. they said the chocolate too sweet. but i didn't even put any sugar. >< sians. then walk around. was feeling crappy. so i crapped alot. ><

took bus to eunos and mrt to marina bay. met dum, dar and crystal. took bus 400 to chong pang. i love chong pang! lols. started our steamboat. i was so lazy to cook, so i just ate whatever they cook. we chatted quite alot. finally caught up with each other's life. of course there was alot of joke. the entire time, we were gossipping, crapping and laughing.

as soon as we finished, we went to bowl. yu ren, me and min one team, dum, dar and crystal another team. quite crappy la. i only strike once, and spare twice. >< sians. after that, went to play acrade. suddenly i saw an extra head. then realise it was angel de. -.-" after that, went home.

saw the night scenery of CBD again. my future working area. =) yaps. then crap alot on the way home. was super sleepy. >< AND THERE IS NO WAY AM I EVER WATCHING HAUNTED SCHOOL! NO!!!

today, going IT fair. go pay "uncle" dylan a visit. lols. and xl of course. and stake many many brochure for my laptop. lols. should be going back mjr bahs. i miss school. =)

who says nothing last forever? memories do. =) and they'll always remain in my mind.

done blogging.

-i'm a fu*kin bitch. LOL.-

slept super late. didn't know why. i just couldn't sleep. ^{guess i was worried about you.} anyway, somehow, manage to fall asleep.woke up like 10 a.m. then came online and chat with a few friends. angel finally decided to appeal. =) follow your heart man! hahas. then made my mango pudding. who wants?? lols.

as you can see, i also changed my blogskin. though it's super pink and blah blah blah, but ya. kinda nice. and the navigation pictures make me feel hungry. >< not sure what to do later on. maybe watch my dvds. lols. and ya!! mummy asking me to look for new lappy. wheee~~~ finally!! hahas. kk. i'm not some kind of rich girl who will have whatever i want. so having a laptop is something exciting! hahas.

ok ok. some friends went to jc for orientation. hopefully things turn out well. =) for those who are waiting for their appeal letter, don't give up. keep that positive thinking, you will never know what the outcome is. =) smiles. of course, for us, poly students, we are already in the next part of life. whereby we won't really be dependent on teachers and it's really up to us to choose what we wanna be in future. =) i guess i didn't make any wrong choices. hahas. =)

ok ok. enough crap. crapped too much recently and all my entries turn out to be junk. lols. anyway, pictures time!!


my self-made manicure. =P


"gorgeous" necklace i saw at diva.


my beloved black titanium ring


my niece!!


woke up and saw my brownie patting the head of my wee wee. =x


mins, eve and me!


this pooh bear phone thingy. so nice. =)


took a photo of the sweet innocent girl i saw yesterday. =) cute right?! i want a baby too!! lols.


my for-no-reason cut. -.-"


done blogging.

-always wanted to feel your love again.-

slept like going 2 this morning cause i was chiong-ing my HK drama. lols. i love the ending. =) who dare to doubt the power of love? hahas.

my maid woke me up this morning, telling me it's 8. so i quickly went to check my posting. HA! TP! my first choice. so happy. after helping glenn and sh checked, i realised it's only 7.30 la! so i went back to bed. but i left my msn on. i heard a lot of sound. cause of the msn. and i couldn't stand it. so i woke up at 9.45. then chatted with my friends. left house about 11.45.

went to PS so repair my heels. saw sihui. hahas. then after that, i took mrt to orchard. walked to lucky plaza. suddenly sh told me her building shaking. then my mum's msg came, saying that there was earthquake. >< after going lucky plaza i went MOUNT E. wanted to take my medicine. but somehow, i can't rmb which level. so i called home. sis said 14, but i had a feeling it was 6. so i trusted my sis. i went to the lift and wanted to go level 14. but that lift only up to level 11. so i went to another lift and up to level 14, but not that clinic. then went to 13, down to 12, to 11, to 10. still don't have. so i went to level 2. then went to level 8. finally i ended up at level 6. DAMN! why didn't i trust myself? ><

after collecting, i called my maid. then i told her what happened. and she laughed. so i told her i'm so guilty for not trusting myself. i hurt myself so terribly. but at least, i'm starting to love myself so much! hahas. and she laughed. i was walking along the underground. and it's blackout la! shows how serious is the earthquake. so i told my maid i'm scare. and somemore this guy keep blocking me. i wasn't sure what he was doing, until i realise he was trying to give me some leaflet. lols.

took mrt to city hall to meet eve, dum and dar first. i thought i was late. in the end i was the earlies. -.-" then went to ka jiao min. hahas! she same course as me. guess TP is now flooded with all MJR-ians. lols. anyway, when the rest came, we went asian kitchen to eat. and i ordered prawn wantan. then the waiter was trying to inform me that what i ordered has no noodle. being blur, i asked, "so is there wantan?". then eve, dum and dar laugh at me. >< lols.

went to arcarde. watch dar play. then went to meet crystal. after that went to the fountain there to pei dar withdraw money. GUESS WHO I SAW?! HAHA!!! yes! him! wow. lols. didn't expect to see him there, but ya! i saw. cool right? lols. =) anyway, i have never talked to him before. and ya. i'll keep strictly to my law. =P
MEH's LAW 2: cute guys to look at. handsome guys to admire. perfect guys to want and have them as boyfriends/husbands. ok. lame law. lols.

after withdrawing money, went gelare. had small waffle. half price. lols. the rest had ice creams. i ate 5 cherries today. =P then we sat there and talked. saw this super cute baby with HUGE eyes! she look so innocent. =) simply love her. lol. then we talked about guys. jordan say something about acs. and i said, "ACS, MAMA BOY.". then eve said, "mjr also have one. but it's mummy's boy.". so i said, "MJR, MUMMY's BOY". lols. went to carrefour. i bought heavy cream for my chocolate TRUFFLE! lols. making it on thursday. pudding tml! hahas.

went home about 6.30. on our way, we keep teasing dum. then we said,
eve: xxxxxx is
me: mjr's
dar: mummy's boy.
then he so paiseh. lols.

walked by citylink. and i saw dylan. lols. then eve ask me why i blush. I DIDN'T!!! hahas. she said he isn't bad looking. weird. guys who are handsome always think they are ugly and are no wanted by girls. but it always seems the other way round. HAHA! that applies to both dan and dylan! =P

went back to min's shop and ka jiao her. but i was super hungry, so i went to buy kinder brueno. hahas. finish both by myself. =P then went home.

hmms. always wanted to be by your side no matter what happens. but i guess you don't need me to. anyway, take care and smile always. you'll never know who will fall for your smile. =)

done blogging.

-freaking cut. for no reason.-

some students still went back school to attend the last day of first 3 months. while some are enjoying their holidays. some may still be working. as for me, i'm home slacking. lols.

mum is home today, so it's kinda obvous that i won't be home. expected. lols. was kinda in a baking mood today. wanted to do chocolate truffle, but i have none of the ingredients. -.-" so i was about to do the pudding. before i can start, my mum pulled me to granny's house.

bought my lunch and some dumplings for granny. then walked to granny's house. guess who was there? my beloved niece!! lols. i had lunch in the kitchen. then i was talking to the maids. suddenly they told me something very funny. lols. they said i have a boyfriend. lols. ERMS!!!! like since when? i told them i don't. and they laughed and said that my mum allow me to have one only after 18. and they claimed that i can tell my mum about it, if i have one. -.-" erms.. HOW COME THEY KNOW SOMETHING THAT I DON'T?! lol. hmms. weird. anyway, good. i got about 2 years to find one. hahas. anyway, we chatted. it's really cool talking to them. HAHA! =P

after lunch, i went to play with my niece. she's kinda active. lols. she crawls around the house. and not to mention violent! she threw her toys every where la. dots. she loved exploring the house, rather than being in bed. lols. played with her a little longer. then went to view a condo nearby with mum. i love the design. except that the house is super small. like WAY smaller than my house. lols.

took taxi to parkway. bought 1 more top. then went to buy MORE HK dramas. lols. and bought a blender. gosh. that guy who serve us know his products damn well. HAHA. and and.. erms. hahas. nothing. took cab home again. and i told my mum i wanna learn driving during year 3 and of course after poly, can find job with driving license. and the driver said, "be taxi driver lo. also need driving license.". -.-" dots.

so here i am. home. so freaking tired. tml going out. and damn! posting is out tml. pray hard i get my first choice!!! lol.

done blogging.

-I HAVE A DREAM. --Martin Luther King-

woke up like 10.30. then sat in front of the tv whole day. didn't do much. just busy chasing my HK drama! lols.

everyone is like getting a job. and i only got a job for a week. >< gosh. i feel so pig. >< lols. dylan went back to the lenovo job, xing lun too. and they asked if i was going back. i guess nahs. so lazy. and i complained to dylan why charlie didn't call me. and he said that even if he were to call me, i won't go back. say until he know me so well. lols. anyway, have 2 missed calls this week. weirdo numbers. hmms.

tuesday posting!! hahas. then i'll go back to the agency to ask for more jobs. hopefully i get one. i need more clothes! hahas. and finally! FINALLY can buy new shoes. lols. thursday going steamboat. wheee~~ i finally get to see eve and mins! =)

ok. done blogging.

-black titanium. love.-

woke up at 9 plus today. cause i slept at 1 this morning. then remembered it's dylan's birthday today. so wished him. lols. and he replied super late. cause he was drunk and only woke up in the evening -.-"

anyway, let house at 11.15 and went IMM with mum. freaking pissed off with those who push their ways up the shuttle bus. HELLO! you're hurting the person you pushed! heartless people! hmph. went S&K and bought 2 tops. 60% off!!! lols. then went to ebase. mum bought 2 shirts for herself. then she went to bysi or something like that to buy another 2 tops. and she gave me 150 bucks to spend for poly clothes. LOL! i only spent 50 today. =P cause i bought an esprit pants for 30. lols. =P

absolutely nothing much to shop at IMM. so left there about 4.30. took cab home. =P

wheee~ i'm going to make chocolates soon. =P

done blogging.

-do you still love me?-

i got a black titanium ring!!! ^^ super nice. =)

done blogging.

-this part of my life is "stupid".-

woke up like 8. gave dar miss call. wanted to call dum, but decided not to, so ask dar to call. then got prepared and left my house.

met all of them and went to clementi. a few jokes on the way, so the entire journey didn't seem like a long ride. then went to take bus 183. and guess what i saw? i saw POP something. erms. that lolly pop la. so i bought. =x

we kinda lost our way to the building, but thanks to a girl i met on the bus, we found our way. then we were late for the interview! actually, it turns out to be a briefing. -.-" but never mind. went back to suntec to get our time sheet and schedule.

went to pizza hut at suntec. the service was supper slow and horrible la! we waited for half an hour just to get our drinks. and those who came after us, got theirs first. HELLO! freaking pissed! and our meal came before soup!!! -.-" couldn't enjoy this meal at all. argh.

sh and glenn left first. so dum, dar, crystal and me went bowling. and my first try was super good! i got spare! lols. tyco. =x lols. in the end lost. lols. went to buy pop corn. had cravings. =x lols. after sometime, sh came to find us. then left again. lols. then dar left. so 3 of us walk around lo. 6 plus got home.

i saw a couple today. ex mjr-ian. somehow, deep down inside, i felt lonely. i'm pretty much used to this life now. yet, sometimes, i wish there was someone there to hold my hands and to assure me that things will be fine when i was down. friends filled that space sometimes. a hug from them to let me know they are there. but.. all i want was just to be loved.... hmms. never mind.

done blogging.

-it's back to this life.-

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3.friends
4.health
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-CHOCOLATES
-SWEETS
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-smiles
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condemn
-liars
-tears
-darkness
-sadness
-scoldings, naggings
-dentist =x

meh's dreams
-go venice
-go hawaii
-go paris
-go abroad to study
-new precious thoughts stuff toy
-sweet v day =)
-new heels!
-new slipper
-new jeans
-new sling bag
-try GODIVA chocolater
-master pool properly
-get into my favourite course
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